i just watched such a good film omg
analog.whore
its called le passione de jeanne d’arc highly highly recommended (it’s one of those 1920s french silent films)
on August 16, 2023
on August 16, 2023
that period of time:
-living with three of the worst possible people to live with
-spending almost every evening in my friends’ dorms until 3 am
-getting the hell beat out of me in mosh pits (i came home from black midi w bruises on my ribs)
-i think i spent more time under the influence of things than actually sober
-ran my own small business and was widely known as “walter west”. made several hundred dollars doing this. (my apartment was regularly searched for drugs and See More someone tried to turn me in but there was 0 proof i’d actually done anything and i was never punished. however i turned her in for having both loads of drugs and an unregistered cat in the dorm bc she is a horrible person and three days later we got a schoolwide email about the school’s drug policies and she got expelled)
-would eat practically anything without concern. i made pot brownies once and left them on counter and was still eating them unbothered after a month
-was always at a party. was invited to so many parties that id have to turn down invitations because i was already going to another party
-had a literal harem. idek how many people i was maintaining weird non monogamous relationships with (consensually ofc everyone knew it was non committed)
-literally had a ladder to climb in my ceiling
-living with three of the worst possible people to live with
-spending almost every evening in my friends’ dorms until 3 am
-getting the hell beat out of me in mosh pits (i came home from black midi w bruises on my ribs)
-i think i spent more time under the influence of things than actually sober
-ran my own small business and was widely known as “walter west”. made several hundred dollars doing this. (my apartment was regularly searched for drugs and See More someone tried to turn me in but there was 0 proof i’d actually done anything and i was never punished. however i turned her in for having both loads of drugs and an unregistered cat in the dorm bc she is a horrible person and three days later we got a schoolwide email about the school’s drug policies and she got expelled)
-would eat practically anything without concern. i made pot brownies once and left them on counter and was still eating them unbothered after a month
-was always at a party. was invited to so many parties that id have to turn down invitations because i was already going to another party
-had a literal harem. idek how many people i was maintaining weird non monogamous relationships with (consensually ofc everyone knew it was non committed)
-literally had a ladder to climb in my ceiling
now i live alone, go to bed at 11, still go to concerts but not as often bc i’m broke, only do drugs on special occasions, still like baking and plan on reopening (i will probably not be making edibles though), have horrible contamination anxiety with food, actually focus on school instead of partying, and have dissolved the harem. no more ceiling room unfortunately.
on August 15, 2023
on August 15, 2023
i may be healthier, better off, safer, happier, and more approachable, but i will NEVER be as strong as i was from september-early december 2022.
on August 15, 2023
in 2 weeks im moving back into my old apartment woooo
gonna b close 2 where the person i’m going out with lives too so we can do that more often (they live an hour away rn)
on August 15, 2023
on August 15, 2023
YEAHH BABAEY
Among us quizpassed
Perfect!
10 correct questions out of 10. The passing score mark is 5
on August 12, 2023
dee lee ting later idk here’s the link 2 The Page Where I Post Things
https://www.qfeast.com/page/khcWtI/shankrambles?ref=sl
https://www.qfeast.com/page/khcWtI/shankrambles?ref=sl
Shankrambles
I will be rambling here and it’s gonna be really dumb i wish you could make qfeast pages private
on August 12, 2023
theres something so special ab queer relationships that i j don’t get w men idk
(ok to be fair i have had one real serious straight situationship in the past few years LMFAO. the person who i formerly addressed as catboy uses they/them now i think???? not positive i have to ask them)
on August 12, 2023
on August 12, 2023
my mind just processed that 9/11 is in a month what the hell
august is such a weird month why is it almost SEPTEMBER it was just february i am still 18 i am not going to be 20 in 7 months what
on August 11, 2023
on August 11, 2023
we as a society do not talk enough about how fuckking annoying garbage trucks are.
