Yes, I have been active on this account for 1 month. However, technically I have been apart of this site for 6 years going on 7. Btw I am including the 2 years I was gone, so technically 4 active years, plus another 2 since I still had an account.
on April 16, 2020
Guess which dumbass left their sketchbook at their school and won't get it back?? THIS PERSON!
It had one of my favorite sketches in there too!
It had one of my favorite sketches in there too!
on April 16, 2020
@GayIrishPanic me because they understand me really good.
on April 16, 2020
on April 16, 2020
I took a well deserved nap, I think my mom came in and yelled at when I woke up once for like 3 minutes but I honestly don't remember much of what happened.
on April 15, 2020
I have 45 minutes before I can finally fall back asleep and pretend I was productive for the day
on April 15, 2020
Just wrote a quarantine parody for a class, and now I'm singing for the first time in forever in my head.
on April 15, 2020
Huge Trigger Warning this is a vent
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So my youth director thinks the amount of asthma attacks I have could be linked to panic attacks (he actually said anxiety), but because my mom refuses to send me to a counselor to actually get "tested" there is no way of knowing. So, I can't say that anxiety is the reason I'm going through a shit ton of inhalers (I mean it doesn't immediately cause an asthma attack the fact that breathing difficulties is a symptom and I already can't breath as it is). Therefore, since my mom won't get her f'ucking head out of her ass I'm going to keep going through the damn things!
I also have to take a special medication to control my asthma and the fact that it doesn't work and I've said that it doesn't work, yet she still buys it pisses me off.
I try telling my mom to get me help, I do not feel okay. Yet I keep getting passed off. I'm not saying I need help because I want a counselor because depression and anxiety is a "trend" I'm saying I want help BECAUSE I CAN'T KEEP LIVING LIKE THIS! I'm hurting, most nights I stay up because I can't sleep because my brain won't f'ucking stop running, most nights I stay up crying reminding myself how much a screw up I am. I don't want to feel the way I do yet everytime I try to explain myself I'm written off as fine when I am obviously far from fine. She only says I'm fine because she refuses to see the fact that her 'daughter' isn't perfect and they feel like the entire world is against them most days, and I'm sick of feeling this way. I've tried talking to one of my school counselors, last year I was told the reason why I hated myself is because I still cared about the person who broke up with me... the conversation we had wasn't about that bs but that was the answer!? The only people who actually give a shit about my wellbeing are the people my mother refuses to listen to. I can't even book myself the help I need because I don't have the money and I don't even know where to begin.
This entire rant was me basically saying I hate my mother, she clearly doesn't care about my mental state.
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So my youth director thinks the amount of asthma attacks I have could be linked to panic attacks (he actually said anxiety), but because my mom refuses to send me to a counselor to actually get "tested" there is no way of knowing. So, I can't say that anxiety is the reason I'm going through a shit ton of inhalers (I mean it doesn't immediately cause an asthma attack the fact that breathing difficulties is a symptom and I already can't breath as it is). Therefore, since my mom won't get her f'ucking head out of her ass I'm going to keep going through the damn things!
I also have to take a special medication to control my asthma and the fact that it doesn't work and I've said that it doesn't work, yet she still buys it pisses me off.
I try telling my mom to get me help, I do not feel okay. Yet I keep getting passed off. I'm not saying I need help because I want a counselor because depression and anxiety is a "trend" I'm saying I want help BECAUSE I CAN'T KEEP LIVING LIKE THIS! I'm hurting, most nights I stay up because I can't sleep because my brain won't f'ucking stop running, most nights I stay up crying reminding myself how much a screw up I am. I don't want to feel the way I do yet everytime I try to explain myself I'm written off as fine when I am obviously far from fine. She only says I'm fine because she refuses to see the fact that her 'daughter' isn't perfect and they feel like the entire world is against them most days, and I'm sick of feeling this way. I've tried talking to one of my school counselors, last year I was told the reason why I hated myself is because I still cared about the person who broke up with me... the conversation we had wasn't about that bs but that was the answer!? The only people who actually give a shit about my wellbeing are the people my mother refuses to listen to. I can't even book myself the help I need because I don't have the money and I don't even know where to begin.
This entire rant was me basically saying I hate my mother, she clearly doesn't care about my mental state.
