on December 14, 2018
last band practice b4 we go to california!!
rose parade here we come ??
rose parade here we come ??
malicex
@chesspacito big oof
on December 14, 2018
malicex
@chesspacito ooo that'd be so fun! i wish i could've done it but they went the year before my freshman year :/
on December 14, 2018
on December 13, 2018
I went from anti-ddlg/b to being VERY INTO IT
on December 13, 2018
my brain is telling me i want to die but i so desperately want to live
does this make any sense
does this make any sense
on December 13, 2018
so like. in Bohemian Rhapsody (the song), freddie was all like, “I don’t wanna die, but sometimes wish I’d never been born at all}
so like that?? or. different
so like that?? or. different
on December 13, 2018
like,, i don't want to die... i just don't want to be alive.
there's a big difference but i can't explain it
there's a big difference but i can't explain it
on December 13, 2018
on December 13, 2018
there was a fücking earthquake in Georgia and my ass slept through it
Magnitude of 4.4 and I SLEPT THROUGH IT
Magnitude of 4.4 and I SLEPT THROUGH IT
on December 12, 2018
hru nerd
yeah, no, i understand that
i put a rubber band on my wrist (the one with the silver parts) and slap it against my skin when i dissociate
or i pinch the inside of my arm so i can focus
it's hard being away from reality, but our minds do it to protect us
i put a rubber band on my wrist (the one with the silver parts) and slap it against my skin when i dissociate
or i pinch the inside of my arm so i can focus
it's hard being away from reality, but our minds do it to protect us
on December 12, 2018
I just don’t know what’s wrong
I keep dissociating and I feel very disconnected and it’s freaking me out
I keep dissociating and I feel very disconnected and it’s freaking me out
on December 12, 2018
on December 11, 2018
I’m so sick of seeing books/articles on how to “survive” people with borderline personality disorder.
I’m not something you need to “survive”, I’m a person who’s just sick and wants love more than anything.
I’m not something you need to “survive”, I’m a person who’s just sick and wants love more than anything.
on December 11, 2018
good vibes// tw: self harm//
it’s officially been 2 months I haven’t cut or scratched myself : )
My scars on my arms are starting to clear up a bit
I’m not going to lie though, the reason for this is fear.
My dad told me he’d hurt me if I hurt myself...
it’s officially been 2 months I haven’t cut or scratched myself : )
My scars on my arms are starting to clear up a bit
I’m not going to lie though, the reason for this is fear.
My dad told me he’d hurt me if I hurt myself...
I'm sorry that the only reason that you're not self-harming is because of your dad. I am happy that you are doing well in that area of your life though!!
on December 11, 2018
on December 11, 2018
my parents got me a weighted blanket and it really helps me fall asleep so that’s good
on December 11, 2018
it’s kinda comforting to know that there are other people who know what’s happening to me. These strange feelings I have constantly, other people have them too. After years of wondering why I’m so alone in my illness, I finally find out I’m not.
on December 10, 2018
getting my official bpd diagnosis today ??
Like Jay said, it's hard to accept a diagnosis. Especially when it comes to a mental illness or personality disorder. I have a close friend with BPD and it's not as scary as it might seem. If you don't have it, great. If you do have it, it's good to know because you can treat it. Modern medication and therapy are wonderful tools. Just remember that at the end See More of the day, mental illness doesn't define you. You can still choose the person you want to be.
on December 11, 2018
yeah, i feel you. when my therapist said i had PTSD, i didnt wanna believe it
however, knowing that you have it will be better because you know what you gotta work on to get better instead of thinking you're okay and still suffering
either way, i'm really hoping you get better!!!
however, knowing that you have it will be better because you know what you gotta work on to get better instead of thinking you're okay and still suffering
either way, i'm really hoping you get better!!!
on December 10, 2018
@aeipathy maybe both? idk
it might be nice to know what’s wrong with me
but at the same time I’m in denial that it’s true
it might be nice to know what’s wrong with me
but at the same time I’m in denial that it’s true
on December 10, 2018
on December 10, 2018
and i can’t even tell my friends about my problems.
because every damn time i do some parent finds out and tries to “help”, but they just make my situation worse by calling my parents, which just pisses them off. i have nobody to talk to outside of myself and the few people i know on here, and 90% of the time my cries for help go ignored/unseen on here.
i’m in so much pain right now.
i want it to go away
because every damn time i do some parent finds out and tries to “help”, but they just make my situation worse by calling my parents, which just pisses them off. i have nobody to talk to outside of myself and the few people i know on here, and 90% of the time my cries for help go ignored/unseen on here.
i’m in so much pain right now.
i want it to go away
I know this probably isn't what you want to hear right now, but this will get better. It's just a few more years until you graduate high school and get a supporting job. Or go to uni and live on campus if you choose. And yeah, waiting sucks ass. But you've already toughed it out for years. And a few more years from now, you'll look back on this and be grateful See More you were patient. Think of how great your freedom will be once you can safely leave.
on December 10, 2018
on December 10, 2018
and i can’t deal with my family anymore.
i’m so trapped with them and there’s no hope for me.
i’ll just have to wait. but it’s too long to wait. and i probably won’t graduate on time anyway, so i’ll end up waiting longer than most people.
you know something’s wrong when your therapist asks you if there’s other family you can live with.
sadly, i have none.
i genuinely wish my parents would kick me out. then i could live somewhere else and not have to deal with them.
i’m so trapped with them and there’s no hope for me.
i’ll just have to wait. but it’s too long to wait. and i probably won’t graduate on time anyway, so i’ll end up waiting longer than most people.
you know something’s wrong when your therapist asks you if there’s other family you can live with.
sadly, i have none.
i genuinely wish my parents would kick me out. then i could live somewhere else and not have to deal with them.
on December 10, 2018
im so tired of school.
i’m failing almost every class, and im under so much pressure to do better when i literally cannot
the atmosphere of my school is just bad.
it makes me so depressed and anxious all day
i don’t want to transfer, because i love band and my friends, but those are the only redeeming factors.
everything here is grey and gloomy to me, even on sunny, beautiful days where i shouldn’t have any worries.
i’m failing almost every class, and im under so much pressure to do better when i literally cannot
the atmosphere of my school is just bad.
it makes me so depressed and anxious all day
i don’t want to transfer, because i love band and my friends, but those are the only redeeming factors.
everything here is grey and gloomy to me, even on sunny, beautiful days where i shouldn’t have any worries.
on December 10, 2018
i get to see ??? tomorrow
❤️????????
hopefully he doesn’t see this post bc the link to my account is in my insta bio oops
?????❤️??❤️
sorry for being so in love
❤️????????
hopefully he doesn’t see this post bc the link to my account is in my insta bio oops
?????❤️??❤️
sorry for being so in love
on December 10, 2018
wow milo made some bad content on this hellsite
on December 10, 2018
