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Once I had a nightmare, and once I woke up I seen a black shadow with horns

Ummm lets see i guess this would be considered triggering:
When i lived in CA i went to the pool after a long day of school and being bullied for the 50th time i decided to go home after i swam (i always had a swim suit with me) i had plans with my bf and told him to meet me at the pool so i swam around until I thought abt my excuse for having a black eye and blood on my cloths and I started to think about all the things people at school call me and thought, “i do deserve to die See More▼ every one obviously knows that since im told every day well ill make their wish come true,” i sat down underwater releasing all the air from my lungs and slowly fading until i felt a warm body pick me up then I passed out and woke up in the hospital and yea i tried committing suicide cause of aśśholes from California

i can’t really give specifics because ive forgotten like 90% of my childhood because of trauma suppression but ive been hypersexual before i even knew what sex was if that helps

I used to be a strong person. I used to know nothing and noone will change how i act, think, talk, walk, and look. I used to know nothing could hurt me as long as i stayed strong. that was in grade 4. ill just give you a run down..
4= meets a boy that soon becomes best friend
5= starts to get bullied. ignores bullies
6= boy leaves and moves away without telling. starts to listen to bullies. gets bullied in front of friends, they glance but do nothing or dont notice
7= bullying See More▼ gets worse. gets judged by the one major flaw i believe i have on my face.. my nose. falls into depression.
8= gives friends boyfriends/girlfriends. they slowly stop talking to me. bullying stops, but a few of my friends start bullying me without realising it. I help them with their problems, i keep their secrets. even though they wouldnt keep mine. lost emotions, and everything seems grey. quiet evertime i get insulted.
9= covid happened. suddenly most of my stress was gone. slowly regained emotions and slowly fell out of depression over 5 months.

one thing that's dark about my past is my mom's boyfriend stole me and my baby sister, then told my mom that she had to come get us if she ever wanted to see us again. When my mom came to get us. He wouldn't let her leave and I watched my mom get beat by him on a day-to-day basis. I was only 3-4 when this happened but I remember it clearly. When we finally came home my mom had accidentally overdoses on pills. That was the last time I saw her. I didn't even realize this until now See More▼ but it was exactly 12 years ago that my mom died. the sucky thing is my little sister is still in the custody of the guy who hurt my mom.

Me and my twin got separated by him getting adopted,abused until 10 years old by my dad,left with my mom and my siblings to Colorado,diagnosed with depression at age 12,now lives in Texas with my mom,dad and siblings,still never sees my brother.

When i was a baby i would see a creepy woman and now i see stuff and feel stuff then the voices in head are try to say to kill myself! *gets panic*

For years my self esteem and emotions have been knocked down slowly and surely, more and more, until last year i was completely emotionless, suicidal, and had self diagnosed severe depression. I got out of it with only one thought "i need to stay so i can keep helping people, even though they would never help me. i dont want them to think i died for no reason. i want them to know why i chose to die" but i didnt die. cause noone knew i was depressed

I am no longer depressed. but See More▼ thats mostly cause i lost a lot of stress. But if covids over, i go to school, and the same shit starts happening..