this is not in any way against the workers or anything but we’ve been using these for like 50 years and nobody has figured out any way to make them less loud and obnoxious. there’s an alley right outside my window. it wakes me up every morning (which is like super early i wake up at 7-8 AM maybe 9 on a bad day)
on August 11, 2023
on August 11, 2023
wait omg i think my new docs r finally broken in
to be completely honest i was so ready to come back 15 minutes later and b like “jk lawlz they are most definitely not” but i walked about a mile this morning and i feel great
on August 11, 2023
on August 11, 2023
i always get told i look like bjork (i look nothing like bjork)
on August 09, 2023
i just got robbed what the hell
@lesbianism yea it’s all good tbh the most valuable thing in my wallet was my cta pass 💀
on August 11, 2023
on August 09, 2023
gonna make another page to post more ab my irl life i think, not super private stuff idk i j don’t want the whole internet knowing ab my relationships + ultra dumb shit i do like this if you want that ig LMAO
on August 08, 2023
i took one (1) audio course last semester and i am still baffled that microphones and speakers r essentially the same things
I remember learning that in my audio class as well. Blew my mind. The studio I interned at would actually use the speaker cone of an NS10 speaker and use it as a sub mic for kick drums.
on August 07, 2023
they’re all real for that too (source: sitting in a coffee shop at 9 am, face buried in hands. laptop screen reads “PRO TOOLS IS NOT RESPONDING”)
on August 07, 2023
also learned that the majority of producers will audibly groan when protools is mentioned
on August 07, 2023
on August 07, 2023
trying to beat the mpdg allegations but i’m a performing arts major with bangs who likes to read, listens to the smiths, wears pleated skirts with tiny little thrifted tank tops and doc martens, and has an extensive collection of pressed flowers
on August 05, 2023
on August 03, 2023
rating people who have asked me out recently
-random guy on a bike: 7/10 actually didn’t make things weird, was really nice, didn’t get all weird and offended when i said i was seeing someone, told me to have a nice day
-weird guy who was sitting on the curb with his friends. 3/10 very obviously in his 40s at the very least but said he was 28. the 3 is bc he sang me a beatles song for some reason
-guy 3. forgettable??? wasn’t special or anything, not really nice or creepy, just See More a guy. asked me to do coffee w him
-random dude omw back from walgreens: 6/10 started it off w a super awkward pickup line, told me i looked like a foreigner. for some reason i told him i was dutch. spouted a bunch of random dutch sentences and said it was a poem. he bought every word of it
-friend’s bandmate: ive been aware of their music for like a year and they’re so talented but we’ve been talking recently, went out once, and it’s been great. 100/10 they’re sweet, literally the only concern i have is potentially making them uncomfortable if i move too fast. they still seem veryyy nervous about this whole thing and they’re very much the kind of person to just suffer through things even if they don’t want to because they don’t want to upset people but i just want them to be okay
-random guy on a bike: 7/10 actually didn’t make things weird, was really nice, didn’t get all weird and offended when i said i was seeing someone, told me to have a nice day
-weird guy who was sitting on the curb with his friends. 3/10 very obviously in his 40s at the very least but said he was 28. the 3 is bc he sang me a beatles song for some reason
-guy 3. forgettable??? wasn’t special or anything, not really nice or creepy, just See More a guy. asked me to do coffee w him
-random dude omw back from walgreens: 6/10 started it off w a super awkward pickup line, told me i looked like a foreigner. for some reason i told him i was dutch. spouted a bunch of random dutch sentences and said it was a poem. he bought every word of it
-friend’s bandmate: ive been aware of their music for like a year and they’re so talented but we’ve been talking recently, went out once, and it’s been great. 100/10 they’re sweet, literally the only concern i have is potentially making them uncomfortable if i move too fast. they still seem veryyy nervous about this whole thing and they’re very much the kind of person to just suffer through things even if they don’t want to because they don’t want to upset people but i just want them to be okay
reading this in april 2024 giggling bc me and my friends bandmate have been dating for almost 5 months now:p
on April 24, 2024
on August 02, 2023
in a gorgeous church garden rn + a lesbian couple j walked in and they r so cute and it reminds me that i need 2 bring tha lovertjing here
on August 01, 2023
got chased by a goose today
on August 01, 2023
on August 01, 2023