i sad i need advice

i cry every night now because my hero andy biersack is atheist and i want to see him in the after life...i pray for god to let him in when he dies but i don't know what to do,and i really sad about that,all i want to do is sit in the dark and cry while listening to there songs.they really helped me.they helped me stop cutting myself with the help of you guys.they helped me trough thick and thin even if they weren't actually "there" there but anyway,i just don't know who to turn too i can't talk to my mom about this because she wouldn't get it,she wouldn't get the way i feel about him,he literally saved my life his hole band did,and i am thankful for that every day,and to know that i won't see him after i die and spend eternity being friends with him it---it hurts really bad. i don't know who else to turn to.