love or obsession?

ive had a crush for 3 years and i cant stop thinking about him. oh my gosh i love him sososo much like i cant even explain. id do anything for him. anything he wants id do just anything. i cant stop thinking about him or talking about him. like gah dayum my whole family already knows about him and gets annoyed telling me to stop talking about him BUT I CANT. hes on my mind too much. hes in my 1st and 6th period and i usually try to talk to him anytime i have the chance. bro i cant even explain the things id do for this boy like i treat him so well. like my whole mood and emotions depend on if he has spoken to me or not. like in my eyes he is so perfect. i somehow only see the good things and never the ''bad'' things like bro. i think about him so much i lose focus of stuff and time and shit bro. like i was thinking about him during school STATE TESTING. like hello thats an important test and i still thought of him then. like my whole music taste changed because of him like he told me his favorite music artist and i listened to them and just grew onto the music taste and everything. speaking of music i even have my secret ''our'' songs. like a list of songs that remind me of him and everything but no one knows about them. like bro the happiness, relief, calmness, and comforting feeling i have around him is just omg. like i get so warmed up around him BRO like just seeing him and speaking to him makes my day. okay i need mental help