lol i keep having to tell myself "no jamie, that's manipulative behavior and you can't do that" like i'm talkin to a 5 y/o or a puppy
on September 03, 2018
whoa, i haven't played sims 4 in a while
imma restart it
anyone wanna be a sim??
imma restart it
anyone wanna be a sim??
on September 03, 2018
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honestly i wish i was dead. i'm such a wishy-washy manipulative jackass and honestly?? marvin was right about one thing. i'm a toxic waste of space and i regret not drowning to death when i was younger. i throw myself into harm's way for the sake of others, but no one ever does and will never do anything like that for me. i keep blaming myself for other people's problems and i can never take proper care of myself. i wear my heart on my sleeve for people to treat it like shit and i just sit there and smile. then i wonder why i'm so goddamn depressed 24/7. i can't even talk to people anymore because my self-esteem is so low that i don't feel like getting out of bed because i don't think i deserve it. and i don't. i deserve to rot in my bed and just die there. it's not fair for other's to suffer because of my pettiness and my fuckiing idiotic, self-destructive, and completely irrational behavior. i lost control of myself a long time ago. i used to be a good little girl and people liked me!! but i can't even keep friends because i'm so clingy. but i'm just really lonely. it's pathetic. i've never been able to keep friends because i never knew how. i always ended up pushing people away and collecting negative friends that just bring me down. and i wish that could just die. i'm really tired of fighting with myself almost every single day just because i want to self-harm. i don't think words of comfort could help right now because i'm tired of it. it's the same thing. i appreciate people's concern, but i'm just really tired of fighting and struggling. and people pitying me because i'm always alone. i just want to be loved for once. that's all i want, to be honest. i'm tired of playing stupid games with my feelings and trying to trick myself into thinking that i like or dislike someone. i just want to be true to myself. that's it. but that's too much to ask for, i guess. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
god i hate myself and i want to die. so bad. it's not even funny. i used to jokingly say "lmao i wanna kms" but now i'm serious. i'm just done.
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honestly i wish i was dead. i'm such a wishy-washy manipulative jackass and honestly?? marvin was right about one thing. i'm a toxic waste of space and i regret not drowning to death when i was younger. i throw myself into harm's way for the sake of others, but no one ever does and will never do anything like that for me. i keep blaming myself for other people's problems and i can never take proper care of myself. i wear my heart on my sleeve for people to treat it like shit and i just sit there and smile. then i wonder why i'm so goddamn depressed 24/7. i can't even talk to people anymore because my self-esteem is so low that i don't feel like getting out of bed because i don't think i deserve it. and i don't. i deserve to rot in my bed and just die there. it's not fair for other's to suffer because of my pettiness and my fuckiing idiotic, self-destructive, and completely irrational behavior. i lost control of myself a long time ago. i used to be a good little girl and people liked me!! but i can't even keep friends because i'm so clingy. but i'm just really lonely. it's pathetic. i've never been able to keep friends because i never knew how. i always ended up pushing people away and collecting negative friends that just bring me down. and i wish that could just die. i'm really tired of fighting with myself almost every single day just because i want to self-harm. i don't think words of comfort could help right now because i'm tired of it. it's the same thing. i appreciate people's concern, but i'm just really tired of fighting and struggling. and people pitying me because i'm always alone. i just want to be loved for once. that's all i want, to be honest. i'm tired of playing stupid games with my feelings and trying to trick myself into thinking that i like or dislike someone. i just want to be true to myself. that's it. but that's too much to ask for, i guess. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
god i hate myself and i want to die. so bad. it's not even funny. i used to jokingly say "lmao i wanna kms" but now i'm serious. i'm just done.
thanks cas
i love you so much
you're an amazing friend and i wish i met you sooner
thank you so much
i love you so much
you're an amazing friend and i wish i met you sooner
thank you so much
on September 03, 2018
I know you're going through a rough patch, and that things hurt, but please don't kill yourself. I'm sorry that I have my been here much, but I'm here for anything I can do.
I love you, Jay, and I wish there was a way to stop you from hating yourself so much. But you deserve love, you deserve happiness, you deserve to be okay and not hurt so much.
I love you, Jay, and I wish there was a way to stop you from hating yourself so much. But you deserve love, you deserve happiness, you deserve to be okay and not hurt so much.
on September 03, 2018
no, i see you're hurting too and i'm worried
i don't want you to take on more than you can handle and you shouldn't
focus on yourself before you want to help others, or else you just might end up hurting the other person
i don't want you to take on more than you can handle and you shouldn't
focus on yourself before you want to help others, or else you just might end up hurting the other person
on September 03, 2018
It's fine, don't worry.
If you need to vent my dms are open (may not reply instantly but I'll reply?)
If you need to vent my dms are open (may not reply instantly but I'll reply?)
on September 03, 2018
ha thanks
its just my anxiety flaring up from bein around a lot of people today
sorry, i was just being dramatic
im okay now, ty
its just my anxiety flaring up from bein around a lot of people today
sorry, i was just being dramatic
im okay now, ty
on September 03, 2018
on September 03, 2018
H EY GUYS, CAN YOU ST O P STAR RI NG MY OLD PHO TOS ? ? ???
THAN KS,, APP REC IA T E IT .
THAN KS,, APP REC IA T E IT .
on September 03, 2018
me: i don't need relationships,, they're pointless,,,, love is so overrated smfh.. .
her:
me: https://pbs.twimg.com/media/Dax-rsXUwAAMDZe.jpg
her:
me: https://pbs.twimg.com/media/Dax-rsXUwAAMDZe.jpg
on September 03, 2018
dave grohl is a legend and he can break my leg and i'd still love him
but he wouldn't because he's too kind and he's just a blessing AAHHh
but he wouldn't because he's too kind and he's just a blessing AAHHh
on September 02, 2018
on September 02, 2018
I BRING TO YOU, A MESSAGE!
gay.
that is all.
gay.
that is all.
on September 02, 2018
hotel california is so good
bless
bless
on September 02, 2018
on September 02, 2018
on September 02, 2018
i could sleep rn........ or i could mess up my sleep pattern a great deal and play food fantasy and cry
on September 02, 2018
lol whats the point of relationships if they arent even gonna last
i feel you tho
i can hardly act right around my crush and then when i try to, it's just nonsensical stuff that i spout
they probably cant stand me bc im so clingy :^)
and eh, sex is a turnoff for me rn bc im vulnerable af and i dont want to be touched in that manner
but hugs and kisses r great!!
i can hardly act right around my crush and then when i try to, it's just nonsensical stuff that i spout
they probably cant stand me bc im so clingy :^)
and eh, sex is a turnoff for me rn bc im vulnerable af and i dont want to be touched in that manner
but hugs and kisses r great!!
on September 02, 2018
on September 02, 2018
on September 02, 2018
im honestly tires of this and i will fuckiin run away from hkme if they keep pushin me, i swear to god ill do it.
on September 02, 2018
oh nice
stayed up til 3 to do my work and then my dad comes home and tells me that he wanted me to move in w/ him :/
stayed up til 3 to do my work and then my dad comes home and tells me that he wanted me to move in w/ him :/
on September 02, 2018