I'm starting to feel really depressed and I don't know what to do.

I'm starting to feel really depressed and I don't know what to do.

So, I'm just starting to feel really depressed with a lot on my mind. I seem to have these mood swings where everything could be fine one minute and the next I'm on the ground crying from one small bad thing. But it's not normally that thing that causes me to cry. It could be like, getting my computer privileges taken away or my phone and it just makes me think about how much my life sucks. It reminds me of how lonely I am and that I'll never find anyone. I do, also, have some major problems. Last week, I told my mom I was bi and she asked me questions that made me feel uncertain, so she got me a counselor about it! I was going to ask a girl to the dance, but my mom ruined it! She made me think I could never trust her again! And my sister always manipulates me. She tells me that if I don't do something for her, she won't do something she said she would do for me. Another problem: she had autism. My brother and her are always pampered, while I'm just left on the side. My brother is six, so he's treated nicely because he's young. My sister, though, always gets all the attention because of her autism and how she talks about killing herself about the tiniest things, and for some reason it always worries me even though I know she wouldn't do it. Finally, there's my dad, who always sets high expectations for me and then says I can't do it. He told me he wants me to be a doctor or scientist, but I don't want to be one. I told him I wanted to be an animator, and he told me indirectly that I couldn't do it! My sister always says my art is trash, and I know it is, but still-I want to be one. I'm sick of all of this. I always think of myself as worthless and lacking talent, and I can't get it out of my head. I feel like my parents don't give me enough positive attention and I feel tormented by my siblings. I just feel like my family doesn't care. I've never hurt myself, but I have had suicidal thoughts and thoughts about cutting. I feel unwanted, unloved, and ugly. I don't want to sound like a girl who is always whining about boys and romance and all that, but I wish I had a crush or boy/girlfriend or someone liked me. I don't want to tell my parents about any of this, and I don't know what to do!

Be the first to add this question to starred list!
▼Scroll down for more questions

Answers (2)

vote up or down the answers
2
Team_Leo_Forever331
Omg. my life in words (slight diffrences).
My first tip would be to find a hobby that you enjoy doing, and do it often. video games, reading, listening to music,learning to play an instrument, etc.
Also, romance and that stuff isnt my cup of tea, but my advice is: let it happen on its own. love isnt someting that is forced opon a couple, it is best to be a coincidence. that helps the couple to develop a strong relationship.
the most you can do is be a good person, try to stand See More▼
on April 19
Report
0
TellMyWiFiLoveHer
I, too, want to be an animator, and whenever I feel like my art isn't good enough, I just remind myself that art is something that you do again and again in order to improve. As for you love problems, sorry, but I can't help you there. About the suicidal thoughts, you shouldn't. I'm sure you're a great person. You could tell a friend or loved one about the situation and they could try to help. But, whatever you do, don't give up. It gets better, I promise. Good luck, and goodbye!
on April 19
Report