I'm not interested in doing a documentary until I can finally sit down and say "I'm done". And that's when I'm dead.
Inspirational.
Inspirational.
on July 28, 2016
on July 28, 2016
"someone needs to hack into the pokemon go API and start putting hordes of extremely rare pokemon in the middle of busy freeways." -Deadmau5
on July 28, 2016
on July 28, 2016
Well... What if there's a parallel universe where parallel universes don't exist?
deep
deep
on July 28, 2016
on July 28, 2016
on July 28, 2016
on July 28, 2016
"Oh how they laughed and laughed when he said he'd start selling pizzas out of his hut. Who's laughing now?"
on July 28, 2016
on July 28, 2016
I am just going to clean up my page and post just, positive stuff.
No, then it'd feel forced. Either way, I really need to stop being such a downer. Huff
No, then it'd feel forced. Either way, I really need to stop being such a downer. Huff
on July 28, 2016
aAAAAaagh
I'm such a bad influence. I really can't do this because I'm hurting someone I care about, even if they feel like I'm not. Ugh, I need to stop..
I'm such a bad influence. I really can't do this because I'm hurting someone I care about, even if they feel like I'm not. Ugh, I need to stop..
on July 28, 2016
I smell nice :0
on July 28, 2016
Bab ;v;
on July 28, 2016
A good workout did the trick but I won't see y'all until next Wednesday or so, I'm leaving again to take care of my grandparents
on July 28, 2016
on July 27, 2016
I had the most horrible dream ever and it makes me just want to die.
I found out that I was homeschooling and I we went to the open house at my old school anyway. And I see my crush there and I just stand there crying and he sees me and even though the hug was brief, it felt like the stars, no, the whole universe aligned in my favor, if that makes sense. My mom wasn't too happy when we got back home and lectured me then I did the thing that bothers me but kind of makes me wish See More I could do it right now.
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In the dream, I had a noose. I inserted my head in it and stepped off my bed. I died and when I did, I woke up. And cried and cried. Not because I had committed suicide, but because I never will see my crush again. And it's torn me apart so much inside to the point where I would actually just die because I'll never be happy anyway, thanks to my family. It feels so great to be judged by parents so blindsided by their own faith and opinions when their children are thinking of suicide, and you can't even speak with them without them bringing up God or Jesus. I'm a Christian, but it's like in every conversation! Sigh, I just want to end it right here. All my pains and sufferings, just end them. I don't think I'll even be able to love again, thanks to my mom. She says I put her through shit, oh wow, if you could live life as me and deal with my emotions, well, you'll see. I'm just done..
I found out that I was homeschooling and I we went to the open house at my old school anyway. And I see my crush there and I just stand there crying and he sees me and even though the hug was brief, it felt like the stars, no, the whole universe aligned in my favor, if that makes sense. My mom wasn't too happy when we got back home and lectured me then I did the thing that bothers me but kind of makes me wish See More I could do it right now.
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In the dream, I had a noose. I inserted my head in it and stepped off my bed. I died and when I did, I woke up. And cried and cried. Not because I had committed suicide, but because I never will see my crush again. And it's torn me apart so much inside to the point where I would actually just die because I'll never be happy anyway, thanks to my family. It feels so great to be judged by parents so blindsided by their own faith and opinions when their children are thinking of suicide, and you can't even speak with them without them bringing up God or Jesus. I'm a Christian, but it's like in every conversation! Sigh, I just want to end it right here. All my pains and sufferings, just end them. I don't think I'll even be able to love again, thanks to my mom. She says I put her through shit, oh wow, if you could live life as me and deal with my emotions, well, you'll see. I'm just done..
I'm gonna be real with you for a sec, dude.
I won't pretend to know what you've been through, because I can't know what you've been through. But I do know what it's like to feel like giving up. I had considered suicide for weeks after my parents had broken up for the second time. I couldn't stand having to go through that shit again. But I held on to that little See More bit of hope that someone, somewhere out there relied on me. Be it my mom, my sister, or someone I didn't even know about. I held on for them. I realize that the stuff you're going through is pretty heavy. But I GUARANTEE that it will eventually get better. Your life is just beginning! Think of the opportunities you'll have when you're able to move out. You only have to stay with your parents for a small fraction of your life. If you give your life a chance. Look, if you can't stay alive for yourself, stay alive for me. Stay alive for Matt, for your friends! We all rely on you one way or another.
I won't pretend to know what you've been through, because I can't know what you've been through. But I do know what it's like to feel like giving up. I had considered suicide for weeks after my parents had broken up for the second time. I couldn't stand having to go through that shit again. But I held on to that little See More bit of hope that someone, somewhere out there relied on me. Be it my mom, my sister, or someone I didn't even know about. I held on for them. I realize that the stuff you're going through is pretty heavy. But I GUARANTEE that it will eventually get better. Your life is just beginning! Think of the opportunities you'll have when you're able to move out. You only have to stay with your parents for a small fraction of your life. If you give your life a chance. Look, if you can't stay alive for yourself, stay alive for me. Stay alive for Matt, for your friends! We all rely on you one way or another.
on July 27, 2016
on July 27, 2016