he didn't tell me

doctor's room

it has been 6 years. every day i wake up and take my phone and check if there is any message from my secret luv. but every day i get disappointed and then my whole day is ruined. so in short these past 6 years has been  a waste of time . i know the promise was for our own good. we were afraid that our future would be destroyed by our friendship. we wouldn't be able to focus on our career and i dont know. that is the problem. i dont know- anything. i dont know if nay luvs me  . i don't know (exactly) why our stupid, idiotic promise was made i dont know why i keep on checking on my phone all the time hoping for a message from nay. My life is almost destroyed because of this stupid promise. but the fun fact is that i was the one who made the promise or rather who thought about making the promise and nay was the one who was  against it coz he saw the real reason he saw that i was not afraid of destroying "others" career but his only. He is a great popstar. he is  wat people call future hollywood king. his band or rather OUR band lune- fUN and LovE together is the first band to be world famous which consisted of people of such young age the band was started when he was 20 actually all of them was 20. but wat makes it even more popular is that there are four "secret" singers and three of them are ladies who are super "cute". but the main thing is that they don't know who are these super "cute" ladies.  in all there videos the face of the lady singers plus the male one was edited and blurred so how do they know they are super " cute " i just don't get it. i was interrupted from my thoughts by my phone ringing. it was my friend julia. I answered the call and she was yelling at me - "where are u idiot ? today  u are supposed to give the intro for the newly appointed -- u told u would be here by 8 am it is 8:45 now the meeting will start by 9 am we have not done any preparations"wat was she talking about? i don't know anything " wat are talking about?julia i seriously think u got the wrong number""stop acting ok u have to come here  now!""julia wait i don't know what you are talking about? which meeting? and whom did u appoint? without talking to me?""wat is happenening-- u don't remeber ANYTHING"?"I dont know" "wat? do me a favour be ready in 5 minutes ok i will pick u up in my car "

wat is happening? wat am i  not remembering? am i too obsessed with nay that i don't remember anything? this thing is irritating me and which is more irritating is that i have a head ache. suddenly a red car stopped in front of me . it stood there for 5 seconds and suddenly the window opened and i saw julia!"julia whose car is this? u bought a car?" she stared at me  and suddenly yelled " get in the car idiot!" hello! wat did i do wrong. she was on a phone call and she was talking to somebody or maybe yelling " stop shouting at me that idiot is acting paranoid she does not know anything just delay it for 10 minutes pls?" she closed the phone and asked me "wat is happening is it true wat u said in the phone u dont remember anything?" i said calmly" i remember u and every thing except this car,and the meeting""THAT IS PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING!" she yelled . then she asked me a bit more calmly" wat did u drink yesterday" ok i remember yesterday uhh wat happened? " i don't know julia i seriously don't. OMG am i having memory loss at a young age ? Jesus Christ! My career , life everything is gone gone into ashes!"and i started crying julia  yelled"CHRIST!SHUT UR MOUTH NOTHING HAPPENED OK? BE CALM LIKE ME" calm?? this is calm?she then stopped the car and told me to get out.wat get out. Oh my god! i am in my office and i don't know anything they will terminate me . then suddenly jullia said "hello? where are u? get out ""no julia plz don't make me do this can i take a leave they will terminate me pls my career u are my friend right plzzz""terminate? oh geez this is not office ok? this is the angel clinic come"ok it is just a clinic all is well ur problem will be cured.i told this to myself and got out. then i went to julia and whispered " wat if they tell i have brain tumour?"she replied " congrats u are a patient! stop being an idiot nothing will happen ok? i guess u drank something yesterday in our farewell party and this is the side effect. this dont usually happen to everyone but i guess this was the first time u drank so that is why it is like that..... hopefully"i stared at her

we went to the receptionist and julia said " Dr.Sheila?"The receptionist replied " go left and take right first room do u have an appointment ?"i guess the receptionist was new coz she said it in an unorderly manner people first asked about the appointment then other details but i was in no mood to correct her. Julia replied" no, tell sheila julia parker came"the receptionist was clearly surprised yet said ok. we went and sat in the nearby chair.After 30 seconds the receptionist told us to go

i loved this hospital so much. when somebody is sick i take them here. but today i could not enjoy the hospital's beauty because today i was the patient. being the patient is terrible . i didn't know when we reached the consultancy room . i heard Dr. Sheila's crispy voice "come in" i entered the room with Julia. dr.sheila as usual was looking calm,gentle. Julia hurried to the doctor and told my problem and I was checking on a board in the doctor's office which said -"10 reasons to get memory loss" I read  and suddenly Dr.Sheila called me "zoe, was this really the first time''first time wat?"yeah this is  the first time i get a memory loss"She and  Julia laughed I was confused and then Julia told me"she asked u about u drinking""Oh that?i guess so"Dr.Sheila said"Ok so here is the prescription"and she gave me a piece of paper and she gave me a tablet. Julia opened her purse when dr.sheila said"it is alright"i said "no i will pay don't worry julia'i opened my bag and gave her 30$.So much for drinking. i advise all those who are going to drink for the first time -make sure u drink on Saturday coz u would get a day to rest-Sunday!Julia gave me a glass of water and the tablets . I  smiled and had the tablet .I closed my eyes for 10 seconds and i felt giddy then my giddiness stopped.

I opened my eyes