shygirl23 - Page 12

One of my friends used to call me shorty, and before someone I used to go to school called me trash. The friend that calls me shorty will still be my friend, even if it's not a nice name. However, I don't really care on how he calls me. Because it's true, I am short. But the one thing I don't get is the friend that called me trash. It's not true, at least to me. I've been nice to that friend, and he calls me that. Both are boys, but one I'll keep. At least I'm short, but I know. See More I am not, trash.

I don't want to be alone, but you'd always seen me like that. When I'm alone, my mind is chaos. It's fighting on opposite sides, one good and the other bad. Music is the only thing that's protecting me. I hope I can have more than you protection. Because if the me I want to be is gone, will others notice? Not like I have been noticed or heard. If I change, what will they do? Will they try and change me back, or will they just leave me?
I hope there can be someone in the world See More who would stay with me, to love me for who I am. Because
1) I'm not perfect
2) I don't want to be alone
3) I don't want to go away
So please stay. I may not talk, but stay. I'm trying to be better, I'm trying to fight for myself. I have been for 4 years and counting. So please don't leave me, because if you do.
I might slip through the the crack, and won't be back.

I want to say a lot of things to a lot of people. I'm just too shy to say it, to get over it, and too afraid of what might happened. I'd just look at you, worried about the future. What will happen?