nothing bothers me more than “oh no way you have anxiety you’re so friendly!!” “you’re literally a singer how do you get anxious around people” “oh but you’re always so calm and collected” no gerald im not i am freaking out 99% of the time and i don’t show it because it’s embarrassing
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it also helps slightly that i’m mildly sedated 90% of the time with either weed or prescription medication LMFAO
on June 27, 2023
on June 27, 2023
on June 26, 2023
i ❤️ making lists so here r some things i’m excited about for going back to chi
-i miss my best friend sm. we haven’t been talking as much bc we’ve both been under a lot of stress lately but i still love her + care ab her even if rn i can’t show it. i want to catch up
-so excited to get out of ohio. i feel trapped here and i constantly have to be surrounded by people and it just makes me so incredibly nervous, i get panic attacks most every night
-i was offered a job at my See More fav pizza place in the area
-i’m really looking forward to going out with that person. anyone who knows me knows im SUPER iffy when it comes to any matters of romance and the idea of being pinned down scares me but something feels different about this, and they’re really cool and talking to them doesn’t feel suffocating in the slightest. they’ve got this whole creatureish vibe ab them that i fw + their music taste is insane too
-getting a bicycle!!!! super hype for this
-can finally eat healthy!! im staying w my parents rn and i’ve been surviving on herbal teas and carbohydrates for a month and a half bc they literally only buy carbs/starch, sweets, and meat and im vegetarian so my options r limited. i feel so disgusting atm this is killing my stomach i can’t wait to get back to chi so i can make my silly little snacks with my silly little fruits and vegetables
-god i kiss walking everywhere. all the businesses and houses are much too far apart here, im used to having a coffee shop, a trader joe’s, and a park all basically in my backyard
-beaches. god chicago beaches r ❤️ need i say more?
-i miss my best friend sm. we haven’t been talking as much bc we’ve both been under a lot of stress lately but i still love her + care ab her even if rn i can’t show it. i want to catch up
-so excited to get out of ohio. i feel trapped here and i constantly have to be surrounded by people and it just makes me so incredibly nervous, i get panic attacks most every night
-i was offered a job at my See More fav pizza place in the area
-i’m really looking forward to going out with that person. anyone who knows me knows im SUPER iffy when it comes to any matters of romance and the idea of being pinned down scares me but something feels different about this, and they’re really cool and talking to them doesn’t feel suffocating in the slightest. they’ve got this whole creatureish vibe ab them that i fw + their music taste is insane too
-getting a bicycle!!!! super hype for this
-can finally eat healthy!! im staying w my parents rn and i’ve been surviving on herbal teas and carbohydrates for a month and a half bc they literally only buy carbs/starch, sweets, and meat and im vegetarian so my options r limited. i feel so disgusting atm this is killing my stomach i can’t wait to get back to chi so i can make my silly little snacks with my silly little fruits and vegetables
-god i kiss walking everywhere. all the businesses and houses are much too far apart here, im used to having a coffee shop, a trader joe’s, and a park all basically in my backyard
-beaches. god chicago beaches r ❤️ need i say more?
@lesbianism if u have any good recipes i would veryy much b interested tho:) i’m super picky and i’m looking for new things to hopefully enjoy
on June 27, 2023
i seee sorry im vegan and i love cooking i get rly excited when i see ppl talk about going veg/veggie i always have to ask hehe❤️
on June 27, 2023
on June 27, 2023
@lesbianism i don’t have any good ones atm <\3 i j started and i’m stuck w my parents til this weekend and i’ve j gotta eat what they have til then
on June 27, 2023
on June 26, 2023
y am i always getting told i look like bjork i look nothing like bjork
its always either bjork, billie eilish, taylor swift, zooey deschanel, or carly rae jepson, i can only see zooey and maybe carly tho
on June 26, 2023
on June 26, 2023
found a little baby praying mantis the size of my fingertip today. best thing ever
on June 25, 2023
i luv those scenes in 90s moomin where snufkin’s in the background of a scene and he’s just standing there like ? why does he always look so shocked
on June 25, 2023
on June 25, 2023
should i a. grow out my hair like i’ve been planning to or b. keep it short and go as joan of arc for halloween
on June 24, 2023
updated updates bc things changed fast LMFAO also i forgot stuff the other day
-currently writing songs and i finally have my first album almost written
-getting a new tat soon! probably a franz kafka one:) though i also decided i want a medusa and boygenius one too among others. might try 2 convince my friends to get matching boygenius teeth
-also thinking ab a belly button piercing
-love life is still weird. im scared of commitment however when im back in town ive got a See More date w this cool fella and im actually nervous about it??? i don’t usually get nervous but this is like a date date and most of my situationships have j been kinda “lol ur hot let’s kiss” but i see potential here they r really nice
-gonna try to hit up an open mic while i’m out of town
-ive decided to start saving up money for travel starting once i’m back in chicago. if i can im going to try and manage a simple low-price vegetarian diet, work as much as i can, and have a couple of savings collections!! i want to travel westward for a couple of weeks (i can get an amtrack pass for like <500 bucks) and it’ll last me a month and i can i take the rail out to california which would be sick and i also wanna save over years to eventually go abroad, explore a few european countries, maybe catch up w rom and my other friends there.
-currently writing songs and i finally have my first album almost written
-getting a new tat soon! probably a franz kafka one:) though i also decided i want a medusa and boygenius one too among others. might try 2 convince my friends to get matching boygenius teeth
-also thinking ab a belly button piercing
-love life is still weird. im scared of commitment however when im back in town ive got a See More date w this cool fella and im actually nervous about it??? i don’t usually get nervous but this is like a date date and most of my situationships have j been kinda “lol ur hot let’s kiss” but i see potential here they r really nice
-gonna try to hit up an open mic while i’m out of town
-ive decided to start saving up money for travel starting once i’m back in chicago. if i can im going to try and manage a simple low-price vegetarian diet, work as much as i can, and have a couple of savings collections!! i want to travel westward for a couple of weeks (i can get an amtrack pass for like <500 bucks) and it’ll last me a month and i can i take the rail out to california which would be sick and i also wanna save over years to eventually go abroad, explore a few european countries, maybe catch up w rom and my other friends there.
on June 24, 2023
happy pride month to me!!!!
on June 24, 2023
on June 24, 2023
i actually took in the possibility that the person making the fuckshanked accounts is kendall but it was someone from the qfeast discord
on June 23, 2023
me, an adventurous wanderer (my lease expired and i had to leave the city) going on adventures and collecting precious treasures (cool rocks and shells) in uncharted territory i discover on my journeys (ohio) to bring back to my lady (my friend but we both like girls)
on June 23, 2023
black midi has 0 right being so good they’re so unserious
today i laughed hysterically listening to bmbmbm in the car bc i realized that the greep’s vocals on that track sound like donald trump having a stroke
on June 23, 2023
on June 23, 2023
ANYWAYSSS:)) i think we’re finally closing the sale on the house next week meaning i can finally go back to chicago
on June 23, 2023