fleur22045

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Im just in a rly good space rn and i can tell a huge difference even sonce december when i was worried ant not being fckinh funny enough. I can look back and reflect and finally everything isnt so hectic, even tho it is sometimes. Like just a month ago i feel liek i was having a hard time dealing w stress abt japan even tho there was nothing to stress abt, i know itll fluctuate but im goad im in a good space and can reflect. I feel like nivvy saying all this lmao shss so wiss See More▼
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21 days ago
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If a friend ever stumbles accross all this bullshit, i dont want them to feel sad because i dont rly talk abt any of this shit, im just extremely private and i crave conteol in a way through keeping things to myself and dealong w them by myself. And i know its not healthy a lot of times but i dont like the idea of having to rely on someone and someone relying on me, even tho i do it all ghe time. Im just a hypocrite, but ige kind given up trying to decipher myself and nit pick See More▼
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21 days ago
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Either way, i know i need to work on being able to b less uncomfortable around people and genuinely b myself and not b scared to actually make connections just because i feel inferior. I know it wont happen now but jopefully in uni? I eish i was hardee working but whats new, im just glad im not blaming myself for everything even tho sometimes i do think everything is my fault, i feel like i tend to shut people out.
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21 days ago
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And english is kinda hard (not rly) because no friends lmao but i think i have to come to terms w the fact that i wont have friends in eveey class. I def see myself as inferior to other people in a lot of ways, like weight and appearance and personality and my age has a lot to do w it. Also the fact that im not v popular and i have a hard time making friends or maaybe im just not an easy person to become friends w?
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21 days ago
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Im honestly kinda touched how much ive progressed sincs june and even since december. Im still working on anxiety and stuff and i gotta knock wood cuz lowkey i feel like my ocds a bit hars to control atm but i know its gonna get better
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21 days ago
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Hi whore im back
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21 days ago
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So yea lets feast 😩👊💯. I was so boring this time around but wtvr june me is always a blast to read
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fleur22045
June is annoying and overrated change my mind
21 days ago
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fleur22045
TIl next time u disgusting worm
on December 03, 2017
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on December 03, 2017
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June me n 2016 me were fcked up and im atill def far from fixed but its looking up. Ocd and shit is the maij thing i wanna work on but i dont think abt it too much like i used to i wanna die less so gang. So yea ayo gg and shit im glad i can look back here n see how much ivw progressed sonce this is the shir i dont tell anyone so its like i cN talk fo myself. Lmao rly shows how my main concerns in 2015 were abt that eddie kid. I was much happier then but im bwcomng happier now See More▼
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fleur22045
I think it was more anxiety w a hint of ocd but u didnt know that that much anxiety was normal
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on December 03, 2017
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But ya ur bitch isnt lowkey depressed anymore. Hinestly feeling a lot better, that ocd shit could be worked on but its making me feel less like wanting to die so ⛽️️🆖🅰️ Ive got a bit to go before im 100% better BUT life is looking better n thats all i was asking for :,)
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fleur22045
And it has!! Weve come so far
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on December 03, 2017
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Lowkey i feel like my humour is backpedalling like i shoukdnt b using lowkye or deadass anymore cuz thats some old shit??? But honestly i have a very advanced sense of humour and aesthetics but no one gets me, >:-( tortured artist, BUT because everyone around me isnt as advanced as i am i say that old shit whne i shouldnt b like it says something when ur june self is funnier than u know. I feel like i stopped being funny after taht ft call w nivster n im not dying abt it like See More▼
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fleur22045
U were ao stresses out abt shit like that, june wanst that funny lmao
21 days ago
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Like the !! Is the only shit up to date im using :-( these faces arent cool anmore wither hut i keep using them.
on December 03, 2017
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on December 03, 2017
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K so ski mask the slump god n stranger things are ur new shit atm
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on December 03, 2017
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I really shoukdve waited until 2018 so it looked more dramatic but i like wasting my summer
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on December 03, 2017
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Its that time of year again
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on December 03, 2017
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: big mood
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fleur22045
Everything ur worried abt gets better, im proud of u for persevering :-(
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fleur22045
We do get better :-( ull be a lot better soon. Ull learn that not eveeything is ur fault
on December 03, 2017
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i was going throught sht in 2016 too but i wasnt being such a lil sht about it what happened lmaoo. anyways sorry im being so sad and annoying im not this sad all the time ily lets get better
on June 02, 2017
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see u in a while be happier lmao stop being so unlikebale, and so unbearable to those who do like u lmao and stop such an exestetntial sht lmao see u ily and next time say funnier sht
on June 02, 2017
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fleur22045
my depressinga nd suicidal thoughts that is
on June 02, 2017
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on June 02, 2017
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im still not over no 6. I wanna learn jaanese but im too lazy to actually give effort AND btch i found this acc on youtube called primitive technology its THE SHT. I wanna oen my own cafe and clothing line and i wanna scult more like i used to and write more and try writing songs, i also wanana b a better person and donate and i wanna get this whole ocd bullsht figured out and i wanna be really happy again like i used to but maybe ive just learned that life is about being happy
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fleur22045
LMAO U THOUGHT BITCH IM NOT IN THE MOOD TO B FUNNY GO FCK URSELF
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fleur22045
Lowkey w that humour point tho ots ok im sure2018 us will say it gets better
on December 03, 2017
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fleur22045
Deadass what has changed
on December 03, 2017
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sorry i had nothing funny to say lmao maybe ive been so fake to everyone idek what my humour or anythig is anymore. THIS BTCH IS DEPRESSED LMAO. anyways idk i wish i was funnier because i like seeing how my humour developes but im not in the mood sorry bitchy go find other sht to laugh at. i want money and i want to discover aliens thats all. also im typing alot See More▼
on June 02, 2017
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on June 02, 2017
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im happy but i feel like im not real anymore so thats cool. anyways still a fan of 2ne1 so thats cool, BTS WON A BBMA SO THATS COOL. sistar disbanded thats not cool. i still havent read tg re i hate myself
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fleur22045
U still havent, i also feel alot more grounded, idk how I survived june lmao but good job
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on June 02, 2017
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well i think ive got ocd or some sht lifes really not going too well but its not going bad so thats good. i think about suicide lots but not in a depressing in a wow space is so big way lmao
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fleur22045
:-(
on December 03, 2017
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fleur22045
we feel a lot better soon give it time
on December 03, 2017
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on June 02, 2017
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i was rly ean to my old self i dont hate myself that much lmao
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on June 02, 2017
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SO its been a while im here to embarrass my future self again
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on June 02, 2017
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and the whole minzy thing has got me fcked up but its fine
mamamoos good, its fun
bts is having a world tour 2017 if theyre not coming to nz im suing so yea
bb is enlisting my friend keeps crying bout gd
poptropicas lit as always (literally fcking sue me btch i used lit)
blocheads giving anxiety
mystic messenger is STRESSINGME O UT See More▼
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fleur22045
Yall dramatic af lmao, its fully been 4 years and i still havent read tg re and that sht finished
21 days ago
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fleur22045
NO IT DOESNT U LYING BITCH LIFE HAS NEVER BEEN WORSE
on December 03, 2017
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fleur22045
the 2ne1 thing sorts itself out bby
on June 02, 2017
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fleur22045
ok someone can read all these posts and fall in love w me already thx
on September 13, 2016
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on September 13, 2016
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