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twice a week i have to go to orchestra rehearsal and pretend i didn’t make out with the bassist to radiohead

thinking about how i called my friend (who i think i might cut off bc she’s really mean) out for being openly transphobic towards the person i’m talking to and she said that it’s bc she’s slovakian and “they/them pronouns are an american thing nobody does that in eastern europe” (she doesn’t know that they’re an immigrant from eastern europe)

my dad has developed an affinity for asking me if my friends are autistic and personally i think HE need to get evaluated

genuinely makes me upset how some people feel like you’re a saint just for showing them basic human decency idk like who hurt them are they okay

rating different holidays/holitimes in my gc

-__ panic attack: 0/10 basically we will j send the current time and panic attack when we have one. “9:05 am panic attack” (usually it’s me) these Suck
-baba alert:5/10 this is like the first one. literally j means we’re using the bathroom
-morrissey monday 8/10 i ordered a morrissey funko pop last year and it was supposed to come on monday but then it came on sunday so the holiday got ruined
-monkee moment: 7/10 this j means banging See More nothin special
-ray and dave alert: 8/10 this is when ppl start dating. we’ve had 1 of these
-9/11: 9/11 this is regular 9/11 but can also be used when something happens that we didn’t want to happen
-monkee monday: when it’s monday and ur gonna hang out with your partner 10/10 funni
-migraine monday: the current reason i’m not having a monkee monday rn (this is also an example of 9/11) (im seeing them tomorrow tho if they feel better) 0/10 (i miss them!!!!)
-babaversary: the anniversary of when we made the gc 100/10

this is like 9/11 all over again

ive been having bad panic attacks for the past few days and yesterday my stupid ass was like “well my anxiety pills aren’t doing anything so i’m gonna hit a doobie before my 9 am class and see if it calms me down and then i showed up 30 minutes late and still anxious with 0 filter or anything and my prof asked me to name the chord quality of the 7th chord in an e flat aeolian scale and my ass said d flat

if ur partner is queer and/or neurodivergent you are taking them on an aquarium date that’s a canon event

debating telling them about the dream i had last night about them but it wasn’t anything normal or cute it was literally just me convincing them to download fishdom and them thanking me for it

my pro-america right wing conservative parents r cool with me being queer (i left out the part about how the person i’m seeing is a hardcore communist + immigrant from russia itself)

why am i actually illiterate

butterfly effect is insane tbh. had i not eaten a pot brownie on september 24th, 2022 i would probably not be talking to the person i am currently talking to.

grandma (bakes and has a garden) and grandparent (likes documentaries and has back problems)

was gonna make a joke ab how me and my lover act like old people but can’t think of a gender neutral term for grandparent

still processing what’s going on in my love life tbh, i remember when i first found the person i’m currently talking to on instagram via a mutual friend i looked at their page and was like “wow yeah they’re pretty cute actually but i do not have a chance” and now here we are

way 2 much hatred in my scene lately yikes

list of songs i have stuck in my head all the time nowadays:
-fck these foolz that are making valencia street unchill (field medic) 6/10 i love this song but is only the “IF IT WASNT FOR FOOOOOD STAMPSSSSS” part.
-shrimp shack (viagra boys) 6/10 this one’s a banger but gets extremely annoying because it’s just one part of the backing music on repeat.
-orange tea (shavon) okeeee so this one’s prob biased but i love this song 8/10 it’s just so fun and i don’t even mind when See More it gets stuck in my head anymore. its always that refrain at the end too.
-silk chiffon (muna)7/10 LIFES SO FUN LIFES SO FUN this song is so girl. it makes me happy
-salt in the wound (boygenius) 10/10 Ok i’m not even going to lie this is only stuck in my head because i’ve watched that one video of phoebe bridgers flashing the crowd during it probably 500 times now

i never shut up about my immense love for ppl with weird niche interests but i think my current somebody takes the cake on this. they’re into documentaries, weird sea creatures, and they can ride a unicycle.

ok so like i’m conflicted
ive got an extra concert ticket and there’s two potential people i might give it to but idk. one’s my best friend who i’ve gone to most every concert with. she doesn’t really listen to this band (as a matter of fact she doesn’t listen to this kind of music) but she was gonna go with me last time i saw them but she got waitlisted. i know she’s fun at concerts
person 2 is my person ofc. never been to a show with them (except their own show) and i’d love See More to bring them bc this band is something i think they’d actually really like but they mentioned they get really overwhelmed w shows and stuff and even at their own gig (a much smaller crowd) they were very out of it so i’m a little worried they’d be uncomfy (especially given that i like to get as close to the stage as i physically can and plan on getting there early to get a good spot)

no because why do i get so NERVOUS when i’m in love it’s ridiculous. me and them are cool. we went on a date already. they had a blast, i had a blast, we are both eager to do it again. why am i literally getting giddy and shaky like a little girl every time i text them