BlueTheQuizWhiz97 - Page 371

I used to be a strong person. I used to know nothing and noone will change how i act, think, talk, walk, and look. I used to know nothing could hurt me as long as i stayed strong. that was in grade 4. ill just give you a run down..
4= meets a boy that soon becomes best friend
5= starts to get bullied. ignores bullies
6= boy leaves and moves away without telling. starts to listen to bullies. gets bullied in front of friends, they glance but do nothing or dont notice
7= bullying See More gets worse. gets judged by the one major flaw i believe i have on my face.. my nose. falls into depression.
8= gives friends boyfriends/girlfriends. they slowly stop talking to me. bullying stops, but a few of my friends start bullying me without realising it. I help them with their problems, i keep their secrets. even though they wouldnt keep mine. lost emotions, and everything seems grey. quiet evertime i get insulted.
9= covid happened. suddenly most of my stress was gone. slowly regained emotions and slowly fell out of depression over 5 months.

For years my self esteem and emotions have been knocked down slowly and surely, more and more, until last year i was completely emotionless, suicidal, and had self diagnosed severe depression. I got out of it with only one thought "i need to stay so i can keep helping people, even though they would never help me. i dont want them to think i died for no reason. i want them to know why i chose to die" but i didnt die. cause noone knew i was depressed

I am no longer depressed. but See More thats mostly cause i lost a lot of stress. But if covids over, i go to school, and the same shit starts happening..

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