former best friend was apparently super jealous of me bc i got more male attention and was worried i was into the guy she liked Brother I thought i was lesbian for 2 years and have been hung up on the man who made me realize im not since i figured it out Im the last person u need to worry about here
cicada
i don’t want your ripped party boy anime character that you have to supervise constantly I like when men are bigger and also autistic
about an hour ago
cicada
also guy she likes actually was into me before she even met him LMFAO i wasn’t interested cuz he’s not my type. her guy is social impulsive very outgoing and conventionally attractive muscular looks like an anime character guy… my guy is shy and awkward and much more introverted prefers to talk for 2 hrs ab his special interests and then be quiet til i leave See More + he’s also not super conventionally attractive like i think he’s absolutely beautiful but he’s Just some guy
about an hour ago
about an hour ago
guy i hang out with has the same name as a popular gay bar in my city and i remember a while ago i told my friends (two gay men) “i’m going to ____’s later” and they both got super weird about it and i didn’t understand why until like a year later
about 4 hours ago
someone j asked if they could borrow my looper and i think i felt what dads feel when someone likes their daughter
also even if it didn’t holy shit live looping is difficult I did not realize how hard it is to use these devices until i got my first looper and literally gave up for a solid 5 months bc it was so hard to get the timing down and be able to write harmonies from thin air. and my first looper was a super simple 1 track pedal… i can’t imagine jumping in head first See More w the rc505 LMFAOO
about 20 hours ago
about 20 hours ago
customer came in today and asked me “trick or treat” and i said trick and she gave me a little bottle of soju
on Saturday
have been replaying ocarina of time realizing i actually love the shadow temple it’s lowk the best one…
i am rly enjoying shadow tho partly from nostalgia (remembering the sheer wonder i experienced the first time i rode the ghost boat) but also cuz im playing the n64 version rn instead of the 3ds one and the shadow temple is like… gory and bloody kinda it rules… like who put this literal torture dungeon in the joyous village of kakariko
on Friday
on Friday
have been dealing w/ chest/arm pain lately and i’ve been So convinced im gonna die of a heart attack within the next week… mind u i am a healthy 5’9” 130 lb woman who rarely eats fried/greasy foods, almost exclusively eats lean/unprocessed when it comes to meat, doesn’t smoke or drink in excess (occasionally will smoke a joint or have like one drink if i’m at the bar but very rarely), walks at least a mile a day, and has no pre existing conditions that we know of apart from bad See More health anxiety and some weird uterus stuff but that’s not
nervous ab this as if i wasn’t literally calling my mother into the spare room i slept in 10 years ago (refused to sleep in my actual bedroom bc i threw up in there in 4th grade and was convinced it’d happen again if i slept there again) bc i thought i was having a heart attack
on Thursday
on Thursday
remaking tape for guy i’m into but with riskier songs bc i am young and pretty and i can do whatever i want with this beautiful life o’ mine!
god i feel so much more confident without femcel voldemort in my ears telling me i have no chance
on Thursday
on Thursday
i’m so excited that i learned how to knit… i will make a scarf for my future concrete porch goose. and a hat for my Beautiful Wife
on Wednesday
reading the ancient texts (old feast posts) and in 2022 i posted "REHEHEHE" and then commented "Sorry guys my quandale dingle alter fronted" i will never be that funny again oh my goddd
on Wednesday
picking up high society again but just Absolutely ruining every single character everybody gets flanderized also making them be in a polycule
on Wednesday
the more i think about it the more i am realizing that my former best friend was jealous of me all along
like i get it tbh?? like undeniably between the two of us i was always the one who got the most attention from men/other women but why was she mad at me for that That is not what I intended
on Tuesday
on Tuesday
why is it that i could not learn how to crochet like I gave myself so many headaches trying to learn n could never figure out anything beyond a chain stitch but knitting??? Literally watched two youtube tutorials and got it instantly i still need to practice and get my yarn tension down but the motions themselves??? i can knit and purl endlessly wtf
on Tuesday
how do u know if ur in a slow burn situation or you’re just delusional
it’s been over 6 months and the look in his eyes while i sat on the edge of his bed and reached for his hand is still stuck in my brain guys am i cooked
7 days ago
it’s been 2 years and nothing has happened but also nothing has ….not happened? like nobody’s addressing the elephant in the room directly but it’s very much there and there have been SO many moments where lines have been crossed to the point where i have to jump thru hoops to even convince myself this could Possibly be a platonic interaction… ok we just hugged See More goodbye at the train station but it’s been a solid fifteen seconds and you still have your hands on me and now my hands are on you also and another fifteen seconds passed and we are staring longingly into one another’s eyes Are we both just too autistic to pick up on one another’s social cues what’s going on
7 days ago
7 days ago
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siren song at the lake before a thunderstorm
siren song at the lake before a thunderstorm
9 days ago