on September 29, 2016
on September 29, 2016
Night
on September 29, 2016
on September 29, 2016
I won't be able to buy a binder until 18, or unless I my friends get me one and give it to me away from my home, I'd then have to hide it and wash my own laundry all the time lmao
on September 29, 2016
on September 29, 2016
Is it bad that I sometimes feel:
Unwanted
Unloved
Disliked
Like A burden
Unneeded
Like Just another person no one needs See More
Ignored
Left out
Worthless
Stupid
Like no one cares anymore
Idiotic
And more when I know none of it is true(most likely)?
Unwanted
Unloved
Disliked
Like A burden
Unneeded
Like Just another person no one needs See More
Ignored
Left out
Worthless
Stupid
Like no one cares anymore
Idiotic
And more when I know none of it is true(most likely)?
It's not wrong to think that.
We just sometimes need a reminder that we are loved and important : )
We just sometimes need a reminder that we are loved and important : )
on September 29, 2016
on September 29, 2016
Also sudden mood drop idk I'm probably just tired and stressed abt school
I felt kinda
Okay not kinda
P suicidal today and idk why???? Like, I literally actually wanted to die and all, and I mumbled multiple suicidal things under my breath now and then.
I shouldn't be too worried, but I'm going to inform my councilor about it when I see her next week. I can't see her this week, which slightly ticks me off bc now I don't really have a trusted adult to rant to, and I'm not See More going to rant to my mom, I just don't trust her. She says she won't tell anyone and then she tells my dad then it spreads which is why I don't talk to her.
Hopefully I won't be sent off somewhere like a mental hospital thingy for a bit like one of my friends did over the summer. I mean, the worst I've attempted was self harm and I'm still attempting it now and then bc it helps????? I know I shouldn't because I tell people not to, this is why I'm so horrible but oh well?
Also, one of my guy friends who likes me and I like him back like
He calls me his boyfriend and like
No we're not dating, stop. You know we're not dating. Also p sure he tried to kiss me today and he knows I'm not allowed and that I'm slightly uncomfortable with it?? Ugh idk. Part of me wishes I didn't tell him that I liked him, especially since I have another crush on another guy who's liked me for a while, and I feel bad for not being like
Good enough I guess you could say. Idk I have too much to rant abt
I felt kinda
Okay not kinda
P suicidal today and idk why???? Like, I literally actually wanted to die and all, and I mumbled multiple suicidal things under my breath now and then.
I shouldn't be too worried, but I'm going to inform my councilor about it when I see her next week. I can't see her this week, which slightly ticks me off bc now I don't really have a trusted adult to rant to, and I'm not See More going to rant to my mom, I just don't trust her. She says she won't tell anyone and then she tells my dad then it spreads which is why I don't talk to her.
Hopefully I won't be sent off somewhere like a mental hospital thingy for a bit like one of my friends did over the summer. I mean, the worst I've attempted was self harm and I'm still attempting it now and then bc it helps????? I know I shouldn't because I tell people not to, this is why I'm so horrible but oh well?
Also, one of my guy friends who likes me and I like him back like
He calls me his boyfriend and like
No we're not dating, stop. You know we're not dating. Also p sure he tried to kiss me today and he knows I'm not allowed and that I'm slightly uncomfortable with it?? Ugh idk. Part of me wishes I didn't tell him that I liked him, especially since I have another crush on another guy who's liked me for a while, and I feel bad for not being like
Good enough I guess you could say. Idk I have too much to rant abt
on September 29, 2016
I need more beanies
on September 28, 2016
I actually feel a lot better
Hanging out with Matt and cherry helps
Hanging out with Matt and cherry helps
on September 28, 2016
Back to listening to cancer and trying not to bawl my eyes out bc I love that song but it's sad enough to make me cry ;')
on September 28, 2016
I almost broke down twice during lunch
Wish I had the courage to cry in front of my friends but I don't
Wish I had the courage to cry in front of my friends but I don't
on September 28, 2016
on September 28, 2016
on September 28, 2016
I feel like when I'm sad, everyone else gets sad which is why I don't like telling people my feelings :/
on September 28, 2016
My mood like
Ugh
Like idk
I was just randomly mad in choir and I'm p sure I almost cried???? Eh idk
Don't really care
Ugh
Like idk
I was just randomly mad in choir and I'm p sure I almost cried???? Eh idk
Don't really care
on September 28, 2016
on September 28, 2016
"Too many feelings and not enough self control"
Kinda explains me in one line
Kinda explains me in one line
on September 28, 2016