On the bright side, after this quarantine is over my friend might be taking me to a counselor.
on April 15, 2020
I'm done ranting now, if I talk any further about this matter I'm not going to get what I want done.
on April 15, 2020
on April 15, 2020
Someone: *mentions broadway*
Me: *runs out of corner tripping over my over excited ass*
Me: *runs out of corner tripping over my over excited ass*
oh yeah my friends sometimes will accidentally mention a show i love and it's very obvious how much they immediately regret it
on April 15, 2020
on April 15, 2020
I watch DissociaDID and they're going through a hard time after Trisha's bs, and now finding something about their partner and I honestly feel so bad for them.
@wxtch.bxtch ABSOLUTELY! When she came out with the trans video I was hurt, my brother and I couldn't even react because we were hurt. When she came out with the DID video that shit pissed me off. I loved her harmless troll videos, those were funny but now... I just can't.
on April 15, 2020
I miss the old Trisha who did harmless trolls. Trolling about being trans is pretty low, and trolling about this while DID thing is REAL low.
Like the "do dogs even have brains?" or the Trump shit? Great. Hilarious. I was dying. This? Trashy.
Like the "do dogs even have brains?" or the Trump shit? Great. Hilarious. I was dying. This? Trashy.
on April 15, 2020
on April 15, 2020
Personality and Friendship!
I'm so bored man
I'm so bored man
What guys see in you?
Personality
You are cute and perky and know when to take a joke. You are funny and reliable and easy to impress. Guys like it because you are also beautiful on the outside, this makes up a load of ground and this makes them respect you more. You are also cheeky and quick, you can move around things quickly and love being cheeky.
on April 15, 2020
Who wants to be made into an avatar?
on April 15, 2020
New story idea: Trigger Warning!!! Do not read, it involves gore. I'm thinking of making it a comic.
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Vivian Hartley age 25 arrested for homicide of her mother, father, younger sister, two counts of arson, and five assault incidents. Only one is true, yet due to evidence it all points to her.
Since a young age Vivian has struggled living in a broken home, her father a psychopath and her mother taking the abuse afraid to leave. She watched her sister die at age 8, and her mother when she was 15 at the hands of the man they so called her father. Traumatized she stayed, made sure everything was perfect to keep herself from being hurt. It wasn't until she was 24 she finally struck back. Her father angry with a recent break up targets his daughter, only it doesn't go as planned. Vivian throws a burning hot pan filled with boiling hot water burning her father's face before stabbing him repeatedly until he no longer struggled. Drenched in his blood she panicked, afraid. Now she's being blamed for her father's doing when she only freed herself from a childhood of fear.
The whole story is going to be a log of the prison, how she survives and the interviews she gets from people who are studying. What do you guys think? I got this idea off of Criminal Minds.
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Vivian Hartley age 25 arrested for homicide of her mother, father, younger sister, two counts of arson, and five assault incidents. Only one is true, yet due to evidence it all points to her.
Since a young age Vivian has struggled living in a broken home, her father a psychopath and her mother taking the abuse afraid to leave. She watched her sister die at age 8, and her mother when she was 15 at the hands of the man they so called her father. Traumatized she stayed, made sure everything was perfect to keep herself from being hurt. It wasn't until she was 24 she finally struck back. Her father angry with a recent break up targets his daughter, only it doesn't go as planned. Vivian throws a burning hot pan filled with boiling hot water burning her father's face before stabbing him repeatedly until he no longer struggled. Drenched in his blood she panicked, afraid. Now she's being blamed for her father's doing when she only freed herself from a childhood of fear.
The whole story is going to be a log of the prison, how she survives and the interviews she gets from people who are studying. What do you guys think? I got this idea off of Criminal Minds.
on April 14, 2020
Another inspiration for this was The Dead House by Dawn K. I didn't really think of it until after coming up with a backstory for Vivian in a Criminal Minds roleplay, and what inspired the background was an episode of Criminal Minds, and the log idea came from the dead house.
on April 14, 2020
on April 14, 2020
My sister nearly spilled liquid all over my laptop throwing a f'ucking pillow at me because she wanted to. I'm about ready to scream.
on April 14, 2020
I mean, you're not wrong??
Are You Really Emo?
Yes You Are Emo!
