your.cool.grandma - Page 308

The same girl who mocked me just mocked her friend

I've already been mocked and then teased abt being a girl, after I've told the person who teased me that I'm not female

Tmw sudden small mood drop

People are way too loud in our class like

God, shut them up please.

I honestly hate how people in our school bring like

10+ snacks to share with their friends in class like

If you're going to bring that much food, you may as well share with the class.

It just doesn't make sense that they pretty much eat a meal in class

Bring a snack

Not a fuucking meal

Aaand group work


kms

Ho w many of these stupid stories do we have to read?? JFC

You can now find me as Duns_For_Hands in the Furry Amino app!

Night

I won't be able to buy a binder until 18, or unless I my friends get me one and give it to me away from my home, I'd then have to hide it and wash my own laundry all the time lmao

Is it bad that I sometimes feel:

Unwanted
Unloved
Disliked
Like A burden
Unneeded
Like Just another person no one needs See More▼
Ignored
Left out
Worthless
Stupid
Like no one cares anymore
Idiotic
And more when I know none of it is true(most likely)?

Also sudden mood drop idk I'm probably just tired and stressed abt school

I felt kinda

Okay not kinda

P suicidal today and idk why???? Like, I literally actually wanted to die and all, and I mumbled multiple suicidal things under my breath now and then.

I shouldn't be too worried, but I'm going to inform my councilor about it when I see her next week. I can't see her this week, which slightly ticks me off bc now I don't really have a trusted adult to rant to, and I'm not See More▼ going to rant to my mom, I just don't trust her. She says she won't tell anyone and then she tells my dad then it spreads which is why I don't talk to her.
Hopefully I won't be sent off somewhere like a mental hospital thingy for a bit like one of my friends did over the summer. I mean, the worst I've attempted was self harm and I'm still attempting it now and then bc it helps????? I know I shouldn't because I tell people not to, this is why I'm so horrible but oh well?

Also, one of my guy friends who likes me and I like him back like

He calls me his boyfriend and like

No we're not dating, stop. You know we're not dating. Also p sure he tried to kiss me today and he knows I'm not allowed and that I'm slightly uncomfortable with it?? Ugh idk. Part of me wishes I didn't tell him that I liked him, especially since I have another crush on another guy who's liked me for a while, and I feel bad for not being like

Good enough I guess you could say. Idk I have too much to rant abt

Sorry I kinda died

I need more beanies

I actually feel a lot better

Hanging out with Matt and cherry helps

Back to listening to cancer and trying not to bawl my eyes out bc I love that song but it's sad enough to make me cry ;')

I almost broke down twice during lunch

Wish I had the courage to cry in front of my friends but I don't

I didn't want to but I ate :/

I'm suddenly really scared bc I'm feeling suicidal..