How do I find out who I am?

I'm a 17 year old boy who is about to graduate and attempt to start my life. I messed around in school and ended up not making it into my local university. I haven't told my mom this because I told her my plan was to go in the Air Force. But to me, I'm scared and I'm not ready to move away from childhood. But then again something inside me tells me something big will happen soon to me make me actually be apart of something big. I feel as I'm an of importance to be on Earth and people tell me i have something about me. Baby's stare at me whenever I'm around them. I believe i'm apart of the Freemasons from my Uncle (my mother's brother). I tend to find myself pushing away from the the typical religious lifestyle. I feel as if praying and worshiping a God isn't the true meaning of life. Why would he send us down to here to suffer but if we just pray, when we die, we'll be in a better place? That's selfish to me. I've been down the religious road through Young Life(A religious group to get teenagers in high school to choose God) aand I've been trying to look further into the Illuminati but it's so hard to understand. I'm not trying to say i want to worship the Devil and i know i'm jumping from topic to topic but these are the thoughts the run through my head almost everyday and they progressively get worse and worse as my graduation becomes closer. The true answer i'm looking for is not who I am, I obviously realize no one can answer that. I understand that I have to find that out inside myself but I'm asking for help in my confusion. Maybe for someone's input who is in the Freemasons or Illuminati that can give me advice on my struggles. Or just someone that knows of anything that can give me a better understanding of how to find myself. Thanks for reading and I'm looking forward to your feedback!

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Dedeea
You are a little stressed, we all have gone through this period of life. You should think that everything will be fine and that life is worth living, just think positively, laugh and have confidence. Be sure that you are one of the best and you can prove it; tell your mother, she certainly will support your other plans that you have; believe in God, pray for you and yours and have trust in life, you will see things different.
on May 10, 2012
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madison1
ok im going to tell you what to do k? now get your butt off the computer and tell your mom everything she is gonna find out sooner or later and try out for different university try that and let me know if that works ok?
madison1
by the way good things come to those who wait
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on January 08, 2013
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on January 08, 2013
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Dedeea
My advice to you is to trust yourself, and maybe if you will read some books of self-knowledge (psychological) you will find yourself. good luck and take care!
on May 10, 2012
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ashyj12
Hope for the best us all I have to say, and tell your mom now because hiding it won't accomplish ANYTHING!!!
on May 10, 2012
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toxicflutterbae
you can find your identity in christ. jesus did die for your sins, and rose three days later.. i know its confusing that "why would he let all this evil in the world when we are supposed to be his children? why do we have to pray for the things we want when he says no? why does he not fix my hurt? why is he letting people suffer like this? why?" well.. he lets evil into this world because of freewill. he wants to know that we would choose him over evil. if there was no evil then See More▼
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Nightcat
I don't really know who I am either...
Usually I ask God what he has planned for me, what should I do. I don't really know what kind of person i am yet, but I'm only young so eh. Sounds like you've been brought up a Christian, but don't really have a relationship with God. Same with me, but you just need to look for him. He's there, he wants you to get to know him better it can be a bit hard talking to him at the start though, trying to figure out when it's him talking not See More▼
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Metalskull86
Jackie Chan didn't find out who he was till the end of the film "Who am i" so don't feel bad.
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WWEChampion20
jump off a building and die...
killedbythesketchbook
RUDE!!!!!!!
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on February 11, 2013
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