Hey you are going though something rough... Cheer up talk to someone it might be hard but it will e worth it! I prob went through something similar.(DON'T EVER LET PEOPLE GET TO YOU!)
on April 14, 2020
I only have 2 close friends irl
Olivia: She helped me recover from my toxic relationship (I helped her as well since we both suffered with it), and got really close. We realized we were alike in many ways and it just grew us closer to one another. She literally helps me survive some of the pain I feel even though I don't tell her about most of it. She's just a fabulous human, and she even respects my pronouns and calls me Kaiden which is absolutely amazing. She's the only person See More irl that makes me feel valid in who I am and honestly I'm so grateful for her.
Noah: I'm his mother/father (parental unit). Although he's annoying at times I still love him to death. He's a huge doofus (he's a high school and has to have a childs glass at restaurants because he spills all the time) and that's my favorite thing about him. He's a walking meme, and it's great. Also, he's a good christian boy (his words not mine).
Olivia: She helped me recover from my toxic relationship (I helped her as well since we both suffered with it), and got really close. We realized we were alike in many ways and it just grew us closer to one another. She literally helps me survive some of the pain I feel even though I don't tell her about most of it. She's just a fabulous human, and she even respects my pronouns and calls me Kaiden which is absolutely amazing. She's the only person See More irl that makes me feel valid in who I am and honestly I'm so grateful for her.
Noah: I'm his mother/father (parental unit). Although he's annoying at times I still love him to death. He's a huge doofus (he's a high school and has to have a childs glass at restaurants because he spills all the time) and that's my favorite thing about him. He's a walking meme, and it's great. Also, he's a good christian boy (his words not mine).
on April 14, 2020
I need to get into witch craft because it is so f'ucking fascinating. However, I don't know where to start and the books are expensive because I'm broke as f'uck.
I will brag a tad bit though, my aunt brought me Les Miserables, Phantom of the Opera and The Odyssey in book form. Am I going to enjoy reading those? Um... yeah!
Unrelated note: I have the No fear Shakesphere book for Macbeth just to angrily read the translated version of Macbeth that Rupert Goold could have used See More for his modernized version of Macbeth. You think people would have learned after the Baz Luhrmann fiasco with a modernized Romeo and Juliet, the answer is no. If you're going to modernize a script written in the era of Shakespeare modernize the speech as well. In 1996 you weren't talking about your mother's drapes, no you were talking about your f'ucking leg warmers (that's actually a joke). They did the same thing with the Great Gatsby. If you're going to add music to be nostalgic ADD THE CORRECT ERA!!! In the 1920s people were not listening to Fergie! They were listening to Jazz! Now, I loved the Great Gatsby it was a great movie/book! Romeo and Juliet was a trash movie and I hate love stories (love Shakespeare though) and Macbeth was a great play horrible movie choice. They really did Patrick Stewart wrong in that movie and it saddens me to say that. Patrick will forever hold my heart with his good movies, but I'm just saying 2010 Macbeth can burn in the depths of wherever the heck it came out of.
Do not get me started on the movies/t.v shows I despise (ignore this post because no one started me on this rant but myself).
I went from I love witchcraft to how much I hate certain movies... yes, they're obviously the same topic.
I will brag a tad bit though, my aunt brought me Les Miserables, Phantom of the Opera and The Odyssey in book form. Am I going to enjoy reading those? Um... yeah!
Unrelated note: I have the No fear Shakesphere book for Macbeth just to angrily read the translated version of Macbeth that Rupert Goold could have used See More for his modernized version of Macbeth. You think people would have learned after the Baz Luhrmann fiasco with a modernized Romeo and Juliet, the answer is no. If you're going to modernize a script written in the era of Shakespeare modernize the speech as well. In 1996 you weren't talking about your mother's drapes, no you were talking about your f'ucking leg warmers (that's actually a joke). They did the same thing with the Great Gatsby. If you're going to add music to be nostalgic ADD THE CORRECT ERA!!! In the 1920s people were not listening to Fergie! They were listening to Jazz! Now, I loved the Great Gatsby it was a great movie/book! Romeo and Juliet was a trash movie and I hate love stories (love Shakespeare though) and Macbeth was a great play horrible movie choice. They really did Patrick Stewart wrong in that movie and it saddens me to say that. Patrick will forever hold my heart with his good movies, but I'm just saying 2010 Macbeth can burn in the depths of wherever the heck it came out of.
Do not get me started on the movies/t.v shows I despise (ignore this post because no one started me on this rant but myself).
I went from I love witchcraft to how much I hate certain movies... yes, they're obviously the same topic.
on April 14, 2020