on December 11, 2018
It's 49 degrees and my uncle just left me in the csr with no ac
I know it's one sandwich but jfc i'M COLD
I know it's one sandwich but jfc i'M COLD
on December 11, 2018
KOOPAQUEEN IS BAAAACK
on December 11, 2018
Things that are weird fears/ tendancies of mine, probably from my aspergers:
-I get afraid of eye contact. I can't do it, but I fake it by looking near the eyes (bridge of the nose, lips, eyebrows, etc.) I can get by because most people are ok w/ me looking away like on the floor because it gets weird and I don't like it. I try to fix it by looking at my eyes in the mirror, but I can do this only for a few seconds. It's also why I look down walking the halls.
-Noise is scary!! See More I feel like I'm like,, drowning. You know how when you're underwater everything sounds muted and you can't breathe?? Yeah. Too much noise sounds like that. I get overwhelmed and can't think and it's scary and I want it to stop. I usually have earbuds or music to not have a ""meltdown""
-The ""meltdowns"" themselves are scary. I can't conprehend what's going on and socializing hurts. I get agressive and want it to stop. Kinda like being on a period but worse.
~~will be updated~~
-I get afraid of eye contact. I can't do it, but I fake it by looking near the eyes (bridge of the nose, lips, eyebrows, etc.) I can get by because most people are ok w/ me looking away like on the floor because it gets weird and I don't like it. I try to fix it by looking at my eyes in the mirror, but I can do this only for a few seconds. It's also why I look down walking the halls.
-Noise is scary!! See More I feel like I'm like,, drowning. You know how when you're underwater everything sounds muted and you can't breathe?? Yeah. Too much noise sounds like that. I get overwhelmed and can't think and it's scary and I want it to stop. I usually have earbuds or music to not have a ""meltdown""
-The ""meltdowns"" themselves are scary. I can't conprehend what's going on and socializing hurts. I get agressive and want it to stop. Kinda like being on a period but worse.
~~will be updated~~
on December 11, 2018
Tmi
I hate having my period and a migraine and having a peice of shit of a brother
I hate having my period and a migraine and having a peice of shit of a brother
on December 11, 2018
on December 11, 2018
My brother is getting on my nerves and he doesn't understand how close I am to loosi g my sHIT
on December 10, 2018
One of the first seargents let me sit w% them and I felt calm but I feel all anxious again
on December 10, 2018
on December 10, 2018
I had a panic attack in the middle of a presentation whoops
on December 10, 2018
on December 10, 2018
My depression hasn't hit yet and I'm so happy and feel accomplished and I have never felt more proud of myself!!!
Just don't wanna be alone for lunch
Just don't wanna be alone for lunch
on December 10, 2018
I can't find what to listen to
on December 10, 2018
on December 10, 2018
I'm probably just gonna sit alone tomorrow, I don't think my anger issues could handle being around people,,
on December 09, 2018