Cringe, garbage, annoying, am I any of those things to you?

YOU may not have a reason to stay alive, but if you ask all of the people you know on here, I bet each person could find a good reason of why you should stay alive.

Love is complicated...and both sides can be stubborn....yet they keep saying that my life has only begun when I haven't found a reason...a true reason to stay alive...

I-I'm sorry about that... thats horrible...

I've only had love once before...and I want it again....but the person I love doesn't love me back...or at least they're saying they're protecting me from them as they don't want to hurt me.

Its okay. Most of the things that would really make me happier are never going to happen. And love is definitely one of the big things. Because I know that the people I like could never like me back... Ive been hurt before, and I am afraid to love and trust because of what happened last time...

Thanks...but some of the things I try for are unreachable...unobtainable....love...

c'mon dude! I know u can do it! U just self-doubt so much that u think u cant. Srsly, haters are just jealous, and u just dont want to believe in yourself. I know what it feels like to have made a mistake in the past, and I know how hard it is to believe in yourself afterwards, because you're afraid to make the same mistake and get hurt again for the same reason. See More▼ But dont worry, you have so many awesome friends who support you and will help you no matter what. If u ever need to talk to someone, im always available.

Just try...please...you'll make yourself and those who care about you happier if you learn how to forgive yourself.

I don't...know how...how to do that...or get over much of anything these days...the exact opposite of how I used to be...before last year...but that...is something that can be relearned in moderation...yet...I do not know whether I can...

I understand...but the thing is, I'm sure they've forgiven you. Now you just need to learn to forgive yourself.

But what if those mistakes....are...too much...unforgivable..? I want to change so much...yet I fear it at the same time...more so than want...

Ty...these are all just worries...and as you mentioned, you're holding it against yourself. Not your family, not your friends, but you. You need to learn to let these things go...everyone makes mistakes. You're no different. We have to go through trial and error, as it's a part of life. Sometimes, we just want to go and punch Life, Despair or Fear in the face, See More▼ as it annoys us deeply, but alas, we must all our trials. And just remember...it's okay to make mistakes. Nobody's perfect.

But what if that person ends up being yourself...the one whom brings you down...I...blame myself for having horrid thoughts...for doing so much to another person that they had...lost their love for a game hey used to love...I ruined their experience.....I developed many technologies hay had went forgotten on a game...maps that have collected dust...lost a paper See More▼ that a group of old friends drew, and wrote down contact information on...and...broke a promise with a new friend I made...promising I would not move away...or at least saying I wouldn't...then doing so the very next minute without knowing...I...have done much...to make myself worth less than others...even now I struggle with a fear that contradicts my...insecurity as it is called...

See? There you go again...

Ty, you're an amazing person. I understand insecurity, trust me...but I'm just telling you that I don't think you need to be so insecure...if anyone ever tries to bring you down, it's probably because they're jealous of you.