not to brag but hannibal lecter is my boyfriend and we do murder people together
on February 22, 2021
this sea is too familiar
how many nights have i drowned here?
how many times have i drowned?
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how many nights have i drowned here?
how many times have i drowned?
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on February 21, 2021
i'm gonna go on a little rant so:
if you think being a "yandere" is cool Please get away from me
i have become obsessed with people i am romantically interested in so many times in my life and every single time i have scared them away because i get so possessive and weird.
the yandere trope is, by all means, an ableist representation of BPD; a disorder I HAVE.
BPD affects all my relationships negatively, and frankly, the fact that you CHOOSE TO ADOPT my mental illness symptoms See More because you think it's CUTE, disgusts me beyond belief.
now i'm not saying that I would ever actually hurt someone because i love someone, but there have been plenty of times my brain has made the switch from "love" to "lovesick" and my intrusive thoughts rule me for days, weeks even.
i nearly hospitalized myself twice in the past 2 weeks because of this. it's NOT CUTE!
if you think being a "yandere" is cool Please get away from me
i have become obsessed with people i am romantically interested in so many times in my life and every single time i have scared them away because i get so possessive and weird.
the yandere trope is, by all means, an ableist representation of BPD; a disorder I HAVE.
BPD affects all my relationships negatively, and frankly, the fact that you CHOOSE TO ADOPT my mental illness symptoms See More because you think it's CUTE, disgusts me beyond belief.
now i'm not saying that I would ever actually hurt someone because i love someone, but there have been plenty of times my brain has made the switch from "love" to "lovesick" and my intrusive thoughts rule me for days, weeks even.
i nearly hospitalized myself twice in the past 2 weeks because of this. it's NOT CUTE!
i appreciate you for saying this, will. i’ve seen countless “yanderes” on this site and it makes me sick and im glad im not the only one who knows its very ableist and disgusting.
on February 20, 2021
on February 20, 2021
a ~life update~
good things from the past few days:
- i talked to my parents over the phone for the first time since I came out - they seemed okay. No hard feelings I think
- i set up an appointment with a therapist who specializes in helping trans people (my current therapist is kinda transphobic)
- i started my classes at school! they are going well so far :)
- i officially started going by will with my professors/peers
bad things from the past few days: See More
- i was bleeding profusely for several days because I stopped taking my estrogen pills (it was making me dysphoric; but now i get heavy periods/migraines again lol)
- i was hella sick for like 2 days bc i forgot to take my meds and i was literally too nauseous to Take the Pills
- i almost hospitalized myself twice. i think i'm getting better tho
indifferent things (neither good nor bad)
- i think i'm starting to get over my current FP. it is a painful process but I think it'll be good for both of us in the long run...
good things from the past few days:
- i talked to my parents over the phone for the first time since I came out - they seemed okay. No hard feelings I think
- i set up an appointment with a therapist who specializes in helping trans people (my current therapist is kinda transphobic)
- i started my classes at school! they are going well so far :)
- i officially started going by will with my professors/peers
bad things from the past few days: See More
- i was bleeding profusely for several days because I stopped taking my estrogen pills (it was making me dysphoric; but now i get heavy periods/migraines again lol)
- i was hella sick for like 2 days bc i forgot to take my meds and i was literally too nauseous to Take the Pills
- i almost hospitalized myself twice. i think i'm getting better tho
indifferent things (neither good nor bad)
- i think i'm starting to get over my current FP. it is a painful process but I think it'll be good for both of us in the long run...
on February 18, 2021
on February 18, 2021
i hope we both die
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on February 18, 2021
ok so my mom just basically said that i can't be trans bc i have autism (which she hid from me for decades, might i add)
and is now blaming me for her issues with my father and their marriage
and is now blaming me for her issues with my father and their marriage
mane wtf. i am so sorry this happened. just know im here for you and lots of others are.
on February 15, 2021
on February 15, 2021
on February 14, 2021
i just finished writing a very long coming out letter to my parents
i plan on sending it today 0_O
i plan on sending it today 0_O
on February 14, 2021
on February 14, 2021
can you guys try calling me will for a little while i wanna see how i feel about it before i make any decisions
on February 13, 2021
how many times can one change their name in their life bc honestly i wanna do it again
on February 13, 2021
malicex uploaded a photo
sorry 4 the spam i just feel very masc like this :3
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on February 13, 2021
you guys: *freaking tf out, and justifiably so*
me: hey guys i wanna be HANNIBAL LECTER’S BOYFRIEND
me: hey guys i wanna be HANNIBAL LECTER’S BOYFRIEND
on February 13, 2021
on February 13, 2021