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This is so different from before, before it was a hopeful anxious and depressed if that even a thing, now its all down the drain like schools gonna be over and im gonna have nothing my life is literally nothing i cant do any single thing right i cant study i cant keep friends i cant make my orents happy i cant make money all i do it sit around im tired of it but i cabt stop
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fleur22045
It'll get so so so much better than this Jesus Christ
on December 06, 2020
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on June 11, 2019
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I keep talking down below about how im not funny anymore but now!!! Ive lost my whole personality im fading into the background literally nothing i say is funny to anyone anymore, im not even the least bit charismatic. Ive just stopped trying
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on June 11, 2019
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Its flaring up again and i know its because im stressed abt the future, but also now, everyone hates me and im not good for anyone, and im not independent enough for it to not matter. Idk what im doing
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on June 11, 2019
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This is all like a cycle
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on June 11, 2019
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Im doing not well again
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on June 11, 2019
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hehe update Japan update it was amazing i had the absolute time of my life and some shit happened but i can only take good memories away from it. got closer to the gals i went with and even though i felt some anxiety abt it, im trying to let it all go and appreciate everyone i went with. exams are shit and i feel pretty bad talking abt them so i wont. i had the weirdest fking day today, it was the english exam day, not good yikes I wonder if i got excellence in the two? I hope See More▼
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fleur22045
U did!!!! Proud of ya
on June 11, 2019
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on November 21, 2018
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Im just in a rly good space rn and i can tell a huge difference even sonce december when i was worried ant not being fckinh funny enough. I can look back and reflect and finally everything isnt so hectic, even tho it is sometimes. Like just a month ago i feel liek i was having a hard time dealing w stress abt japan even tho there was nothing to stress abt, i know itll fluctuate but im goad im in a good space and can reflect. I feel like nivvy saying all this lmao shss so wiss See More▼
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fleur22045
Genuinely love myself so much here
on December 06, 2020
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on July 28, 2018
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If a friend ever stumbles accross all this bullshit, i dont want them to feel sad because i dont rly talk abt any of this shit, im just extremely private and i crave conteol in a way through keeping things to myself and dealong w them by myself. And i know its not healthy a lot of times but i dont like the idea of having to rely on someone and someone relying on me, even tho i do it all ghe time. Im just a hypocrite, but ige kind given up trying to decipher myself and nit pick See More▼
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on July 28, 2018
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Either way, i know i need to work on being able to b less uncomfortable around people and genuinely b myself and not b scared to actually make connections just because i feel inferior. I know it wont happen now but jopefully in uni? I eish i was hardee working but whats new, im just glad im not blaming myself for everything even tho sometimes i do think everything is my fault, i feel like i tend to shut people out.
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on July 28, 2018
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And english is kinda hard (not rly) because no friends lmao but i think i have to come to terms w the fact that i wont have friends in eveey class. I def see myself as inferior to other people in a lot of ways, like weight and appearance and personality and my age has a lot to do w it. Also the fact that im not v popular and i have a hard time making friends or maaybe im just not an easy person to become friends w?
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on July 28, 2018
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Im honestly kinda touched how much ive progressed sincs june and even since december. Im still working on anxiety and stuff and i gotta knock wood cuz lowkey i feel like my ocds a bit hars to control atm but i know its gonna get better
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fleur22045
It's kinda nice taking to myself, u give me hope that I'll be better and I am better, thank u
on December 06, 2020
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fleur22045
U give me hope
on December 06, 2020
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on July 28, 2018
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Hi whore im back
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on July 28, 2018
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So yea lets feast ???. I was so boring this time around but wtvr june me is always a blast to read
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fleur22045
Girl I can't December 2017 was truly my peak
on December 06, 2020
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fleur22045
June is annoying and overrated change my mind
on July 28, 2018
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fleur22045
TIl next time u disgusting worm
on December 03, 2017
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on December 03, 2017
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June me n 2016 me were fcked up and im atill def far from fixed but its looking up. Ocd and shit is the maij thing i wanna work on but i dont think abt it too much like i used to i wanna die less so gang. So yea ayo gg and shit im glad i can look back here n see how much ivw progressed sonce this is the shir i dont tell anyone so its like i cN talk fo myself. Lmao rly shows how my main concerns in 2015 were abt that eddie kid. I was much happier then but im bwcomng happier now See More▼
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fleur22045
As if ik doing anything productive to help myself rn
on October 11, 2019
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fleur22045
I think it was more anxiety w a hint of ocd but u didnt know that that much anxiety was normal
on July 28, 2018
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on December 03, 2017
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But ya ur bitch isnt lowkey depressed anymore. Hinestly feeling a lot better, that ocd shit could be worked on but its making me feel less like wanting to die so ⛽️️??️ Ive got a bit to go before im 100% better BUT life is looking better n thats all i was asking for :,)
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fleur22045
And its worse again
on June 11, 2019
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fleur22045
And it has!! Weve come so far
on July 28, 2018
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on December 03, 2017
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Lowkey i feel like my humour is backpedalling like i shoukdnt b using lowkye or deadass anymore cuz thats some old shit??? But honestly i have a very advanced sense of humour and aesthetics but no one gets me, >:-( tortured artist, BUT because everyone around me isnt as advanced as i am i say that old shit whne i shouldnt b like it says something when ur june self is funnier than u know. I feel like i stopped being funny after taht ft call w nivster n im not dying abt it like See More▼
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fleur22045
U were ao stresses out abt shit like that, june wanst that funny lmao
on July 28, 2018
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fleur22045
Like the !! Is the only shit up to date im using :-( these faces arent cool anmore wither hut i keep using them.
on December 03, 2017
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on December 03, 2017
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K so ski mask the slump god n stranger things are ur new shit atm
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fleur22045
hhhhok
on November 21, 2018
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on December 03, 2017
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I really shoukdve waited until 2018 so it looked more dramatic but i like wasting my summer
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on December 03, 2017
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Its that time of year again
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on December 03, 2017
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: big mood
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fleur22045
It gets better a little bit, but not by much, I'm pretty good at the moment I think, I'm not sure but I think I am
on December 06, 2020
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fleur22045
And now its gotten worse, even worse than i thought it coukd get
on October 11, 2019
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fleur22045
Everything ur worried abt gets better, im proud of u for persevering :-(
on July 28, 2018
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fleur22045
We do get better :-( ull be a lot better soon. Ull learn that not eveeything is ur fault
on December 03, 2017
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fleur22045
i was going throught sht in 2016 too but i wasnt being such a lil sht about it what happened lmaoo. anyways sorry im being so sad and annoying im not this sad all the time ily lets get better
on June 02, 2017
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on June 02, 2017
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