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10/10 great bio
I learned the song on my ukulele btw @w@

I had a dream where my whole family completely forgot about me, and I didn't know where my friends were. I felt like I had lost everything, and what was scary is that it was so real... It took place in so many places of my life... My grandparents house, the theatre, and church...
In said dream, my parents treated my third youngest sister like a queen, and my other two sisters weren't even there... They weren't in that family, they didn't even exist...
I would eventually visit See More▼ my parents who lived in the grandparents house for some reason, and they kept threatening to hurt me. Multiple times in the dream I would break down sobbing, saying that I hated everything and I was unwanted. I followed my family everywhere in this dream, waiting and hoping they'd remember me, but eventually they just left me alone... And that's where the dream ended.

It made me p sad when I woke up.

"I am the one thing in life I can control"
Every time I hear this verse in Wait For It from Hamilton, I can't help but feel a rush of both joy and sadness. It's nice because it's honestly very true. You are the only thing you can control, but.. What about everyone else? Not that I want to control their lives, but like
I dunno.. It'd be nice to change people's suicidal and bad thoughts into more positive things, Yknow?

I wanna see the Hamilton musical when it comes to Dallas/Fort Worth but I doubt my parents would let me bc of mild language and all that.

Hey! How's it been I just wanted to show you something that like just came out 11 hours ago it 5:06 a.m. right now and I just saw this and I thought it was cool.
It's going to be in a movie
https://youtu.be/UprcpdwuwCg

I ke up at like
7:30am and didn't sleep till 2:00am
And I can't nap bc I'm unable to, and when I try I wake up again after a few seconds and I'm not tired
I really need a sleep schedule :/

I'm still tired af
Wtf
Ugh

Guess who just woke up

And it's like 11:42am too

Old Renaissance art.
Look it up

I found out I'm panromantic, Ive never been sexually attracted to anyone, and I don't give a crap about gender lol

Hey so I'm back
Don't worry about me, I'm feeling better
I'm alright

Hey.. I know I'm not much help, but... I noticed you were upset and I really want to try and help you...

Just trying not to scratch my arms up
I should probably go
I doubt anyone wants to know about my struggles haha :')
Kill me.

Listening to relatable songs and trying not to cry :')

I wanna cry but no
No thanks
Not around people, thank you very much :')

Screw your trigger warnings I really don't care.
Just ignore this if your triggered by cutting mentions.

I wanna hurt myself but I can't
I'm home alone with my younger sister, and I have to stay with her bc my mom doesn't want me hurting myself.(she found out abt all my thoughts bc I had to tell her oops.) I'll be in trouble if I leave my sis, and the only way I can actually hurt myself if with a knife bc my parents took everything sharp from me. I'm not using a blade. Nope. See More▼ No thanks.
Ugh I really need help bc I'm so screwed up in the head all bc my great grandfather died :')
I really wish everything could get better but it's not going to.

Oops I screwed up another relationship :')