So, I had another miscarriage 6 days go and I was apparently 6 weeks along. It was super painful this time and I've been in a lot of pain physically so I've been resting often. I don't really feel like doing anything but I always force myself to keep going. Honestly though I just really want to sleep or cuddle up with my phone in bed. 💔
on June 30
Jan - Jun, 2026 life update
- Started the year with having the flu. The worse ever.
- Had a really bad psychosis episode that lasted over a month.
- Had another spiritual awakening and have realized this world is pure evil, ran by evil people. BUT good people truly do exist as well because I am full of love and lightness.
- Moved yet again. * sobs *
- I have been obsessed with CAMO and her music, ughh.
- Had an overdose. That was very scary honestly.. I've never really experienced See More one that was an accident.
- Spending more time outside. I'm constantly gardening or chilling in the woods LOL.
- Almost finished all of my GED classes, thank godd. I'm so ready to be done with it.
- Probably gonna go to community college to become a nail tech??
- Will be turning 22 this August. </3
- Came close to winning a model competition...
- ALSO did a photoshoot for Covergirl. Super fun but I know how bad that industry can be as well so I don't think I'll continue to pursue it? I wanna sing!!
- I really do have a bunch of new music I'm working on and it's so much better than anything I've released or posted before. My voice currently is genuinely so good now honestly.
- I have done several DNA tests since last spring-winter and I've just now literally been linked to this Hmong/Japanese family? I've been very confused about who I am, or who I thought I was. Learning about this whole other family I'm apparently related to has been mind boggling. I was super emotional at first but after a few weeks, I've realized I probably won't ever get the truth about how I'm part of a whole different culture/race than my family so... I've learnt to be okay with not knowing the whole story and learning to love myself regardless of what ethnicity or race I belong to. I'm still me regardless.
- I have a few fun things planned to do this summer and I hope it actually happens because I am so tired of my plans never working out LOL.
- I'm making lots of cool new friends.
- Super lonely but being single is fun. Like, please don't waste my time.
- Started the year with having the flu. The worse ever.
- Had a really bad psychosis episode that lasted over a month.
- Had another spiritual awakening and have realized this world is pure evil, ran by evil people. BUT good people truly do exist as well because I am full of love and lightness.
- Moved yet again. * sobs *
- I have been obsessed with CAMO and her music, ughh.
- Had an overdose. That was very scary honestly.. I've never really experienced See More one that was an accident.
- Spending more time outside. I'm constantly gardening or chilling in the woods LOL.
- Almost finished all of my GED classes, thank godd. I'm so ready to be done with it.
- Probably gonna go to community college to become a nail tech??
- Will be turning 22 this August. </3
- Came close to winning a model competition...
- ALSO did a photoshoot for Covergirl. Super fun but I know how bad that industry can be as well so I don't think I'll continue to pursue it? I wanna sing!!
- I really do have a bunch of new music I'm working on and it's so much better than anything I've released or posted before. My voice currently is genuinely so good now honestly.
- I have done several DNA tests since last spring-winter and I've just now literally been linked to this Hmong/Japanese family? I've been very confused about who I am, or who I thought I was. Learning about this whole other family I'm apparently related to has been mind boggling. I was super emotional at first but after a few weeks, I've realized I probably won't ever get the truth about how I'm part of a whole different culture/race than my family so... I've learnt to be okay with not knowing the whole story and learning to love myself regardless of what ethnicity or race I belong to. I'm still me regardless.
- I have a few fun things planned to do this summer and I hope it actually happens because I am so tired of my plans never working out LOL.
- I'm making lots of cool new friends.
- Super lonely but being single is fun. Like, please don't waste my time.
on June 30
Not sure why this just popped into my head but did anyone ever name the qfeast lizard? 🫠
on June 10
Your self love has to be stronger than your family's dislike of you.
on June 03
I don't know why, but when I seen my sisters for the first time in years back in 2021, I kinda thought they would still be little girls.. like, I never realized how long we had been separated.
@omegaverse
Oh yeah, I had the same experience when I seen my sisters a while ago. It's really crazy how time goes by
Oh yeah, I had the same experience when I seen my sisters a while ago. It's really crazy how time goes by
on June 03
i hadn't seen my cousin for about ~8 years and was so surprised when i saw them for the first time in 2024 and they were almost as tall as me
on June 01
My middle sister interacts with me and stuff but we never talk anymore. She's always with her fiancé, our other sister, or her friends though.
on June 01
on June 01
Neverrrr be friends with a person that crosses your boundaries and tries to get you do to adult content with them.
on June 01
Lately I've been falling in love with nature. I love being outside, I love talking to all the animals, I love being barefoot... yes. 🌱
on May 31
Genuinely cannot believe my first ever username on here was emo_heart_scared 😭😭
Oh, the cringe.
Oh, the cringe.
on May 30
All morning I've been trying to get these kittens and their mama inside from the rain. 🫠
on May 30
Anxiety surges are the worse cause why am I chilling at home with the anxiety level of someone in an apocalypse
on May 30
Just wanted to let you guys know that there's a little frog croaking outside my bedroom window and it's rainy tonight. <3
on May 26