Chapter 1We were in the library, Jack and me, all snuggled up on two beanbags. "Stella? Stella?" I was lost in my world of... (checks book title)... harry potter. He laughs, his dimples thrilling me. "Always got your head in the clouds, well, books." He brushes my book away. I smile, but reach to pick it up again.
"No, we have to talk."
My eyes well up with tears. Ever since he cheated on me with that Amanda McCleevs girl, my life felt as if it were shattered. Backtrack, it didnt feel like it were shattered, it were shattered.
"I'm so sorry." He reaches to brush a tear out of my eye. I scrunch up tight into a ball. Since then, he's always tried to get back with me. It's been a year of constant trying. Roses on my tray every day and it's been a year, standing outside my house waiting for me, standing up and singing a song about me in assembly.
The cheating bit happened when he was drunk. He was drunk from some wine he stole-no 'burrowed' from his parents, and then through the window he saw this girl passing by. He was drunk and he called her in, she knew him from school. In his state, he pushed her down on his sofa and he- he... Well they made love. I found out. The thing is, this was the boy I was gonna lose my virginity too, and I wasnt his first.
As if he could read my mind, "You'll always be my first proper. I was drunk then, it didn't MEAN anything."
Oh yes it did to shove your hands up a random girl that goes to our schools pants. What kills me more is she was a rlly popular girl, he knew how I felt about them. I thought our love meant more. I accidently said it out loud.
I see his heart breake as he reaches out for my hand. "It does, I was a fool!" It didnt feel like the right time to make a joke like, "Was? still are."
The bell rings for class. Me and Jack have seperate classes. I trudge towards my class without the usual hug or kiss that i'd give him one year ago. As I was walking, I could feel a new pair of eyes staring at me.Amber ones.