Let Me Die

Dying (Jamie)

It doesn't hurt.

You may cry for just a little bit, but it's not like your really going to burst into immense tears. Nope. Not at all. Because there's only 1 step in dying. Well, that's what you think. Just one step. It doesn't hurt. You just...kind of do it. But that wasn't the case with me. I was 15 when it happened, and I'll always regret saving him. My brother. Jonathan.

I know it doesn't make sense. But it does. Or it will. I'm still dead. And now, here's why. It was a dark gloomy Sunday afternoon, and my brother was pestering me about the new Minecraft collection of Legos. I wasn't listening, even if that new ship update sounded somewhat cool. I was staring at the bottom of my high tops on my bed, blocking him out the best way I could. But he wouldn't stop. Finally, I walked on top of the balcony. I thought I was alone as I started to cuss him out, but there he was again, my 11 year old brother making a fuss about why he wanted it for his birthday and why he deserved one. I was just like, shut your hell up. But he wouldn't stop, and I swerved before he could bump into me. His whole body weighed over the edge, swinging back and forth on the 5 feet up rail. "JAMIE!! HELP!!" he yelled.

At first, I had the meanest sprit. He had pestered me all day about it. Why should I save him? Why shouldn't he die? But that wasn't the real Jamie. The real Jamie would save him, annoying or not. I raced for him swinging him over, and then starting to fall and slip. But as I shouted for his help, he stood there. And then, he ran off. His little legs, his chubby, stupid legs running farther and farther away from me.

I gasped, and my breath became short and stout. "AHHHHH!" and that was it. I fell. The gardener watched me, and all I wanted to do was kill my family. For not caring. For ignoring my screams. I fell down harder, the ground almost making contact with my fragile skull. And boom!! It must've seemed like an explosion, but I felt no pain. And I knew I had died. I knew it. I was in a light of bubbling white, and nothing else.

I couldn't remember anything...and then it all came flowing back to me. Minecraft...balcony...my brother, the gardener, my skull. And before I knew it, everything in my world was DARKNESS.