People piss me off so f*cking much. You ask me to hang out with you, than get pissed at me for stupid shit that you do too. I’m here to have a goood time bitch learn to not be a heinous bitch for once. Even my friends hate me my G-d.
on September 22, 2018
(TW: sh)
I need help!!
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Today I wore a medium sleeved shirt that doesn’t exactly cover my cuts so I put liquid lipstick on them to make it look like a swatch to test it out. Apparently this kid pointed out my arm in my Spanish class and now everyone in my class it talking about it. And the worst part is that the popular girls are in there too and they know. I’m going to skip that class I’m not going I want to ducking die I can’t do this. This was my secret for so long I See More don’t want people to know.
I need help!!
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Today I wore a medium sleeved shirt that doesn’t exactly cover my cuts so I put liquid lipstick on them to make it look like a swatch to test it out. Apparently this kid pointed out my arm in my Spanish class and now everyone in my class it talking about it. And the worst part is that the popular girls are in there too and they know. I’m going to skip that class I’m not going I want to ducking die I can’t do this. This was my secret for so long I See More don’t want people to know.
yeah, it sucks getting caught.
try telling them that they were fake and they only looked real because you've been watching video tutorials and wanted to try it out.
just don't do it again. please.
try telling them that they were fake and they only looked real because you've been watching video tutorials and wanted to try it out.
just don't do it again. please.
on September 18, 2018
on September 18, 2018
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So I finally told my dad and stepmom that I might have social anxiety and I need help and they had the audacity to say stuff like
“Everybody has a little bit of anxiety.” See More
“We don’t believe in that.”
“You just need better coping skills.”
“I used to have a bit of anxiety when I was younger.”
“You’re not your mother, don’t be like her. You’re you.”
(As if I want it???)
“You’re not special.”
“It’s puberty.”
Like??? Do you think I want to feel like this all the time??? I’m so tired of always being held back by a barrier, since I was little. I’ve recently been feeling awful, almost like the feeling of when you think you forgot something. I’ve had this depression shit since 2 years ago. It never went away but it got better and now it’s worse. 2 years ago I was there mentally. I got good grades and was conscience of my emotions except for my numbness. But now, I feel like I’m not there anymore. I feel like I’m inside a fogged mirror. I have no concept of time or consequence, it’s more than just an “I don’t care anymore” mood, it’s more like a “no matter how hard I try to do things differently to clear up this fog so I can have emotions, it fogs up again, and I’m so tired” mood. I always feel judged intensely in the halls of someone glances at me. I’m afraid of people. I take things the wrong way if someone says it wrong all the time and I always want to be invisible. And it’s not just that either, it’s feeling like my friends hate me and that nobody cares about me like they do other people, and that I’m just a second choice to everyone. Even if I don’t have s.a., so what? I just need to know what’s going on. I can’t take this anymore. I can’t get help because of everything, and I’ll keep falling until I reach the ground I guess. And I don’t want pity, I need help. There’s something wrong with me, it scares me, I don’t want to do this anymore.
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So I finally told my dad and stepmom that I might have social anxiety and I need help and they had the audacity to say stuff like
“Everybody has a little bit of anxiety.” See More
“We don’t believe in that.”
“You just need better coping skills.”
“I used to have a bit of anxiety when I was younger.”
“You’re not your mother, don’t be like her. You’re you.”
(As if I want it???)
“You’re not special.”
“It’s puberty.”
Like??? Do you think I want to feel like this all the time??? I’m so tired of always being held back by a barrier, since I was little. I’ve recently been feeling awful, almost like the feeling of when you think you forgot something. I’ve had this depression shit since 2 years ago. It never went away but it got better and now it’s worse. 2 years ago I was there mentally. I got good grades and was conscience of my emotions except for my numbness. But now, I feel like I’m not there anymore. I feel like I’m inside a fogged mirror. I have no concept of time or consequence, it’s more than just an “I don’t care anymore” mood, it’s more like a “no matter how hard I try to do things differently to clear up this fog so I can have emotions, it fogs up again, and I’m so tired” mood. I always feel judged intensely in the halls of someone glances at me. I’m afraid of people. I take things the wrong way if someone says it wrong all the time and I always want to be invisible. And it’s not just that either, it’s feeling like my friends hate me and that nobody cares about me like they do other people, and that I’m just a second choice to everyone. Even if I don’t have s.a., so what? I just need to know what’s going on. I can’t take this anymore. I can’t get help because of everything, and I’ll keep falling until I reach the ground I guess. And I don’t want pity, I need help. There’s something wrong with me, it scares me, I don’t want to do this anymore.
on September 17, 2018
on September 13, 2018
TW sh
sh sounds so good rn but it’s august and people will get suspicious if I wear sweaters
sh sounds so good rn but it’s august and people will get suspicious if I wear sweaters
on August 27, 2018
Ok I get it I’m ugly lol
on August 27, 2018
What are y’alls opinions on the new Ophiucus sign? I don’t like it really, it’s kind of extra and everybody whose sign got switched still seems like their old sign.
@Bridge.Over.The.River.Kwai the dates of Ophiucus is November 21 to December 21. the new date of Virgo is Sept. 16 – Oct. 30. I’ve heard it’s not a real zodiac, just a constellation. I don’t include it bc it’s extra.
on August 27, 2018
on August 27, 2018
when people claim “Oh I care about people!! Don’t be afraid to message me!!” Even tho they just want to seem like a good person and they don’t actually care. F*ck off.
on August 27, 2018
We were at a gas station an hour ago to go to the bathroom and get food since we have a 6 hour car ride home, and I was pretty pissed off at people so I wasn’t wearing a smile obviously. We were at the register and this cashier in his 30s-40s was like “you should put on a smile more” at me and I don’t know what men expect you to feel like when they ask you that shit because I swear that I went from like a 50 to 200 real fast and I almost cracked a smile because I just got soooo See More pissed. I’m still pretty angry because like I smell a pedophile lol.
on August 26, 2018
