im lonely : (
AnimePup
ily guys too but i feel like matt is avoiding me or smth
on December 27, 2016
AnimePup
shut the hell up guys i want matt :/
on December 27, 2016
on December 27, 2016
on December 27, 2016
on December 27, 2016
I am so bored
I will take any requests from anyone
No Sonic, Creepypasta or any disgusting fandoms like those
I will take any requests from anyone
No Sonic, Creepypasta or any disgusting fandoms like those
on December 27, 2016
on December 27, 2016
indirect but not really;
i dont take pride in having low self esteem. you always rely on others to make you feel important. youre not your own person. you cant do what you like to do. stop treating it like its a joke
and no it's not a mental illness either so you can erase that from your list of self prescribed mental illnesses
i dont take pride in having low self esteem. you always rely on others to make you feel important. youre not your own person. you cant do what you like to do. stop treating it like its a joke
and no it's not a mental illness either so you can erase that from your list of self prescribed mental illnesses
@TheSmolKookieMonster then they start taunting you and you want to yell at them but then theyd prolly smack you and you just want to cry yourself to sleep
on December 27, 2016
@TheSmolKookieMonster
and no matter how much you try to make them understand, they dont
especially when your own family insults you and you take everything to heart. ugh thats the worst.
and no matter how much you try to make them understand, they dont
especially when your own family insults you and you take everything to heart. ugh thats the worst.
on December 27, 2016
please
i told them that having low self esteem isnt a mental illness bc I have it and it hurts
i told them that having low self esteem isnt a mental illness bc I have it and it hurts
on December 27, 2016
on December 27, 2016
why should you love yourself?
because you're worth it
if you weren't meant to be, you wouldn't have been born
but you were born
and since everyone has a place in this world, even you, you are definitely worth it. even if you dont see it
love yourself :>
because you're worth it
if you weren't meant to be, you wouldn't have been born
but you were born
and since everyone has a place in this world, even you, you are definitely worth it. even if you dont see it
love yourself :>
on December 27, 2016
@ mom
you always start shit between me and my dad. leave me alone, i hate you. id understand if you were my stepmom, but youre my birth mom. i always try to avoid you bc i know we always get into it. dont talk to me. i dont like you. its hard enough we share the same air, dont make it worse by even looking at me
you always start shit between me and my dad. leave me alone, i hate you. id understand if you were my stepmom, but youre my birth mom. i always try to avoid you bc i know we always get into it. dont talk to me. i dont like you. its hard enough we share the same air, dont make it worse by even looking at me
on December 27, 2016
mmm ok. so my dad doesnt "give a damn" about how i feel but hes ALWAYS the first one to ask me whats wrong when im crying or sad
your tough man shtick doesnt work on me, dad
your tough man shtick doesnt work on me, dad
on December 27, 2016
My dad was lecturing a minute for about 30 minutes bc I told my mom I dont care if I fail science
So he's lecturing and he says, "by tellin ur mom u dont care if u fail, thats like tellin her, "i dont care. shut up. leave me alone."
you couldnt have said it better, dad
So he's lecturing and he says, "by tellin ur mom u dont care if u fail, thats like tellin her, "i dont care. shut up. leave me alone."
you couldnt have said it better, dad
on December 27, 2016
Looking back of 2016, I think it was utter shit.
I had to start homeschooling, loads of people died, stress got the best of me and I've been getting urges to just die. I haven't cried this much since I was little.
Homeschooling: Well, most homeschoolers say it's great. It's not. They don't teach you anything, so you have to go home, figure it out by yourself and be expected to make good grades. Nah. I had to start this hell because of my mom. She found out I was head over heels See More in love with a biological girl and she put me in this...mess.
Deaths: Well. I never was emotionally attached to the people who died but I know they were loved. Prince died, I know George Michael died recently and then we had the horrible Orlando shooting at Pulse. I hate death and it was just a lot of them going on in 2016.
Stress and Suicidal Tendencies: Sigh. I hate stress. It's inevitable. Especially with homeschooling. I stress over the concept of stress. I stress that my dad or mom might find my qfeast page and read it through. (I half hope they do so they know how I truly feel.) I stress about this stupid science class and these damn test every week. It's gotten to a point where I've let myself go into thia dark place of anxiety and sadness. I can hardly relax because my dumb brain is always at work. I came close to killing myself this year. 2016 was not great.
What came good out of it?
Around late January 2016, I confessed my feelings to Matt about him and he felt the same. It was great. I go back to that moment when I get tired and sad.
Umm, my art skills improved.
Oh! I found out about Daft Punk and Gorillaz! Food for the soul right there.
Hopes for 2017?
I don't die. Jokes aside (if that was a joke), I want to become smarter in choices and happier. I want my mom to leave me the hell alone. (I like to imagine her as a random lady I have to live with instead of the woman who gave birth to me; takes the edge off of the sadness) I want to improve my art and writing skills and become somewhat fluent in Latin. I want to see Matt and learn pig Latin. I want to make more good friends and just be content with life. Also no more homeschooling. BOO.
If you actually read all this, I hope you have a good 2k17!!
I had to start homeschooling, loads of people died, stress got the best of me and I've been getting urges to just die. I haven't cried this much since I was little.
Homeschooling: Well, most homeschoolers say it's great. It's not. They don't teach you anything, so you have to go home, figure it out by yourself and be expected to make good grades. Nah. I had to start this hell because of my mom. She found out I was head over heels See More in love with a biological girl and she put me in this...mess.
Deaths: Well. I never was emotionally attached to the people who died but I know they were loved. Prince died, I know George Michael died recently and then we had the horrible Orlando shooting at Pulse. I hate death and it was just a lot of them going on in 2016.
Stress and Suicidal Tendencies: Sigh. I hate stress. It's inevitable. Especially with homeschooling. I stress over the concept of stress. I stress that my dad or mom might find my qfeast page and read it through. (I half hope they do so they know how I truly feel.) I stress about this stupid science class and these damn test every week. It's gotten to a point where I've let myself go into thia dark place of anxiety and sadness. I can hardly relax because my dumb brain is always at work. I came close to killing myself this year. 2016 was not great.
What came good out of it?
Around late January 2016, I confessed my feelings to Matt about him and he felt the same. It was great. I go back to that moment when I get tired and sad.
Umm, my art skills improved.
Oh! I found out about Daft Punk and Gorillaz! Food for the soul right there.
Hopes for 2017?
I don't die. Jokes aside (if that was a joke), I want to become smarter in choices and happier. I want my mom to leave me the hell alone. (I like to imagine her as a random lady I have to live with instead of the woman who gave birth to me; takes the edge off of the sadness) I want to improve my art and writing skills and become somewhat fluent in Latin. I want to see Matt and learn pig Latin. I want to make more good friends and just be content with life. Also no more homeschooling. BOO.
If you actually read all this, I hope you have a good 2k17!!
on December 27, 2016
tmw u try to type "sav" but you accidentally type "dab"
sigh
sigh
on December 27, 2016
on December 27, 2016
gee thanks for talking about me upstairs mom. you make life more enjoyable than it is.
on December 27, 2016
on December 27, 2016
I'd like to draw a webcomic so I can be like Shen but my confidence lower than the temperature in Antarctica so nah
on December 27, 2016