✨idk what the hell to say✨
Guys, I apologize for being a dick awhile back, and this is really real, I know some people will think this is a fake apology. I'm barely active anymore, and I really just want to apologize to everyone I've been a dick to. I know it probably sounds really bland since I put periods at the end of my sentences. But I was such a dick, because I wanted to fit in, so I became fake, and did all the stupid shit I did. I tried to act all cool and mighty when I was really wasn't. I still See More▼ am not, but that doesn't matter, imo. I also apologize for pulling the victim card when I was clearly in the wrong. I apologize to the ones I hurt. I acted really really toxic, and that isn't okay.
I made two new friends at school, a guy's name I can't pronounce, but he said I can call him T-ler, he likes books, which is how we met, when I was carrying a book I was reading and he asked what book it was and I told him the title which is Danger Zone, and told him what it was about, and me and him started a discussion of books, and I think anime, and I met a girl named Faith and she's lesbian, which when she asked me my name I said my real name but told her I prefer being See More▼ called Tyler and that I was trans, and she said that she wasn't gonna judge and she thinks she knows someone I'll like as friend which is a drag queen she knows, and that she was lesbian, and she wants me to meet her with her group at lunch time on Tuesday and I agreed. The friends I made are pretty great and nice!
I got my school laptop Friday, and it's pretty cool, except when I let others in my home use it, I make it mandatory that they have no drinks, food, nail polish, and that they grip it tightly when they carry it. I'm also writing a children's book on it, since we are aloud to use the software installed, I also use the 3D art program in it, it's pretty cool.
I visited my cousins today, and we went to the playground in their neighborhood, and a boy with his group of friends put his hands on me because I was trans, and because I declined his offer to go out. I'm literally not even joking. When I declined he said he would never date a trans person anyways. Then he threatened me when I walked away, and they started gossiping about me, and making fun of me for being trans. When I stood up for myself, the boy flipped me over and I got up See More▼ and fought back, because I am not going to allow someone to put their hands on me, unless I put my hands on them first, that would be understandable. But I didn't touch the boy first. When I fought back and flipped me over, I still got up. I'm not going to cower away from a fight if they touch me first. I think we were both in the wrong for even fighting in the first place. But we were split up by the people who owned the neighborhood. His friends got the fight on video but he didn't even record the whole thing, he got it when I got back up and defended myself.
My phone autocorrected Hayden to Gayden, until I corrected it myself 😂 I told him about it and he laughed, I honestly love him so much (he doesn't use qfeast, so I post it on my wall since I have to say it somewhere or someone, because it was really cute)
My 3D art class wants us to pay $25 this week, and $50 sometime this year, but it'll be worth it! I got to buy a nine to twelve sketchbook, the art teacher told us places that have good prices, and showed us her sketchbooks, I'm excited for her class! Andit turns out I only had one team sports, they printed it twice on the schedule they gave me, but I still have HOPE which is Health and PE, I really wanted ROTC this year though. But I'm still excited!
7 days ago
High school was really great and fun, though now I'm mad since I called my dad and his car broke down, which I actually think it's an excuse just to not have to get up and come get me. Now I had to take the crowded bus home to my old neighborhood, and my dad said "oh why don't you spend the night at your moms friends house?" Maybe because I don't want to be a fücking bother
7 days ago
Ugh I'm worried about my brother and dad, because my brother called up saying something about my dad??? Honestly I'm scared, because my brother said that they were at my dad's friends house and he was really upset when he called us saying it smelt like burnt plastic and that he didn't know what my dad and his friend was doing, and I'm really worried.
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10 days ago
I went to the school today for my schedule, and I got English, Algebra, Marine Science, 3D Art, two Team Sports PE classes, Hope (Health and PE), and Intensive Reading. Though I'm planning on changing one of my classes in my schedule to ROTC, I met some of my teachers that were there, they were pretty accepting of me being trans, they were kind, and energetic. I also got a card that was for Marines recruiting bootcamp, but you have to be at least 17, or 18. I'm pretty interested, See More▼ I'm excited for high school. I'm excited for HOPE, Marine Science, and 3D Art. I might join the PTSA, it's five dollars for membership.
11 days ago
I'm honestly excited for high school, and tomorrow I go to get my schedule, I hope I was accepted into the engineering magnet and rotc, because I really want those classes, and it's really important to me. Even if I don't get those classes, I'm still going to be excited, nonetheless.
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Dear older brother (even though he won't see this), stop deleting my history.
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