E.M.P
I only randomly get on here as a reminder that at one point in my life i was actually happy
E.M.P added a new chapter to The Life of A F*ck up
suicidal
I had a dream i killed myself and that really f*cked me up. i felt every little emotion and even though it was a dream i swear it was partially real. it felt like i was finally relieving myself from all this pain. it felt peaceful almost melodic, but i know a stable mind would think it’s malicious. over the years my feelings have faded away into numbness, almost like they committed suicide years ago.
but in this dream i finally felt something, i was crying. i did it just the way i’ve always ... Read Full Chapter
but in this dream i finally felt something, i was crying. i did it just the way i’ve always ... Read Full Chapter
on December 14, 2020
E.M.P added a new chapter to The Life of A F*ck up
1:18 am
i don’t know if writing this is helpful or not because i’ve been happy today, for the first time in weeks i could breathe easily and simply live.
that’s the problem tho, it all comes in waves crashing down on me one second i’m drowning and the next i’m surfing enjoying the warm breeze on my skin. i know that the warmth will eventually be too much and i’ll be sunburnt washed up on shore longing for when my body didn’t ache.
i go to the water for comfort but it consumes me.
my cold body shak... Read Full Chapter
that’s the problem tho, it all comes in waves crashing down on me one second i’m drowning and the next i’m surfing enjoying the warm breeze on my skin. i know that the warmth will eventually be too much and i’ll be sunburnt washed up on shore longing for when my body didn’t ache.
i go to the water for comfort but it consumes me.
my cold body shak... Read Full Chapter
on October 03, 2020
E.M.P added a new chapter to The Life of A F*ck up
2am thoughts
monday august 17 2020
There’s something about the way air hits your skin at 1am as your drive with your windows down and music blasting
It’s like you’re cold but you can still feel the heat from the boy you just laid with
you get home not quite ready to go in so you turn your music down and find one last song to cover up the sound coming from your head
you stumble inside with your hair a wreck and mascara smeared your sent is no longer some cheap perfume you bought, you smell like him
bu... Read Full Chapter
There’s something about the way air hits your skin at 1am as your drive with your windows down and music blasting
It’s like you’re cold but you can still feel the heat from the boy you just laid with
you get home not quite ready to go in so you turn your music down and find one last song to cover up the sound coming from your head
you stumble inside with your hair a wreck and mascara smeared your sent is no longer some cheap perfume you bought, you smell like him
bu... Read Full Chapter
on August 17, 2020
E.M.P added a new chapter to The Life of A F*ck up
June 28
Sometimes i can feel the earth rotating 1,00 miles per hour beneath my feet,
eventually it shifts to my brain and i feel dizzy as my mind spirals.
But other days i can feel the force of gravity gluing me in place.
I feel so heavy it is impossible to move.
It's like there is a glitch in the matrix and I am the only one malfunctioning,
like i am cursed to feel everything but nothing.
I try to put it into words but my thoughts are either moving too fast to express or my mind is empty and occupi... Read Full Chapter
eventually it shifts to my brain and i feel dizzy as my mind spirals.
But other days i can feel the force of gravity gluing me in place.
I feel so heavy it is impossible to move.
It's like there is a glitch in the matrix and I am the only one malfunctioning,
like i am cursed to feel everything but nothing.
I try to put it into words but my thoughts are either moving too fast to express or my mind is empty and occupi... Read Full Chapter
on June 29, 2020
E.M.P created a story
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this is pretty much a poor me i’m suffering and can’t share my feelings with anyone around me so why not turn to strangers on the internet. hope you enjoy, even if no one reads just putting it out there makes me feel better. i ...
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on May 01, 2020
E.M.P asked a question
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I never tell anyone what's going on in my life or how i feel so i figured why not just put it here.
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by E.M.P
on March 30, 2020
still shitposting I see lol
E.M.P
Lol I don’t know if I’ll ever stop
on March 30, 2020
on March 28, 2020
E.M.P created a story
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Here’s a short poem of a dream I had, and then the reasoning behind my dream. Later I’ll probably make it way better but I’ve had writers block for awhile so here’s a start :)
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by E.M.P
on September 06, 2019