I have something I need to say. It's hard for me to say this, But I can't hide it any longer.
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I have depression. I've had it for years, and its gotten worse over time. I've been through shit and back, and every once in awhile my past comes up to haunt me. Like today. Before covid hit I was so numb I couldn't understand noise or color. I was suicidal, but I'm mostly better. I had to piece myself together, but I'm not fixed yet. I always smiled and faked being happy because... well... I was scared.
I was scared of what you all would think of me.
I was scared I would make everyone upset because I was upset.
And I was scared People would hate me.
Even now I'm scared to tell you.. But wearing a mask isn't working anymore. Its hard to describe it. hmm..
Imagine wearing a shirt. It fits fine for years, but as you grow it gets smaller and harder to move in. Eventually you have to take it off and discard it because its way too small to wear. That's what my smile is like.
I hid my negative emotions, and only told my positive ones. Being optimistic worked well, cause it made me believe I was ok. I literally fooled myself.
But because I hid them, they built up over time until my depression comes out in bursts. I can't control them, and my mask gets harder to wear everytime. Now the effort to keep it on is too much. I have to take it off.
Other then my depression I have not hid anything else important. Please don't think I am fake, because almost everything on here is true to me.
I hope you all understand...
-Blue
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I have depression. I've had it for years, and its gotten worse over time. I've been through shit and back, and every once in awhile my past comes up to haunt me. Like today. Before covid hit I was so numb I couldn't understand noise or color. I was suicidal, but I'm mostly better. I had to piece myself together, but I'm not fixed yet. I always smiled and faked being happy because... well... I was scared.
I was scared of what you all would think of me.
I was scared I would make everyone upset because I was upset.
And I was scared People would hate me.
Even now I'm scared to tell you.. But wearing a mask isn't working anymore. Its hard to describe it. hmm..
Imagine wearing a shirt. It fits fine for years, but as you grow it gets smaller and harder to move in. Eventually you have to take it off and discard it because its way too small to wear. That's what my smile is like.
I hid my negative emotions, and only told my positive ones. Being optimistic worked well, cause it made me believe I was ok. I literally fooled myself.
But because I hid them, they built up over time until my depression comes out in bursts. I can't control them, and my mask gets harder to wear everytime. Now the effort to keep it on is too much. I have to take it off.
Other then my depression I have not hid anything else important. Please don't think I am fake, because almost everything on here is true to me.
I hope you all understand...
-Blue
Hptts.Kuriko.light
i understand....
on February 03, 2021
lemon_drizzle69
I'm always here if you need someone to talk to <3
on February 03, 2021
XxDxmxn
same @BlueTheQuizWhiz97
on February 03, 2021
moonston
i undrstand bestie
on February 03, 2021
XxDxmxn
I do Lok...I do...
on February 03, 2021
on February 03, 2021
Hello uwu
No kidding. Usually if I'm thinking about something or worrying it pops up in my dreams vividly. Last night it was Hyun and bullies @imasoullessbakugou
on February 03, 2021
on February 03, 2021
Your a lucid dreamer @BlueTheQuizWhiz97 ? So am I uwu. So sorry that your behind on work, i was behind for a month and its no fun.
on February 03, 2021
on February 03, 2021
Aviva - Princesses Don’t Cry (Lyrics)
Aviva - Princesses Don’t Cry (Lyrics)https://spoti.fi/2ZjaL7WAVIVAInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/carysofficial/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/carysoffic...
on February 03, 2021
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MzVKsltzYdI&list=RDMM&index=4
FAVOURITE SONG!!
FAVOURITE SONG!!
Soldier, Poet, King
Provided to YouTube by The Oh HellosSoldier, Poet, King · The Oh HellosDear Wormwood℗ 2015 Oh HellosMasterer, Mixer: Charlie KramskyPerformance: The Oh Hello...
on February 03, 2021
You Can't Hide (8D)
? If you've enjoyed this video, I would be very grateful if you would like this video and subscribe to my channel.? For the best experience, just use headp...
on February 03, 2021
I am such a mess QwQ
I dunno I just feel like a mess-
I'm probably tired. I mean, I got up at 5:30 am to do homework sooo @Eleven11
I'm probably tired. I mean, I got up at 5:30 am to do homework sooo @Eleven11
on February 03, 2021
on February 03, 2021
NF - Hate Myself (Lyrics)
NF - Hate Myself» Stream: https://sptfy.com/hg4M» Follow NF :http://www.twitter.com/nfrealmusichttps://instagram.com/nfrealmusichttp://www.facebook.com/nfrea...
on February 03, 2021
Name: Ash
Gender: Genderqueer/non-binary
Crush: Uma
Parents: evil queen
Personality: Likes to get into danger. Fun.
Looks: (ill show a picture)
Other: sister is Evie. Trouble child. Usually stays behind the scenes and wants to become a pirate
Gender: Genderqueer/non-binary
Crush: Uma
Parents: evil queen
Personality: Likes to get into danger. Fun.
Looks: (ill show a picture)
Other: sister is Evie. Trouble child. Usually stays behind the scenes and wants to become a pirate
on February 03, 2021
on February 03, 2021
I'm sad my hyun isn't on :'c
on February 03, 2021
on February 03, 2021
It's fine @BlueTheQuizWhiz97 it went like this
Chris_Aftonsadboi HIII
BlueTheQuizWhiz97 HEYY
Chris_Aftonsadboi whats uppppp
BlueTheQuizWhiz97 making quizzes B)
Chris_Aftonsadboi HIII
BlueTheQuizWhiz97 HEYY
Chris_Aftonsadboi whats uppppp
BlueTheQuizWhiz97 making quizzes B)
on February 03, 2021
on February 03, 2021
Eleven11 made a AMAZING fantasy roleplay page. Please check it out, their lonely :3
https://www.qfeast.com/page/6uHQz6/Fairytale-Rp-1
https://www.qfeast.com/page/6uHQz6/Fairytale-Rp-1
Fairytale Rp (1)
I love fairytales i love to roleplay this was meant to be made by me! For anyone who loves fairytales
on February 03, 2021
:/ WELLLL...
which qfeaster are you? (BAD EDITION)axel.22
proship, said they wanted to shag an animal :/
on February 03, 2021