kafka

recent updates, theres not much tho

-classes ended this past week and i cannot believe im like halfway through with college
-today’s me n my gf’s 5 month anniversary + we had a sleepover last night
-i played my festival show on friday which went really really well
-still looking for a job..

STEVE ALBINI FUCKKING DIED WHAT

masterclass today for vocal studies and my twee ass is out here dressed like a mountain dwelling lesbian for some reason (idk if theres a dress code) also my voice is DESTROYED rn between allergies and my other classes

more updates
-allergies during finals week as a music major r EVIL
-job interview tomorrow might die
-had an emetophobia scare at trader joes on saturday bc some kid threw up i didnt catch anything tho
-another emetophobia scare today my gf n i were hanging out n she started feeling real sick and i was like “ok maybe ill call u an uber !” i actually am proud of myself bc even when she was like “im gonna move to the curb so if i throw up its not on the sidewalk” i went with her See More▼ and kept rubbing her back and stuff (she ended up not doing it while i was there but im still proud that i didnt freak out and run off) im still sorta scared ill catch smth bc we kissed
-orchestra was so fun today, me n the guitar players pretended to pass a joint around when it hit 4:20 which was so funny
-ive felt so pretty lately

sorry snufkin the franz kafka hyperfixation is going crazy rn

haiiiii

i woke up and immediately put the smiths on, thats how todays going so far

i wonder what owen’s up to now (hopefully in therapy and if not, in prison) the older i get in hindsight the way he treated me was INSANE

men who go out of their way to hate on taylor swift r so weird

today is so miserable its rainy and my gf is still sick im so sad

being a songwriter is so funny im literally a professional yapper and ppl think its cool

gonna yap ab one more small thing i love yapping but talking ab the norah war of 2022 reminded me if this one time i caught a roly poly and posted it on my story (not even a close up) and she FREAKED OUT bc bugs r her trigger like… u draw the line at bugs but it was totally cool for u to non consensually tell me n my friends ur disgusting fantasies ok

going off to war (3 hour orchestration class) soon help

recent updates HEHEHE
-my classes keep getting canceled and its kinda nice but startingggg to get annoying like broo im paying for this
-got an for a job i really really want
-period came hella early im dying
-got to see my gf yesterday but she felt gross so we didn’t do that much (i also didn’t freak out when she said she was nauseous which is CRAZY bc usually i go full fight or flight and i was only a bit anxious) (we dont think its anything contagious, the weather’s been See More▼ bad and she’s sensitive to that)
-registering for classes today and sorta annoyedddd bc registration started on monday for some people n mine doesnt start til noon today so all the classes i want r prob gonna be full:/ i hate registration sm
-[TUCA AND BERTIE SPOILERS] me n my gf finished tuca and bertie (ive already watched it but she hadnt) and god i forgot how weird the season finale is did they really HAVE to have tuca give birth to bertie

i only still use qfeast bc i can satisfy my bitter angry ‘i wanna post ab this online but i wont bc the ppl i dont want to see it will see it’ urges
anywaysss i need to stop holding grudges probably bc why do i care but recently i cant stop thinking ab that one girl i was friends with late 2021-mid 2022 who was chill until she started being gross and overly sexual in this groupchat we were in (she was like 14-16 at the time while the rest of us were like 16-18 through the duration See More▼ of it all) and i blew up at her once bc she started talking about wanting the literal worst thing that’s ever happened to me to happen to her which was really gross and then she got pissy w me for calling her out and started causing problems so i called her out on social media (stupid choice but this girl was a freak) and she sent her grown millennial sister who also dresses like a baby and probably is also into the same freak ass discord kitten lolita shit as her sister to threaten me and try to get cops sent to my house which didnt work bc they thought i lived in a different state

i think this is account is tied to the email i use to apply to jobs💀 if any potential employers (mostly coffee places) r seeing this i am a hard worker im good with people i can learn fast i know how to operate an espresso machine and can tell the difference between a latte and a cappuccino also i have a septum piercing and tattoos pleaseee hire me (please please please please please please please please)

sometimes bpd makes me actually want to shoot myself in the head but im glad i have the most understanding gf

sometimes i b like “im a little upset ab this but no big deal ahahaha” n then i go and put on radiohead