kinda tw but not really this is more of a positive post
lately I've found myself living for little things. waiting for the next dnp video. my painting class on thursday. my makeup subscription box coming. my muse concert next tuesday. all of these things are so stupid, and trivial, and dumb, but i live for them. having something small to look forward to every day, or at least every over day. as of today, my life is going to end march 28th. but that's probably not going to be See More the case bc something good will come up for me to look forward to! i gotta keep living, and even though i really don't want to, i got to. my family would be devastated, and i can't hurt them like that. i've got a whole life to live, and maybe one day i won't feel this way anymore.
lately I've found myself living for little things. waiting for the next dnp video. my painting class on thursday. my makeup subscription box coming. my muse concert next tuesday. all of these things are so stupid, and trivial, and dumb, but i live for them. having something small to look forward to every day, or at least every over day. as of today, my life is going to end march 28th. but that's probably not going to be See More the case bc something good will come up for me to look forward to! i gotta keep living, and even though i really don't want to, i got to. my family would be devastated, and i can't hurt them like that. i've got a whole life to live, and maybe one day i won't feel this way anymore.
KangarooRatNarwhalBlobfishHybrid
YES BINCH. IM LIVIN FOR THIS POST.
on March 20, 2019
on March 20, 2019
tmw u go selectively mute in the middle of class and the sub calls on you to read and you literally can’t so she harasses you
on March 18, 2019
it’s nice to know that you’re happy
it’s okay that i’m not
i’m glad he makes you happy
because i never will
it’s okay that i’m not
i’m glad he makes you happy
because i never will
on March 18, 2019
tmw u realise your favourite person will never love you and no matter how many people u hurt and leave behind for them it’ll never change anything and they’ll eventually leave you for someone who makes them happier than you can make them
on March 18, 2019
i just don't care if it's real
that won't change how it feels
that won't change how it feels
@TheHeroOfThyme
it’s lyrics from eternally missed but i just don’t care if my pain is real or mental, it doesn’t change how it feels though
it’s lyrics from eternally missed but i just don’t care if my pain is real or mental, it doesn’t change how it feels though
on March 18, 2019
on March 18, 2019
when fall out boy said “cause that’s just who I am this week” that really got me
on March 18, 2019
what a lot of ppl don’t get about being borderline is that I would literally hurt myself or others to obtain this person that doesn’t want me like that
on March 18, 2019
so idk if this is normal?
(tw ?)
I've come to the conclusion that life is meaningless, and you can't really change that mindset, but I can't help but constantly think: "oh! if I mess up bad at _____, I can just die! It'll be fine!"
Like, I have no intention of harming myself anytime soon, but whenever something goes wrong my brain always goes to suicide as the answer.
ig im having an existential crisis?? idk
(tw ?)
I've come to the conclusion that life is meaningless, and you can't really change that mindset, but I can't help but constantly think: "oh! if I mess up bad at _____, I can just die! It'll be fine!"
Like, I have no intention of harming myself anytime soon, but whenever something goes wrong my brain always goes to suicide as the answer.
ig im having an existential crisis?? idk
and why do I take all my anger out on myself?
my dad was yelling at me bc I was mad at him, so I took that anger and (tw) cut myself on the hip with a kitchen knife. idk why. I just wanted to feel something more real
my dad was yelling at me bc I was mad at him, so I took that anger and (tw) cut myself on the hip with a kitchen knife. idk why. I just wanted to feel something more real
on March 15, 2019
so rn my life is truly pointless past march 27th
I wanna be there for
-prom (23rd)
-muse (26th)
-sister's bday (27th) See More
then im gucci I can just fück around ; ) and die
I wanna be there for
-prom (23rd)
-muse (26th)
-sister's bday (27th) See More
then im gucci I can just fück around ; ) and die
on March 15, 2019
so now im thinking, and like,,, if I don't want to study for my English quiz tomorrow, I shouldn't. I should be ENJOYING my short ass pointless life instead of wasting it doing boring shit? kinda wanna just do what I want for a day, and just die afterwards. ill just cross off some important milestones (sex) and then go die.
on March 15, 2019
on March 15, 2019
what should I paint on my jean jacket?
I want it to be muse themed so I can wear it to the concert
I want it to be muse themed so I can wear it to the concert
on March 14, 2019
happy pi day !!
on March 14, 2019
on March 12, 2019