Only you can know if you are really lesbian, but based on your answers it is very likely that you are. For some people it can be really hard because your family and friends might have trouble understanding it and accepting it. Coming out is really hard but I know you can do it, do it on your own time. Some people are born to support the battle, some people are born to fight it, and some people are born to sit and watch uncomfortably. You were born to fight it, it only makes you stronger and I promise it always gets better. Now you are one step closer to finding the girl of your dreams.