on August 01, 2024
“And I don't feel nothing at all
And you can't feel nothing small
"Honey, I love you," that's all she wrote
Oh, Ophelia, you've been on my mind, girl, like a drug
Oh, Ophelia, heaven help the fool who falls in love
Oh, Ophelia, you've been on my mind, girl, since the flood
Oh, Ophelia, heaven help the fool who falls in love.”
And you can't feel nothing small
"Honey, I love you," that's all she wrote
Oh, Ophelia, you've been on my mind, girl, like a drug
Oh, Ophelia, heaven help the fool who falls in love
Oh, Ophelia, you've been on my mind, girl, since the flood
Oh, Ophelia, heaven help the fool who falls in love.”
on July 27, 2024
“Drown myself in alcohol, that don't never help at all
I might say some stupid things tonight when you pick up this call
I've been hearing silence on the other side for way too long
I can taste it on my tongue
I can tell that something's wrong
But I guess it's just my life
And I can take it if I wanna See More
But I cannot hide
In hills of California
Because these hills have eyes
And I got paranoia
I hurt myself sometimes
Is that too scary for you?”
I might say some stupid things tonight when you pick up this call
I've been hearing silence on the other side for way too long
I can taste it on my tongue
I can tell that something's wrong
But I guess it's just my life
And I can take it if I wanna See More
But I cannot hide
In hills of California
Because these hills have eyes
And I got paranoia
I hurt myself sometimes
Is that too scary for you?”
on July 26, 2024
My little pet just passed away. Heartbroken and devastated.
I'm still extremely depressed and hurt but I'm gonna try to be strong for her. We loved each other so much. It won't be the same without my baby around.
on July 25, 2024
on July 24, 2024
I had a dream last night that I was in high school again. I kinda do miss that era of my life but I'm always glad it's over too. I miss some of my former classmates I'd see but that's it. It was so stressful.
on July 23, 2024
Some life updates. 🦋
- Getting my licenses soon hopefully. (?)
- Trying to find a job has been literal hell. It feels impossible.
- I started reading a lot again, my only good coping mechanism lol.
- I'm thinking a lot about my music and I really want to release good songs.
- Lately I've been thinking I want to be a nail technician? It's either that or go into acting or a teacher. I've always wanted to be a singer/an actress but I have a lot of things to think about and See More plan for to be honest.
- Still thinking about making a comic book or a children's book.
- I'm single again. 🥲
- Getting my licenses soon hopefully. (?)
- Trying to find a job has been literal hell. It feels impossible.
- I started reading a lot again, my only good coping mechanism lol.
- I'm thinking a lot about my music and I really want to release good songs.
- Lately I've been thinking I want to be a nail technician? It's either that or go into acting or a teacher. I've always wanted to be a singer/an actress but I have a lot of things to think about and See More plan for to be honest.
- Still thinking about making a comic book or a children's book.
- I'm single again. 🥲
on July 23, 2024
Just realized someone I considered a friend blocked me without warning a while ago. I'm back at the point where I completely hate myself, I can't keep friendships or relationships anymore. I honestly don't even know what I did or said so I'm confused but oh well.
on July 18, 2024
on July 17, 2024
Anyways, here's some life updates. 🦋
- I can't afford my school bill so I have no idea when I'll ever get to graduate.
- My partner hasn't talked to me in about 2 weeks and we haven't seen each other since December. I'm pretty sure I'm single again so yeah. There's that.
- My weight is constantly up and down, it's kinda stressing me out really bad to be honest but it is what it is I guess.
- Lost the job I had over some stupid ass drama and it's been hell trying to find See More another decent job I'm capable of doing but I'm hoping I can find something.
- I'm anxious that I'll never get to be a singer or make music. I want that more than anything right now but I'm afraid I'll never get to be popular/release decent music and it's soul crushing. I just want to be a good singer and have people that love me. 🥹🥹
- I can't afford my school bill so I have no idea when I'll ever get to graduate.
- My partner hasn't talked to me in about 2 weeks and we haven't seen each other since December. I'm pretty sure I'm single again so yeah. There's that.
- My weight is constantly up and down, it's kinda stressing me out really bad to be honest but it is what it is I guess.
- Lost the job I had over some stupid ass drama and it's been hell trying to find See More another decent job I'm capable of doing but I'm hoping I can find something.
- I'm anxious that I'll never get to be a singer or make music. I want that more than anything right now but I'm afraid I'll never get to be popular/release decent music and it's soul crushing. I just want to be a good singer and have people that love me. 🥹🥹
on July 04, 2024
I have exactly 39 days left of being a teen.. Does not feel real.
on July 03, 2024
Going through a rough depressive episode and I've never felt as alone as I do right now.
on June 25, 2024
“Happy Anniversary! As of today, you have been with Qfeast for 1 year”
Try 10. 💀
Try 10. 💀
on June 20, 2024
I don't really have much to talk about these days lol. I still can't believe I'm on here.
on June 18, 2024
