Can you tell me your story? (For the depressed)

I'm pretty sure both my brothers hate me. I'm certain my whole family hates me. My Mother said that, my birth was unexpected. I've always thought it meant I was an accident. Since my parents fight, I think to myself, "This is your fault. If you weren't born they wouldn't do this." In second grade, I had thoughts of suicide. I thought if I died, my Mother'd be happy. I'm also a bit 'Bipolar' so I have anger issues, which makes people dislike me even more. I've always just thought See More▼ that every bad thing that happened to my family, was my fault. I don't think others like me either. I just thought my friends hung out with me because they felt sorry for me. My parents probably think the term "caretakers" mean they put you in some clothes, a house, and feed you. I bet they have the other two as favorites, they only keep me alive as their toy, and their benefit. Now that I moved, things got worse. I've been hearing a voice, telling me things like, " It's your fault, no one loves you, it'd be better if you died, ect". I had an anxiety attack and tried to choke myself to death. I feel terrible. And my Father had just threw me on the ground and, beat me a few days ago.

My depression was from my shyness. I'm so shy that I barely speak to my parents, and in my classes. I only speak when I think it's necessary, which is rare because most classes I'm ignored or unnoitced.