your.cool.grandma - Page 380

I'm probably going clothes shopping with my mom later

I want to ask her if I can buy some guy cloths :')

I keep seeing pictures saying: Bisexuality makes no sense. One day you're a boy, one day you're a girl, and then you're neither. Like, seriously, make up your mind. You have one gender, so keep it that way.'

It makes me upset seeing it tbh
Maybe some people can't make up their minds.

*is going to a baseball game on thursday*
*its probably going to be hot*
*will most likely wear 4 sports bras again*
*will wear pants*
*will wear jacket/sweatshirt/loose flannel*
*will wear a beanie, if not a different hat*
*praying I don't die*

I'm wearing like

4 sports bras and I'm just at my grandmas house
I realize that wearing 4 wasn't nessiscarry since the only person in my family who understands me is my sister so like
My dad also asked my why I was wearing a hat. Again. Augh.

I'm going through all my cloths to see if I can find some decent male looking outfits.
I'm going to put them in their own drawer in my dresser bc I have an empty one. That's going to be the drawer dedicated to my 'tomboy'(according to my mom) or 'masculine' cloths. : )

My mom is gonna teach me how to apply makeup soon...

Cons: my mom is probably going to expect me to wear makeup(like, mascara and eyeshadow and all that jazz). I'm probably not going to be able to use eyeliner.

Pros: I can try to make my face look masculine on my masculine days :0
Hopefully my mom doesn't notice that tho.

:')
http://lgbtqiaequality.weebly.com/transgendergenderfluid-tips.html

Breathing atm is hard and it's scaring me uhh,,,,

Like
I try to breath and like
Air doesn't go into my lungs??????

Idk but like
Ahh
It feels like I can't breath

*aggressivly looking for ways to look like a guy*
*anger bc I don't have male cloths*

Kinda rant?


I wish I had the guts to tell my mom I was Genderfluid...
She was mad enough when I came out to her as bi, though I found out I'm pan

She already found out I don't feel like a girl, and she casually told me: "you can be a tomboy but still enjoy being a girl"
I told her that I didn't enjoy being a girl, and she shook her head and said: "you're just confused"

I want to tell her who I really am, but I can't bare to have my sweatshirts, sports bras(for chest binding), See More hats, and loose cloths away from me... I feel like she'll do that bc my dad has already gotten suspicions that I'm trying to be a guy sometimes. Then my mom will understand why I hate skirts and dresses, but she'd probably take my freaking pants away and buy me more skirts and shit.

My life kinda messed up a bit after the first confession of me liking a girl, I don't need my mom to try to change me more then she kinda already is.

Seeing Genderfluid, transgender, agender, etc. people and just screaming bc they're all so cute

Oh
So the 16 is Genderfluid Pride day....

Another day to look forward to : )

So, according to the LGBT Pride Month(June)
Pansexual Pride day is June 5 or something like that I think
:') I wish I had cloths that were yellow, pink, and blue to represent my sexuality but I don't
So instead I'm gonna color a spot on my wrist pink, blue, and yellow and draw a picture.
What's funny is that I go to church that day. I get to go to the one place where a lot of people are probably homophobes... But whatever.
Lol this was a really stupid post ignore me