Wowie. My stepdad handed me a legitament Drill & Ceremonies army manual--
on May 22, 2017
Friend: Forbidden frendship-
Eh, wh carez?
Me: Only half the evil side
Evil: eyy
Me: eyy- GOTTA BLAST
Eh, wh carez?
Me: Only half the evil side
Evil: eyy
Me: eyy- GOTTA BLAST
on May 21, 2017
I'm feeling better.
I probably feel the best as I possibly can
Anyone wanna rp?
I probably feel the best as I possibly can
Anyone wanna rp?
on May 21, 2017
I feel better.
I'm just in pain
My chest tends to hurt when I get that pissed.
I'm just in pain
My chest tends to hurt when I get that pissed.
on May 21, 2017
Honestly, I need to punch something
Wait, they'll get pissed because I woke up their precious dog.
Because god forbit I let out my stress how I need to.
Wait, they'll get pissed because I woke up their precious dog.
Because god forbit I let out my stress how I need to.
on May 21, 2017
Ugh
Really not ready for school tomorrow.
I can't wait to fake a smile and contenue working, and pretend every insult I hear behind my back, every time I'm told I'm not "working hard enough" when in all reality I need help but dont wanna be yelled at for not knowing this, every idea ignored or shot down, having to pretend that I'm fine because god forbid I show I'm not fine, get snapped at for a simple question, get told that I have no reason to cry, hide every emotion, and get See More overloaded with work and expect to do it all when I'm allready in a bad mental state.
And god forbid I go to my dad's house, where I'm told I can handle it with a tone of them believing I have no hope, get told I'm slow as hell, called stupid, and expected to do nothing but chores and get yelled at for not having homework done, and DEAR GOD, let me make sure I don't point this out so I have to sit down because I'm melting down for no reason!
Really not ready for school tomorrow.
I can't wait to fake a smile and contenue working, and pretend every insult I hear behind my back, every time I'm told I'm not "working hard enough" when in all reality I need help but dont wanna be yelled at for not knowing this, every idea ignored or shot down, having to pretend that I'm fine because god forbid I show I'm not fine, get snapped at for a simple question, get told that I have no reason to cry, hide every emotion, and get See More overloaded with work and expect to do it all when I'm allready in a bad mental state.
And god forbid I go to my dad's house, where I'm told I can handle it with a tone of them believing I have no hope, get told I'm slow as hell, called stupid, and expected to do nothing but chores and get yelled at for not having homework done, and DEAR GOD, let me make sure I don't point this out so I have to sit down because I'm melting down for no reason!
Oh, and just at home is hell. Ask if someone is ok, I get told it's offensive. My brother snaps at me for asking a simple question, and nobody asks for my opinion. And when I do put it out there, they get shocked I even have one.
I'm honestly done.
I need to feel upset, just because I don't want to explode.
I don't want to hide it so much I hurt someone. See More
I need to feel some type of negativity instaid of ignoring it.
I need to stop hiding 14 years of rage, even if it's only for a moment.
I'm honestly done.
I need to feel upset, just because I don't want to explode.
I don't want to hide it so much I hurt someone. See More
I need to feel some type of negativity instaid of ignoring it.
I need to stop hiding 14 years of rage, even if it's only for a moment.
on May 21, 2017
on May 21, 2017
on May 21, 2017
on May 21, 2017
I just realized my body shape is a slightly chubby hourglass--
I need to exersize more
That'd help--
I need to exersize more
That'd help--
on May 21, 2017
SHIT I'M TOO MUCH LIKE MY MOTHER
I'M FREAKING OUT
MY MENTALITY REALIZED SHE'S GONE
SHIT
NO
NONONO
I CAN'T- See More
I'M FREAKING OUT ;-;
I'M FREAKING OUT
MY MENTALITY REALIZED SHE'S GONE
SHIT
NO
NONONO
I CAN'T- See More
I'M FREAKING OUT ;-;
It's gonna be okay
I'm here for you
Just breathe. Into your belly - diaphragm breathing. In for four seconds, out for four. Distract yourself.
I'm here for you
Just breathe. Into your belly - diaphragm breathing. In for four seconds, out for four. Distract yourself.
on May 21, 2017
on May 21, 2017
Heh
Found a benifit to all of this-
I CAN ACT OUT REALLY TWISTED CHARACTERS WELL-
THAT'S A BENIFIT, RIGHT?
Heh..
Probably need to find something a bit more optimistic--
Found a benifit to all of this-
I CAN ACT OUT REALLY TWISTED CHARACTERS WELL-
THAT'S A BENIFIT, RIGHT?
Heh..
Probably need to find something a bit more optimistic--
on May 21, 2017
Ok
I've been doing research.
May have major depressive disorder? It's only a possibility, specially when I'm definatley in no place to diagnose it myself when it's found through a medical diagnosis.
It's only a possibilty.
I've been doing research.
May have major depressive disorder? It's only a possibility, specially when I'm definatley in no place to diagnose it myself when it's found through a medical diagnosis.
It's only a possibilty.
That sucks. I'm sorry. But doing it in a week is better than not at all, at least.
on May 21, 2017
I'll try
@vive_la_revolution
Tbh I'm probably gonna have to wait a week because-
Well-
I'd perfer to talk to my mom about this than anyone else because she handle's it best See More
And
Well
She's stuck in florida for a week starting tomorrow, and left an hour and a half ago--
@vive_la_revolution
Tbh I'm probably gonna have to wait a week because-
Well-
I'd perfer to talk to my mom about this than anyone else because she handle's it best See More
And
Well
She's stuck in florida for a week starting tomorrow, and left an hour and a half ago--
on May 21, 2017
@vive_la_revolution Yeah.
I would talk to an adult about it
But
None are in the house right now and it'd be much more appropriate to say it to their face.
I would talk to an adult about it
But
None are in the house right now and it'd be much more appropriate to say it to their face.
on May 21, 2017
Research is always good
I still recommend talking to an adult about it. See if you can get a diagnosis for what's wrong and figure out how to fix it.
I still recommend talking to an adult about it. See if you can get a diagnosis for what's wrong and figure out how to fix it.
on May 21, 2017
on May 21, 2017
HAHA
I WOKE UP IN A DECENT MOOD THEN MY BROTHER TOLD ME TO SAY BYE TO MOM
SHE'S IN FLORIDA FOR A WEEK
HAHAHHAHAHA
FÙCK
I WOKE UP IN A DECENT MOOD THEN MY BROTHER TOLD ME TO SAY BYE TO MOM
SHE'S IN FLORIDA FOR A WEEK
HAHAHHAHAHA
FÙCK
on May 21, 2017