Pushed Away

Pushed Away

I was pushed away once again; I am sick and tired of it. My heart is already shattered as is. The only person who never pushed away was my best friend Koral but now she is gone and I am never going to see her again.
I wish I could just hold her one more time and have her tell me that everything is going to be all right . How many more people are gonna push me away when i need them most. I cry every day of my life when someone pushes me away. I have already lost a lot of people in my life i can't lose anymore. I lost two of my good friends, what's next i am gonna lose my hope too. Oh wait that's already gone too. I can't take anymore pain. It hurts to breathe every  time i take a breathe because of my broke and shattered heart. I am done trying to please people. I am sick and tired of being pushed away so if you push me away i don't want to know you.

I have a very hard time trusting certain people because of the amount of times i have been pushed away. I  may take awhile to trust someone , but i will get there eventually i just need time.