Potential TW: Food, Weight, Etc.
So I’ve been dealing with this for a long time now, and I finally just need to get it off my chest. I feel fat. I weigh 120 lbs, which feels like too much for someone my size. I know that’s technically a healthy, relatively low weight for a 17 year old who’s 5’3, but I can’t help but feel disgustingly fat every time I look at myself. I try to explain this to my friends, and they just get mad at me and say that I’m an idiot and that I’m skinny See More and lucky, but it doesn’t feel that way. I wear size 6 jeans now, and my friend Emily wears a 00. I was that size until 9th grade, then I gained a bunch of weight bc puberty. I know I’m at a healthy, weight, but I grew up extremely underweight, so it feels wrong being healthy if that makes any sense? Every time I eat anything I just feel like a disgusting, fat person. But I don’t do anything about it. I just keep eating, and tbh I’m still gaining weight, which just makes me feel worse, then I stress eat and sad eat and get fatter. I don’t know why I feel like this, but I genuinely want to just stop eating altogether and lose weight bc I feel ugly as fück. I don’t know what to do, I try eating healthier, I work out almost every day for like,,, 3 hours, yet I never lose any weight, I just keep gaining it.
Idk, this is just how I feel.
So I’ve been dealing with this for a long time now, and I finally just need to get it off my chest. I feel fat. I weigh 120 lbs, which feels like too much for someone my size. I know that’s technically a healthy, relatively low weight for a 17 year old who’s 5’3, but I can’t help but feel disgustingly fat every time I look at myself. I try to explain this to my friends, and they just get mad at me and say that I’m an idiot and that I’m skinny See More and lucky, but it doesn’t feel that way. I wear size 6 jeans now, and my friend Emily wears a 00. I was that size until 9th grade, then I gained a bunch of weight bc puberty. I know I’m at a healthy, weight, but I grew up extremely underweight, so it feels wrong being healthy if that makes any sense? Every time I eat anything I just feel like a disgusting, fat person. But I don’t do anything about it. I just keep eating, and tbh I’m still gaining weight, which just makes me feel worse, then I stress eat and sad eat and get fatter. I don’t know why I feel like this, but I genuinely want to just stop eating altogether and lose weight bc I feel ugly as fück. I don’t know what to do, I try eating healthier, I work out almost every day for like,,, 3 hours, yet I never lose any weight, I just keep gaining it.
Idk, this is just how I feel.
on July 30, 2019
peppa’s album kinda slaps hard
on July 29, 2019
on July 29, 2019
wtf is this yaoi page that keeps being shown to me on here
on July 28, 2019
GOD
DCI in atlanta is tomorrow and I want to go SO BAD but NOBODY WILL GO WITH ME
DCI in atlanta is tomorrow and I want to go SO BAD but NOBODY WILL GO WITH ME
on July 27, 2019
on July 24, 2019
if you're in high school and don't have a significant other, don't bother going to prom
my prom was literally awful
I didn't have a date bc literally no one at my school thinks I have any redeeming qualities, my best friend had to leave before it even started bc she got food poisoning. all my other friends had boyfriends/girlfriends and just danced/talked with them all night and ignored me. the only decent part was buying the dress I wore (even though I ended up looking fat in See More it anyways), bc I at least enjoyed shopping for it with my mom, not my friends, bc nobody bothered to invite me to go shopping with them. the actual dance was awful. some weirdo followed me around the whole time, driving everyone I actually like away from me bc they were so weird. I didn't dance at all, bc my anxiety sucks and all my friends just laugh at me when I dance. (never mind the fact that I'm a classically trained ballet dancer, I cannot dance) I literally spent most of prom crying in the bathroom and asking my prom group when we could leave, and we ended up staying the entire 5 hours until the end.
next year, unless by some magical chance I have a bf/gf, I will definitely not be going, bc it's literally the worst, I had probably one of the worst nights of my life on what was supposed to be one of the best. (thanks for reading my prom horror story btw)
my next prom will be my senior prom, and I probably won't even go, how fücking pathetic is that?
my prom was literally awful
I didn't have a date bc literally no one at my school thinks I have any redeeming qualities, my best friend had to leave before it even started bc she got food poisoning. all my other friends had boyfriends/girlfriends and just danced/talked with them all night and ignored me. the only decent part was buying the dress I wore (even though I ended up looking fat in See More it anyways), bc I at least enjoyed shopping for it with my mom, not my friends, bc nobody bothered to invite me to go shopping with them. the actual dance was awful. some weirdo followed me around the whole time, driving everyone I actually like away from me bc they were so weird. I didn't dance at all, bc my anxiety sucks and all my friends just laugh at me when I dance. (never mind the fact that I'm a classically trained ballet dancer, I cannot dance) I literally spent most of prom crying in the bathroom and asking my prom group when we could leave, and we ended up staying the entire 5 hours until the end.
next year, unless by some magical chance I have a bf/gf, I will definitely not be going, bc it's literally the worst, I had probably one of the worst nights of my life on what was supposed to be one of the best. (thanks for reading my prom horror story btw)
my next prom will be my senior prom, and I probably won't even go, how fücking pathetic is that?
@Aureospace yeah, I mean, go if you want to, I'm just sharing my experience and personal opinion. tons of people enjoy prom, I was just not one of those people
on July 24, 2019
idk why I felt like posting this, I just know a lot of you are going into your junior/senior year and I'm just warning you that prom isn't the "magical" night everyone makes it out to be
on July 23, 2019
btw, if you enjoy prom, congrats, you're one of the lucky people who actually has
1. people who love and care for them
2. good looks
3. no social anxiety
1. people who love and care for them
2. good looks
3. no social anxiety
on July 23, 2019
on July 23, 2019
LMAO
I CHECKED IN ONE LAST TIME JUST TO SEE IF THEY SAID ANYTHING ABOUT ME AND THEY ALREADY GOT BANNED
I CHECKED IN ONE LAST TIME JUST TO SEE IF THEY SAID ANYTHING ABOUT ME AND THEY ALREADY GOT BANNED
on July 18, 2019
ugh I have band camp tomorrow I’m going to bed
see y’all later and hopefully all these weird accounts will be banned :/
see y’all later and hopefully all these weird accounts will be banned :/
on July 18, 2019
tbh people commenting on that stuff is a sore spot for me and I really don’t appreciate it. if mirror is reading this could they please stop
on July 18, 2019
uhhh every time someone bullies me about this I feel the need to explain
At first I did come out as trans, but after a couple months of thinking, I realised I was nonbinary.
I haven’t claimed to be a man.
And I am mentally ill? Idk why people keep thinking I’m faking it bc that’s literally dumb af
At first I did come out as trans, but after a couple months of thinking, I realised I was nonbinary.
I haven’t claimed to be a man.
And I am mentally ill? Idk why people keep thinking I’m faking it bc that’s literally dumb af
on July 18, 2019
who tf is mirrormirror and if you’re reading this could you kindly uhhhh fück off
on July 18, 2019
the sooner you learn that nobody but your family will ever really care for you, the better your life will be.
trust no one.
trust no one.
on July 18, 2019
2nd day of band camp was good
tomorrow’s dress up theme is character day so me and my friends are dressing up as Tati, James Charles, and I (because of my pink hair) am Jeffree Star
tomorrow’s dress up theme is character day so me and my friends are dressing up as Tati, James Charles, and I (because of my pink hair) am Jeffree Star
on July 17, 2019