68 dayas

drowning in the ocean of his eyes

neil takes us around and shows some of his Favourite places to go we end up at the beach just sitting in the sand. my brothers decide they are going to go for a swim leaving me with neil on my own they definitely did that on purpose.  neil starts a bit of small talk asking do i have any family her just things like that . there is a few moments of silence . he speaks up again do u have a boyfriend. no i dont .u must be jokeing a girl like u and dosent have a boyfriend .actually i just broke up with mine yesterday . oh im so sorry why did ye break up .thats the thing i honestly dont know he didnt give me a reason he just said it and left. wow is all  he managed to get out .yap is all i said and i let the silence fall back on us

my brothers slowly come back over to us dripping with water from being in the water. drakes phone begins to ring he answers it slowly.he hands it to me saying its for me .i slowly take the phone from his hand .sams voice fills my ears and suddenly i feel like crying and trowing the phone at the same time . i hang up straight away not wanting to hear what he has to say.my brothers notice and ask me who it was .my voice barely above a wispier the only word i can get out is sam . just saying his name made me burst into tears my brothers both wrap there arms tightly around my small figure
and in this moment i know i am so lucky to have them .... i slowly stand up dusting my self of . and me and the tree boys begin walking home .i still have tear stained cheeks and a red nose from crying but i dont care right now all i need to do is go home .i open to the door to my house with my brothers following behind me .my mom notices my tear stained cheeks and asks me am i okay .i snap back stop pretending like you care  if im okay because we all know if neil wasn't here u wouldnt ask you would just tell me to stop crying and get over it .i turn around seeing all the boys shocked faces as i run up the stairs and slam the door as hard as i could . i could hear the boys calling my name and banging on the door i just ignore them and eventually fall asleep ....i dreamed about an ocean the colour of his eyes and im drowning in it slowly