The diary (One direction Fan Fic)

Guiltiness and broken heart

Liam P.O.V
I woke up feeling extremely tired even after sleeping for eleven hours. The boys had already left, leaving a note behind to explain why. "Hey Li, we went to eat breakfast. We didn't wake you up though, you looked so comfy! ;) Louis." I threw the note in the bin and opened the fridge. There was nothing really. Just a bit of milk and an apple. I guess I forgot to go shopping. I shrugged and just took the apple. It was still good anyways. I saw the diary and picked it up. "Friday, the last day of school. I had sports that day, I hate sports. I try each time, just kicking, throwing the ball, tackling people but I sucked. Oh look who's here, Franziska the baby b*tch, Ashley and her friends would say. I would try to hold back my tears sometimes not succeeding and when I cried, they'd laugh harder, make videos and push me around or worse, steal and break my things. Once, they broke my Ipod. That thing was my whole life. You're probably thinking how stupid that sounded but it's true. Music spoke for me. I had lots of songs that each held a special meaning or what I felt. It took me months to remember and find all the songs. Girls hurry up, the coach shouted but kept looking right at me. I knew she hated me as much as I hated sports. I don't know why but everywhere I went, people would hate me so I'm not surprised that you rejected me Liam." I froze. I didn't hate her. In the contrary, I loved her but being the idiot I was, I ignored those feelings and let it go, not knowing that it hurt her inside.  Be strong Liam. I drank the last bit of milk and continued reading. "We got out on the field and all the girls started flirting because the boys were there too. Apparently, their teacher was sick. This day, I was expecting nothing much when she said we had to do partner work. I was extremely nervous because I've never talked with a boy, at least not properly. I'd always stutter or faint but with you Liam, I felt comfortable. I wasn't paying attention until I heard my name and listened closely. Franziska and Liam. The girls kept glaring at me. I was so excited to finally get to talk to you but the entire lesson, you'd just do nothing but talk or wrestle your friends and flirt with other girls in front of me. That hurt me. After the lesson, you just ran to the locker without saying anything, not even a simple bye. When I got in, all the girls insulted me, made fun of me including Ashley but her words hurt the most. You're a worthless sl*t who will never be loved, she said. Tears fell on my bag but I just wiped them before casually running out. Then the boys stared at me and some even wolf whistled while the girls laughed and insulted me. You came up to me and put your jacket around me. I was confused till I realized that I had forgotten to put a shirt on so everyone had seen my bra. I was embarrassed and blushed so hard that I looked like a tomato but you didn't mind, instead you smiled, played with my hair and stared into my eyes. Liam! Ashley called. She walked towards you, I remember and kissed you. You didn't push her away, no, you kissed back and that's when I ran and threw your jacket on the floor but you never cared. I knew that this crush wouldn't last long but boy was I wrong." I did care. I just couldn't stop myself. I mean if a hot girl came up to you and started making out, would you push her away? No, of course not but it wasn't really right. I admit. That day, I brought her home and we got things to the next level. Yep, we had sex. I regretted every single minute. I wished it was Franziska instead of Ashley. "Hey Liam! You're awake!" Harry said loudly while playing with his car keys. No shit. "We brought  you breakfast." He threw a McDonald's packet to me and I opened it quickly, breathing in the delicious, warm food. "So? What you been up to?" Harry played with his hair and turned to me. "I, um, I just chilled." "Yeah right, why you holding that book then? You been reading?" "Yeah." "Cool." He furrowed his eyebrows while looking at the food and me. "Why aren't you eating?" He asked, his voice a little hoarse. I took a bite from the burger but stopped. "Li?" "I'm not hungry." I flatly said. "Li, you have to eat!" He protested. "No! I'm not hungry!" "Liam Payne! You eat right now!" "No!" Gosh, I sounded like a child. "Liam, please." He softly said and pulled me into a hug. I noticed that Harry's nose was red and he did have a temperature. Now that I think about it, he has been sounding a bit, I don't know, weak? "Harry? What's wrong?" He bit his bottom lip and fiddled with his hands. "Harry?" "I've been really busy lately Li. And to make things worse my sister got sick and my mom wasn't home so I had to take care of her. I think I might've caught her sickness." He was lying. He couldn't look me in the eyes properly. "Harry, you're lying." "Ok fine Li, you wanna know? Taylor broke up with me! She said I flirted way too much with other girls and told me how she didn't really like me and management just forced her to be my girlfriend. Can you believe it? My girlfriend was a FAKE!" He sobbed on my shoulder and I patted his back. "Harry, I'm sorry. Want to hang out?" "Yeah." His voice sounded worse than before. It hurt me to see him like this. I put the diary somewhere safe. I guess it can wait for later.