have been dealing w/ chest/arm pain lately and i’ve been So convinced im gonna die of a heart attack within the next week… mind u i am a healthy 5’9” 130 lb woman who rarely eats fried/greasy foods, almost exclusively eats lean/unprocessed when it comes to meat, doesn’t smoke or drink in excess (occasionally will smoke a joint or have like one drink if i’m at the bar but very rarely), walks at least a mile a day, and has no pre existing conditions that we know of apart from bad See More health anxiety and some weird uterus stuff but that’s not
nervous ab this as if i wasn’t literally calling my mother into the spare room i slept in 10 years ago (refused to sleep in my actual bedroom bc i threw up in there in 4th grade and was convinced it’d happen again if i slept there again) bc i thought i was having a heart attack
about 17 hours ago
about 17 hours ago
remaking tape for guy i’m into but with riskier songs bc i am young and pretty and i can do whatever i want with this beautiful life o’ mine!
god i feel so much more confident without femcel voldemort in my ears telling me i have no chance
about 18 hours ago
about 18 hours ago
i’m so excited that i learned how to knit… i will make a scarf for my future concrete porch goose. and a hat for my Beautiful Wife
yesterday
reading the ancient texts (old feast posts) and in 2022 i posted "REHEHEHE" and then commented "Sorry guys my quandale dingle alter fronted" i will never be that funny again oh my goddd
yesterday
picking up high society again but just Absolutely ruining every single character everybody gets flanderized also making them be in a polycule
yesterday
the more i think about it the more i am realizing that my former best friend was jealous of me all along
like i get it tbh?? like undeniably between the two of us i was always the one who got the most attention from men/other women but why was she mad at me for that That is not what I intended
on Tuesday
on Tuesday
why is it that i could not learn how to crochet like I gave myself so many headaches trying to learn n could never figure out anything beyond a chain stitch but knitting??? Literally watched two youtube tutorials and got it instantly i still need to practice and get my yarn tension down but the motions themselves??? i can knit and purl endlessly wtf
on Tuesday
how do u know if ur in a slow burn situation or you’re just delusional
it’s been over 6 months and the look in his eyes while i sat on the edge of his bed and reached for his hand is still stuck in my brain guys am i cooked
on Tuesday
it’s been 2 years and nothing has happened but also nothing has ….not happened? like nobody’s addressing the elephant in the room directly but it’s very much there and there have been SO many moments where lines have been crossed to the point where i have to jump thru hoops to even convince myself this could Possibly be a platonic interaction… ok we just hugged See More goodbye at the train station but it’s been a solid fifteen seconds and you still have your hands on me and now my hands are on you also and another fifteen seconds passed and we are staring longingly into one another’s eyes Are we both just too autistic to pick up on one another’s social cues what’s going on
on Tuesday
on Tuesday
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siren song at the lake before a thunderstorm
siren song at the lake before a thunderstorm
on Saturday
boutta head to my 10hr shift (i’ve gotten maybe 8 hrs of sleep in the past 2 nights my cramps have been so bad i have not been able to stay asleep more than 3 hrs at a time and im bleeding so heavy im dizzy Yayyy yayy womanhood)
on Saturday
also that guy Ousghshdjeh i keep rereading journal entries from after i see him and it makes me want him so bad I truly feel like the truest version of myself around him bc i know he’s not gonna be put off by me nor is he going to get weird/creepy ab my quirks Truly the only person i’ve been able to fall asleep beside too
i remember 2 years ago just laying awake in bed every time my then gf would sleep over and having to lie and pretend i actually slept so i wouldn’t hurt her feelings May 20 2026 at this guy’s house laid down next to him on the couch Woke up w my head flush against his upper leg about 6 inches away from his crotch He did not lean into it nor did he make any effort See More to move away
on Friday
on Friday
also funny af how she had no problem w any of my situationships except devious white boy… radio silence when my ex gf was cancelling every day to go cheat on me w my other friend Nothing ab the guy i was seeing who was doing a shit ton of coke and molly every day then calling me on the phone while i was in class (time zone difference also he lives in europe) bc he eloped while intoxicated and got lost Also actively encouraged me to keep seeing this one guy who i actively stated See More i had no feelings for but she did not fw the guy ive liked for two years who has approached me with more gentleness and understanding than anyone else i know Literally a man who i would say deserved sm better than the person i was before this summer and has probably had every right and reason to just walk away from me but chose to stick around
on Friday
former best friend posting ab me on twitter Loser shit imma post about her on qfeast
she made a post about how she took a pic of me and the guy i liked n i said “we look like isaiah and ethel cain” n she thought i meant some couple shit Bro isaiah trafficked murdered and cannibalized her i said that shit cuz we were posed up in front of a church dressed like them looking evil as fuckk
on Friday
on Friday
local girl convinced she is having heart attack and will die tonight (i’m not overweight, i don’t have heart disease or diabetes, i dont rly drink or smoke much these days, i walk a lot, and i dont drink soda or eat fast food or much oil at all aside from some olive oil + butter on my toast)
7 days ago