also, echo and the bunnymen are f ucking great
like. i listened to em before watchin darko and!! the dopamine is immaculate
like. i listened to em before watchin darko and!! the dopamine is immaculate
on October 28, 2020
bruh i just watched donnie darko after wanting to watch it ever since i was like. a fetus
and!! i smell yet another comfort movie
and!! i smell yet another comfort movie
on October 28, 2020
friendly reminder to put trigger warnings on things that might trigger ppl like gore or horror nd stuff
also like. nsfw warnings bcz not everyone likes that ^^;
if you're starring an image or if your account is generally gonna have mature or triggering subjects,
at least put warnings in ur bio!!
thank u :}
also like. nsfw warnings bcz not everyone likes that ^^;
if you're starring an image or if your account is generally gonna have mature or triggering subjects,
at least put warnings in ur bio!!
thank u :}
sorry i know i starred one image but i don't generally star gore or nsfw photos. nor post them. dearly sorry if i have offended you in any way.
on October 26, 2020
yea!! my brother had recently made a post abt being bothered by some posts
nd i just saw some ''''creepy'''' images being starred so kdsjsn i felt like i had to say somethin
nd i just saw some ''''creepy'''' images being starred so kdsjsn i felt like i had to say somethin
on October 26, 2020
on October 26, 2020
me: has always felt insecure abt having big messy/ frizzy hair
alt people: teases their hair nd makes it look like mine
me:
me: :')
alt people: teases their hair nd makes it look like mine
me:
me: :')
@clown.boy hey man it's COMPLETELY OKAY for you to look different then others, thats what makes you you. And you know what? thats alright because you're amazing dude! don't EVER let anybody try to tell you you're not perfect just the way you are! because everybody is beautiful no matter how different from others they are.
on October 26, 2020
thank you sm!! it's just rlly hard to deal with nd take care of
nd it's a lot different from the other ppl at school lol
nd it's a lot different from the other ppl at school lol
on October 26, 2020
on October 26, 2020
tw?? needles nd body modification + slight s*lf h*rm mention//
i think?? i like skin embroidery now?? i mean, i've always thought of it like i've thought of getting piercings nd tattoos
but like. i just did a thing rn with my finger, a needle, nd a random thread and y'know what? i actually like it a lot!
it's not like. s*lf h*rm or anything so i think it'll be fine. in fact, i actually think this might help me cope with it!
i don't think my ma would approve very much of it though,, See More jdhskjskn,,,
i think?? i like skin embroidery now?? i mean, i've always thought of it like i've thought of getting piercings nd tattoos
but like. i just did a thing rn with my finger, a needle, nd a random thread and y'know what? i actually like it a lot!
it's not like. s*lf h*rm or anything so i think it'll be fine. in fact, i actually think this might help me cope with it!
i don't think my ma would approve very much of it though,, See More jdhskjskn,,,
on October 26, 2020
bruh i feel bad for corpse bcz like. everyone's sexualizing his voice so much
it's creepy and gross tbfh like?? ew :/
and he's apparently mentioned before that he hates it because
it sets up an expectation for what he's supposed to look like and
he feels like his looks don't match up to that :(
it's creepy and gross tbfh like?? ew :/
and he's apparently mentioned before that he hates it because
it sets up an expectation for what he's supposed to look like and
he feels like his looks don't match up to that :(
on October 25, 2020
venting here bcz i dunno where my journal is rn lol haha plz don't read it bcz i'm so ashamed <3
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i did it again. i've been doing it. i've relapsed so many fuckking times now. every single time, i get a few months clean and then i ruin it. i told my friends i was clean. i told them i got better. i fuckking lied to them and myself. i can't ever get better. i won't ever get better. i'm scared that i don't want to get better. my mental health is deteriorating so fast. i'm either going to kill myself or completely fuckking lose it. i'm at possible risk of psychosis. i can't shake the feeling that i'm going to do something awful. i'm afraid i'll be even worse than i was in 8th grade. i'm so afraid. i don't think i'll make it.
i hate that. i fuckking hate it. i hate myself. i'm so fuckking weak.
i promised ray i'd stop. i told him i wouldn't ever hurt myself again. i promised him that i'd try and live the best life as long as i could for him.
but i broke that first promise. i'm not strong enough to stop. and i'm afraid i won't be able to keep the other promise either.
i really do want to try for him. i'm trying, really. i love him so much. but these people make it so hard. these thoughts won't go away. these horrible thoughts. i can't seem to get rid of them no matter how hard i try. and the horrible memories. the awful feelings.
i cut again
and it felt good
and that tortures me
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i did it again. i've been doing it. i've relapsed so many fuckking times now. every single time, i get a few months clean and then i ruin it. i told my friends i was clean. i told them i got better. i fuckking lied to them and myself. i can't ever get better. i won't ever get better. i'm scared that i don't want to get better. my mental health is deteriorating so fast. i'm either going to kill myself or completely fuckking lose it. i'm at possible risk of psychosis. i can't shake the feeling that i'm going to do something awful. i'm afraid i'll be even worse than i was in 8th grade. i'm so afraid. i don't think i'll make it.
i hate that. i fuckking hate it. i hate myself. i'm so fuckking weak.
i promised ray i'd stop. i told him i wouldn't ever hurt myself again. i promised him that i'd try and live the best life as long as i could for him.
but i broke that first promise. i'm not strong enough to stop. and i'm afraid i won't be able to keep the other promise either.
i really do want to try for him. i'm trying, really. i love him so much. but these people make it so hard. these thoughts won't go away. these horrible thoughts. i can't seem to get rid of them no matter how hard i try. and the horrible memories. the awful feelings.
i cut again
and it felt good
and that tortures me
on October 20, 2020
on October 16, 2020
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on October 14, 2020
on October 14, 2020
on October 13, 2020
i wanna go back to the time where i got fuckkin blisters on my fingers from playing minecraft and papa's sushiria so hard
on October 09, 2020
drew those bcz of a fun little ""u and ur 2nd @ have to wear these"" post
on October 07, 2020
major tom
gottem lmaooo buy my shirts or maybe a muggy: https://www.bonfire.com/store/berd/ look at my dumb words: https://twitter.com/berdyaboi be my patron, look at ...
on October 04, 2020
bro ray nd i are literally just the left brain and the right brain dksjksjd
on October 02, 2020
bro i write poems and listen to msi, interpol, just emo songs in general while considering listening to mcr
and i f ucking put on vampire makeup while complaining about not being understood
should i just f uckin admit that i'm f uckinn emo
and i f ucking put on vampire makeup while complaining about not being understood
should i just f uckin admit that i'm f uckinn emo
on October 01, 2020