i seriously need to stop fantasizing ab this treacherous man (he usually goes to bed at around the same time i get up for work we could catch a sunrise n then i could catch my train and he could sleep
on May 19
i hate when people r super pretentious and annoying about radiohead i love radiohead bc i like hearing men whimper
on May 18
i think playing and attending shows may be catalysts for me bc things happen every fuckingg time
on May 17
going to a screening of kys mime im
so excited
so excited
on May 16
on May 14
on May 14
think i found an apartment
its little but hardwood floors, good natural light, pretty lobby, near the lake, close to one of my jobs, and i think within sorta reasonable walking distance of 4+ friends of mine as well the guy i was involved with last summer and still lowkey want.... im going to be so bad im gonna be so bad there
on May 14
on May 14
when they have djs at coffee shops i think with each drink purchased you should get one (1) complimentary rock to. throw it at the dj
on May 13
my track record is looking Not Good lowkey
-dutch person
-complete stranger who obsessed over me and then never spoke to me again
-girl who told me ab her long distance boyfriend while i was making us pancakes the morning after we lezzed out
-a dj
-evil woman who ended up getting with w/ a close friend of mine my back and was also a dj See More
-creep radiohead first date
-complete stranger who obsessed over me and then never spoke to me again
-girl who told me ab her long distance boyfriend while i was making us pancakes the morning after we lezzed out
-a dj
-evil woman who ended up getting with w/ a close friend of mine my back and was also a dj See More
-creep radiohead first date
on May 08
on May 08
garden vegetable and arugula breakfast bagel i am joyous
on May 06
hung out with my friend last week and i was late as hell and he waited in the cemetery in the rain for me for like 45 minutes. told myself i was not gonna romanticize it. im romanticizing it.
r we really surprised i will either romanticize, analyze, or get scared over most anything if i like them enough
on May 06
on May 06
literally just bought tix to see she’s green (again) n i find out that mustard service is also playing in my city soon oh brother…
bought a looper pedal off my friend too oopsie (i think this was justified tho? have literally. been after one of them for years)
on May 07
also i need to finally j cough up the money for a decent tripod w my shitty digital camera from walmart i didn’t mind j making precarious rigs w/ instrument cases and boxes but i need to be serious ab it now
on May 06
“im going to be frugal” and then two of my fav bands of all time drop tour dates and i acquire a vhs camera which also means now i have to get a new battery, tapes, and a vcr so i can actually use the footage i record😭
on May 06
on May 05
notable objects i have acquired that people always ask ab when they come hang at my house
-typewriter
-madame alexander 8” “dutch” boy doll
-fully intact coyote skull
-record collection no turntable
-vhs camera
-cyanotype of my strap on
-typewriter
-madame alexander 8” “dutch” boy doll
-fully intact coyote skull
-record collection no turntable
-vhs camera
-cyanotype of my strap on
on May 03
kinda don’t understand how i have game ig im a conventionally attractive person to a degree but the second i get comfortable around u i j start tweaking out and being stupid and 90% of the time if that doesn’t make them leave i will just subconsciously figure out a reason to shut the whole thing down and disappear
ate a flower in front of a boy yesterday. he looked confused and scared for a second and then also ate a flower. it sorta made our mouths feel weird
on May 02
on May 01
a few weeks ago i cut contact with a man who was weird to me and purposely signed up to be in almost all of my classes and he has literally not been to class since
on April 29
i feel like having a weird crush on me is a canon event for 1/3 of the men in my school’s music and audio dept
always specifically a weird crush maybe one or 2 of them have been normal ab it, for better or for worse
on April 28
on April 28