Andrew is asleep already
And I can't sleep
I dunno
I've been having insomnia
Paranoia
And
"hallucinations" See More
For a week
And I can't sleep
I dunno
I've been having insomnia
Paranoia
And
"hallucinations" See More
For a week
I'm sorry, I also must go to sleep
Find a big stuffed animal, snuggle up with it, turn on some music that you find calming, and put down your electronic, device, it makes it hard to sleep if you are on your electronics before bed, though I'm not really one to speak, just lie down and think about being with people that make you happy
Find a big stuffed animal, snuggle up with it, turn on some music that you find calming, and put down your electronic, device, it makes it hard to sleep if you are on your electronics before bed, though I'm not really one to speak, just lie down and think about being with people that make you happy
on June 12, 2017
on June 12, 2017
on June 12, 2017
on June 12, 2017
"You speak nonsense. But your words are crystal clear. How do you say something with no sense, and make it have meaning?"
on June 12, 2017
"And perfection was the picture. You were the painter my friend. And because you painted perfection, o broke it, trying to enter the world you painted. Because I wanted something better than this."
on June 12, 2017
"And I guess I didn't know if they were cold with sadness, or hot with passion. But I guess it didn't matter."
on June 12, 2017
Or I'll shout some random thing like
And jump on your back
"IZAYA IM GONNA GET YOU!"
And crash
And jump on your back
"IZAYA IM GONNA GET YOU!"
And crash
on June 12, 2017
And then like
I will randomly walk up to you and either
Put something on your head
Or whisper a random word in your ear
I will randomly walk up to you and either
Put something on your head
Or whisper a random word in your ear
on June 12, 2017
Some of them are invisible
Some of them you can almost see
Some of them are very visible
Which are normally on my thighs or chest
Some of them spell out stupid words
WHICH IS CLEAR
don't ask me why it says "bye bye" See More
On my knees
I hate to say this
But I was running out of insulting words
And I'm gonna shit up now
Some of them you can almost see
Some of them are very visible
Which are normally on my thighs or chest
Some of them spell out stupid words
WHICH IS CLEAR
don't ask me why it says "bye bye" See More
On my knees
I hate to say this
But I was running out of insulting words
And I'm gonna shit up now
on June 12, 2017
Ugh
This is why I don't wear short shorts (if the light is on)
You can see my stretch marks
And scars
And like
Hhh
THERE ARE PERMANENT WORDS IN MY SKIN AND I HATE IT
This is why I don't wear short shorts (if the light is on)
You can see my stretch marks
And scars
And like
Hhh
THERE ARE PERMANENT WORDS IN MY SKIN AND I HATE IT
on June 12, 2017
If I forget
I will sit there for ten minutes pounding on my head
And screaming
"I REMEMBER I KNOW IT I REMEMBER I KNOW IT"
I will sit there for ten minutes pounding on my head
And screaming
"I REMEMBER I KNOW IT I REMEMBER I KNOW IT"
on June 12, 2017
But I will sit on your lap
Or back
Or legs
And just sit there
And talk about nonsense
Or not talk
And I will randomly just See More
Comment on something about the person I'm lying on
Or back
Or legs
And just sit there
And talk about nonsense
Or not talk
And I will randomly just See More
Comment on something about the person I'm lying on
on June 12, 2017
I yell
And scream
When I'm mad
And I get scary
And I hate myself when the demons come out
Because then I don't care about anyone's feelings
And I hate that See More
And I hate hurting people
Because I'm real life
I say what's on my mind when it is
And when I'm scared
Or upset
I hurt those around me
Take their secrets
Flaws
Or self doubts
And use it against them
And I'm glad most of you guys will never know me in real life
Because I am a jerk
And scream
When I'm mad
And I get scary
And I hate myself when the demons come out
Because then I don't care about anyone's feelings
And I hate that See More
And I hate hurting people
Because I'm real life
I say what's on my mind when it is
And when I'm scared
Or upset
I hurt those around me
Take their secrets
Flaws
Or self doubts
And use it against them
And I'm glad most of you guys will never know me in real life
Because I am a jerk
on June 12, 2017
"I know you love me. By you can't live me."
What's wrong with me?
Like, I would sprawl on your lap or back
((If you're a close friend))
And just play with your hair, hoodie strings, shirt
Whatever the fuück
What's wrong with me?
Like, I would sprawl on your lap or back
((If you're a close friend))
And just play with your hair, hoodie strings, shirt
Whatever the fuück
on June 12, 2017
"Don't get too excited. It's not like you get to watch or anything"
"Keep your pants on because I'm taking off mine"
"Oh, calm your tits, they'll get hard."
I'm terrible
"Keep your pants on because I'm taking off mine"
"Oh, calm your tits, they'll get hard."
I'm terrible
on June 12, 2017
I get really nervous when I fake flirt with friends via text
Because like,
It's better when I do it irl
Because the sound of my voice +
My actions +
My facial expression
Shows you I'm mostly or completely kidding
Because like,
It's better when I do it irl
Because the sound of my voice +
My actions +
My facial expression
Shows you I'm mostly or completely kidding
on June 12, 2017
"Anthony is a big strong sweetheart! Full of love and manliness. Anthony is not easily discouraged."
"You're kidding yourself right? You yell at everyone, don't care about others feelings, and don't care if you hurt someone. You're overly self conscious and pathetic. You're not manly, just a massive douche. Making up words like "chickenhorsepoop" and such random nonsense as insults. You're a freak and a lame wanna be. Stop kidding yourself."
Well then...
"You're kidding yourself right? You yell at everyone, don't care about others feelings, and don't care if you hurt someone. You're overly self conscious and pathetic. You're not manly, just a massive douche. Making up words like "chickenhorsepoop" and such random nonsense as insults. You're a freak and a lame wanna be. Stop kidding yourself."
Well then...
"You little shit"
Brb I need to breathe
But thanks Andrew. Thanks.
Also
"Beating the dicks out butts" See More
Yes please
Brb I need to breathe
But thanks Andrew. Thanks.
Also
"Beating the dicks out butts" See More
Yes please
on June 12, 2017
Okay you little shit.
listen here.
Giving yourself these assbackwards selfhate talks in the mirror isn't going to make you feel any better. Sometimes I do it myself. But I stop midinsult and say to myself "You know, insulting myself isn't going to fix my problems." So I look past my flaws and look at the things I like about myself. I accept my flaws, knowing See More I can't change them. I carry on through my day, beating the dicks out the butts of my problems.
So I want you to go back to that mirror and take a long hard look. Now say "Im a man. My name is Anthony. I have my bad days, but I will get past them. I'm good looking. I am a boy and no one can tell me otherwise. I have friends to help me through tough times. I'm amazing. I. Am. Anthony."
Now go.
listen here.
Giving yourself these assbackwards selfhate talks in the mirror isn't going to make you feel any better. Sometimes I do it myself. But I stop midinsult and say to myself "You know, insulting myself isn't going to fix my problems." So I look past my flaws and look at the things I like about myself. I accept my flaws, knowing See More I can't change them. I carry on through my day, beating the dicks out the butts of my problems.
So I want you to go back to that mirror and take a long hard look. Now say "Im a man. My name is Anthony. I have my bad days, but I will get past them. I'm good looking. I am a boy and no one can tell me otherwise. I have friends to help me through tough times. I'm amazing. I. Am. Anthony."
Now go.
on June 12, 2017
on June 12, 2017