Rose water drops

First Friend

I bet his pride would get real down after evreyone knows about our street fighting, and i guess Hiro would be so embarrassed. I entered the classroom , and again Hiro was the spotlight. And all the girls were grouping him, giving chocolates. I looked at the class room calendar and whined "oh, valentine's day, huh"
Last valentine, i got so many chocolates, that i  could not carry all of them. even girls gave me chocolates. it was sweet. But it has been already a year. Now i'm unknown. Pride & Popularity lasts not forever, for me, not even a year. I was sitting on the last bench, seeing guys proposing to the girls. i was somewhat jealous. Worse thing is as i came late, i had to stand outside for three hours. the girls had a great laugh.

It was better than middle school , i have to admit that. in the middle school i used to get bullied as i had an imaginary friend. Isn't that silly? They kicked the hell out of me. After they kicked, punched & had their enjoyment . I used to say mean things, but then i knew what it is to bully. I was bleeding. No teacher was there to call out. I sat in the corner, trying my best to get sleep...

I slept and cried lying on the shoulder of him, my dream partner. I haven't named him anything. I call him Aqua, as he appears in Blue.  He comforted me and said "Be strong. I'm always there for you" .

With his words, i could go through all the hard times. After middle school, no one bullied me. I stayed away from everyone, but the boyfriend thing made me popular for some days. But nothing lasts...

I am used to silence. I have never had a good time with friends. Everything lasts for some days or hardly a year. A  past  me was mean, rude, Proud, Popular, Active, Social bee. But the present me is the real me, the introverted , Left out, Invisible, Lonely me.

I am thankful for having a caring mother and father. They are probably the only reason I'm alive. In my house, i am really bubbly. I never say what i suffer in the school, Even what happened in the middle school. Not i'm nice or great. just don't want my cheerful parents get worried.

I listen to music. It's great heal. I secretly Listen even in the school, wearing earplugs. After school, We had a valentine's day party. Last time it was me who hosted it and this time it's the newbie, the transfer girl, who got popular in few days. Her her is a bit dyed pink & Blue, Glitter nail art, Fancy ear loops, Tattoos, and Heels
She is pretty, the makeup makes her even more.

Every time i try makeup, i look worse than i was before. It looks so bad on me. Maybe some should stay natural, even if they aren't pretty. And it's not so important to me, as whatever i do, i won't be the spotlight with that transfer girl Ivory, in the school.

She was giving an invitation card to all. Except me...
That's fine. Who the hell wants to mingle with a Girl so EVIL like her.
Her eyes are kinda sharp & look ..EVIL

Wonder why every body thinks she's attractive..
Maybe because she is kind to all, and i was just a rude girl. For a second i thought it was me, the evil one, Rotten with jealousy.
I felt like i was the worst one.

I sat on the bench, near a mango tree, in our campus. I wasn't feeling bad, but i had a lump in my throat. I didn't feel like crying, yet tears fell down on the ground.
I saw a chocolate on the bench,. i picked it  as i was a bit hungry. I opene it then i saw Hiro . he said "Hey, you,!"
"I'm sor-ry!! I just found this here so-"
"Not about it..it's just..please don't tell anyone about yesterday"
"that slap thing? ha, no one would believe me anyway. first, they won't even listen to me. Look i'm invisible.!!"
"Huh?"
"Joke...I know...i can't make a single joke!!" I smirked
"Maybe. Anyway , why are you here? Not coming to the party?"
"I don't go to places where i'm not invited to..."
"i see.."
"Okay, i need to go, bye-" I was about to cry but i didn't want to act like a crybaby in front of a mean playboy
he wasn't mean , like the rumors say, he is quite caring..maybe but still due to my ego i had to run.
"You cry for useless things. "
He said as i was going
"I am a weirdo. I cry for useless things & never shed a tear for what i have to" I smiled and somehow my tears stopped
He stood there and said "You are just like the old me. A crybaby. that's why i know how it is"
"really? You were lonely like me"
"you can say that to a person who lost their family in an accident"
I stood there , and didn't know what to say
I had to change the topic. I hate sad dramatic mood. It makes me feel like laughing
"Shut up. I am there! I am a friend to everyone!! Like the fairy godmother" I said as a joke
"You really would be?? You know, no girl said she wants me to be my friend!! And i didn't expect from a girl i rejected"
"Come on, not like i love you! They made me say it!!!"
I pulled his tie. I thought he would get angry.
"Soryy..." i squeaked
"Come on..this happens to friends!! Right??" he winked
i pushed him and  cried "You're really my friend?"
"Ofcourse"
"You are the first guy as my friend..real guy"
"Yeah, mine too"
I was happy that i got a new friend. But a part of me was sad, as i was friend zoned...
That hurts a lot actually
The guy i proposed became my friend...

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