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HEY! Were you stalking my profile again sis? XD

Okay so:
-Watched the first two episodes of Yuri on Ice
-Watched the first episode of Voltron
-Watched the first season of Food Wars

I’m stuck between which to watch and finish first- help!

Okay so I haven’t written something with Sapphire and Surge for a while and I’ve been getting into fluffy angst recently and thought...why not?

-Like since Surge is a demon he is unsure of these ‘humane’ emotions, so when Sapphire first told him she loves him he couldn’t respond. He finally told her and she was really understanding, but upon realising this she didn’t stop expressing her love for him by saying ‘I love you’ whenever possible. But like one day she’s about to go See More▼ shopping or something and Surge is watching TV or whatever and she says ‘I love you’ before leaving and she just hears a ‘I love you too’ from behind her and Sapphire just loses her shit. Surge is like ‘Sapph plz why are you crying did I upset you?’ And Sapph is a sobbing mess cuz she’s so proud of her lil demon boyf

-Or Sapphire being respectful of Surge’s boundaries, but isn’t used to not being held and becomes touch starved. She craves his touch, even if it’s an accidental hand brush or movingly her a little out the way so he can grab a snack an drink Sapphire lives for it. Surge has no idea how she feels until one day he just Hugs here out the blue as sapphire just begins to sob. This leads to hot chocolate, cuddles and lots of sappy lovey talk.

GAHHH I HAVE MORE IDEAS BUT I CANT BE ARSED TO WRITE SOMEONE MOTIVATE ME

Okayokayokay- so I’m still a fan of Sonic, but I’m not as big as I was. But like, sometimes I get a video recommendation and im like why not, for old times sake. So I click. And suddenly. OMG ITS MY BLUE BOI I LOVE HIM IM SO PROUD LOOK HOW FAR HES COME YES YOU ANGEL GO BEAT THAT WALKING TALKING BREAKFAST BITCH AND LOOK GOD DAMN BEAUTIFUL WHILE DOING IT-

Sapphire: *comes home* Long day, I’m dying, eggman is an arse and I’m going to bed *peace out as she flops on to sofa*
Surge: I’ve had a busy day too *yawns*
Sapphire: Oh, Yeah, being pretty is so tiring *eyeroll*
Surge: *picks up a book* You must be exhausted then
Sapphire: *Windows shut down noise* @.@
Surge: *oblivious*

WHOOO PRIDE MONTH!
Can I start off by saying the amount of glitter and rainbows are amazing? Like wow??? So pretty and magical and wow???
Also I only realised today that I’ve technically only came out once on here and it was in a really depressing way so...
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IM QUEER AND HAPPY TO BE HERE!! WHOOO PRIDE!

I’m procrastinating on sleep
I have my literature exam tomorrow
It’s currently past midnight
I’m supposed to be awake by 6
I’m not even being productive
Tumblr is my sin
UGHHHHHHHHH SOMEBODYMAKEMEESLEEP

Heyheyhey we should talk more again. I've been working on the thing :>

Does anyone still use RP pages on here anymore?? It’s just occurred to me that I never see the message floating around anymore...is this just me??

Qfeast drama is like apple juice. You get it and you think you’re going to enjoy a nice refreshing drink buT YOU FORGOT TO CHECK THE DATE AND IT TASTES LIKE D E A T H. But you know you gonna chug the whole thing anyway.

I’ve came back from Interactive Introverts...
And now I sexually identify as Janet
*dabs*

Part 2: It was very interesting to hear these stories from different people from different background and how they dealt with their issues if they had any. But what really got me is at the end of the video, Thomas wrapped it up by saying his usual goodbyes, but it was this line he added at the end that really hit me. “I’m so proud of you.” Id never cried more in my life.

Because of these experiences, I’ve lost respect for my mum. I believe her opinions are disgusting and that See More▼ she doesn’t have the right to stick such gross labels on people. So I get back at her in my own ways. I refuse to make my bed. I don’t do as many chores. I’m more closed off then what I used to be. It’s the same with my brother and mums boyfriend. And I feel HORRIBLE.

But I can’t help it. I know it’s terrible to just put them through that when they have no idea what’s going on, and the fact I can’t explain why without them hating me. It hurts me. It hurts them. I can’t look at them the same anymore. My family doesn’t feel like my family anymore.

If you got this far: thank you for caring and stay safe and happy :)

Part 1: If you hate rants and babbling and stuff please ignore: I just wanted somewhere to post my feelings rn

So to start things off, I’m queer. Sexuality is a complicated thing for me right now, but all I know I’m definitely NOT straight.

My mum, she’s a homophobe. She is disgusted by the thought of homosexuals. She’s even said once before that she believes someone attracted by the same gender should be locked up or in a mental hospital. I lost a lot of respect for my mum See More▼ that day.

A little while ago, I thought if, what if I told her I was queer? Would she still hate the communtiy even though her own daughter is apart of it? So we got onto the topic once more, and I think she realised what I was getting to because she said to me, “Amy, if you were a lesbian, I wouldn’t disown you, but I would be very disappointed in you.”

That hurt. A lot.

Because if this, my older brother is also a homophobe. And my mums boyfriend. The only person I know in my family who isn’t is my cousin. I came out to her a mount joe so ago and we’re still really close and she cared enough to ask me what the term ‘queer’ actually meant in detail. I love my cousin.

I came out to my friends a little before. They’re trying to be supportive which is amazing. My best friend just was like ‘mkay, so what’s that mean? Oh cool. So what do you want for lunch later?’ Another friend just was shocked as she didn’t expect it, but didn’t mind none the less. One friend actually told me that it might be a phase, which hurt because i know it’s not. But they were supportive all the same. I love my friends.

But something still felt off. I was talking with my Mum and the topic was once again brought up. She spoke how homosexuals were gross and how she saw two girls holding hands. Soon I was in the house on my own. I decided to make some soup to cheer me up. We all have off moments, today was just one of those moments. I poured in the soup, only to realise there was too much soup and it all didn’t fit in the bowl. I started to cry.

It’s stupid to cry over something like that and I knew it. I also knew that wasn’t the reason I was crying, but I couldn’t put my finger on what I was actually crying about. Hours later, I still felt horrible so I went to my last source; Youtube.

Recently I have been watching a YouTube, Thomas Sanders, because I think he is amazing and funny and my freaking role model. I’m watching his videos, and though they added to background noise which was comforting, I still felt wrong. I watched around 5ish videos before his Pride video came on.

Thomas is openly gay on his channel, which is very admirable. He was a lot of friend who are also very open with their sexuality and identity. I remember watching this video load and telling myself not to watch it. It’s just going to upset me more that these people are able to be so open about themselves and I can’t. But I let the video play.

*poke*